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Monday, February 27th:
I will continue doing housework.
I will take two articles of clothing to the dressmaker to have them mended.
I will go visit Pearl House, then Amos Anderson art museum, and then Girls’ House.
Happy birthday, Heidi!

Tuesday, February 28th:
I will finish the rest of the housework.
I will go visit my mother, she will give me the weekly allowance.
We will go to IKEA to purchase me a dining table and some chairs.
If I have enough time, I will go to movies to see A Cure For Wellness, and then I will go to gym.

Wednesday, March 1st:
Welcome, March!
I will receive money. I will order myself a new change purse from GlobeHope, buy a week’s worth of groceries, and go see the movie Tom of Finland.

Thursday, March 2nd:
I will go to the library to this get- together where you can read books and knit whatever you want.
I will go to Lapland Spring, and then to the gym. Then I will go to my parents' home for a sleepover.

Friday, March 3rd:
I will go back home, and start doing the weekly housecleaning.
The worker from HoivaOnni will visit me.

Saturday, March 4th:
I will go to the gym.
I will continue doing the housework.

Sunday, March 5th:
I will visit my parents.
I will continue doing housework.

Today's deeds

Counting my blessings:
😍 There was such a blessed sunshine!
😍 I managed to do all the hygiene routines
😍 My eczema is almost cured
😍 Heidi's birthday party

Food intake:
🍰 Shrove bun with marzipan and whipped cream
🍰 Three Finnish tomatoes
🍰 A handful of assorted candies
🍰 Pizza pastries
🍰 Bag of nacho- flavoured corn snacks

Personal hygiene:
🚿 Flossed and brushed my teeth, scraped my tongue, used mouthwash, and put Bemetson on my eczema
🚿 Changed my panty liner in the evening

Housework:
🏠 Took out the biological waste
🏠 Wiped down the kitchen counter
🏠 Folded laundry

Medicine:
💊 Three tranquillizers at seven o'clock in the evening
💊 I took my morning medicine and evening medicine
I slept very well and had a nice dream where I visited a huge library building that resembled one of them Greek temples made of marble, and there were plenty of books about The Ramones.
When I woke up, I noticed that Mirette had already come home from Riikka’s party, and the ceiling lamp was on because neither of us had bothered to turn it off. I didn’t mind, it just made me snicker a bit when I thought about how we could manage to sleep with the lights on.

When I got up, it was only quarter past ten o’clock in the morning, so me and Mirette had plenty of time to prepare for Heidi’s birthday party.
At first I had thought it would already be something like two or four o’clock in the afternoon and we were already too late.
Actually Heidi’s birthday is on Monday, but it’s better to organize parties during weekends because most people are at work or school on weekdays.

I took my morning medicine, had a proper wash, and put on my new pyjama pants, the ones with rainbow and panda bear pattern.

I fetched my bed sheets and winter coat from the drying room, took my old diary to the storage room and fetched another diary. I also wiped the kitchen counters clean, and washed the plastic boxes where Suavecita brought the baked treats to my Valentine’s day party, I am supposed to give them back to her.

Me and Mirette went to the supermarket to buy some treats; a bag of crisps, a big bottle of diet coke, and a box of Shrovetide buns.

We took a train to Stone City, where we met Odessa and Eleclya, and later Suavecita picked us up on her car. She drove us to Heidi & Jari’s home, Ansku was already there and Suski arrived a couple of hours later.
We had a good time, eating treats and listening to Nightwish, but I started feeling anxious because everyone was making such big noise and some of the party guests were getting annoyed and started snapping at each other. I had to take three tranquillizers.

In the evening, Suavecita drove us to Jumbo, Odessa sat on the front seat, and I sat on the back seat squashed between Eleclya and Mirette. By then my tranquillizers kicked in, and I started leaning on my side.
Me and Mirette caught the bus %&” to Aviator and then a train to Mole Hill.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and had a wash.
Then I took my winter coat to the balcony for the night so it’s going to freshen, and took the biological waste out so it’s not going to stink up my kitchen during the night. I will do those things every evening; take the winter coat to the balcony, and the biological waste to recycling.
Tomorrow I will go visit my parents, and then I will probably go to the gym. I also need to do housework.

I have been thinking of visiting my parents only twice a week, on Tuesdays when my mom gives me the weekly allowance, and on Sundays, which is the usual visiting day. It’s just that I don’t always find anything special to do at my parents’ home; I just eat too much coffee and eat too much sugary treats, watch old VHS cassettes, look at my family photos, and squeeze my blackheads.
And it would be best for my parents if I didn’t visit them all too often, they need their own time as well.

Reaktori blows my mind

Yesterday me and Mirette went to Reaktori, a winter break happening for young adults. We both had a good time there, I am going there again next winter.

We quickly visited my home to pick up some stuff, then took the bus %&= to Flux Island and then a subway to Heart Cape. It was almost midnight when we were at Mirette’s home, I was so sleepy that I practically fell on Mirette’s bunk bed and slept all the way to morning, when Minski, her social worker, came to visit. I like Minski, she is a very nice and respectful person.

It was nine o’clock in the morning when she came over, but my internal clock said it was only six o’clock in the morning. I took my meds and dressed up and fell back on the bed, and slept all the way to one o’clock in the afternoon when Minski had already left, that’s when I voluntarily got up and washed Mirette’s dishes.

We went to K- Market and bought strawberry milk and Shrovetide buns with marzipan and whipped cream (we both dislike the ones with jam), and took the bus %= to Pole, where Mirette went back to Reaktori and I took a train to Mole Hill.

Once back home, I replaced the towels, washed three loads of laundry, took the sofa- bed mattress, blankets, and pillows inside from the balcony. I hoovered the sofa- bed and the mattress, and made the bed.
Then I took my own mattress, blanket, and pillow to the balcony, so they will freshen up during the cold night.

When my H & O worker came for a visit, I washed the dishes and ironed the laundry, while talking to her about stuff that has recently happened in my life.
We both left at the same time, I went to see my mother. I took the bus %/! to Troll Mountain, once at my parents’ home mom gave me twenty euros. I didn’t stay long because I had plenty of stuff to do and plenty of places to be, so I hugged and kissed my mom and told her I am coming again on Sunday. We also agreed that we are going to the nearest IKEA in a month to buy me a dining table and some chairs, and that I need to wash my backpack because it’s getting stinky.

I took the bus %/¤ to Mole Hill, and went to the supermarket to buy a birthday card for Heidi, and a bottle of universal cleaning spray because I am running out of it.

Once back home, I fetched my laundry from the drying room and brought more laundry inside.

Later the day Mirette came home, she had been at Reaktori.
We went to Riikka’s home party, but we didn’t feel like staying long because there was this mentally handicapped man who kicked Riikka’s dog, and I decided to leave before he would kick me.
Riikka told me that she will walk Mirette back home once she leaves. I adore Riikka so much, she is such a good and kind person.

I went to the supermarket and bought a canister of special laundry detergent for sensitive textiles.
Once back home, I took out the trash, and washed my winter coat in the washing machine with the aforementioned detergent.
I brushed my teeth and took a proper shower, and rubbed Bemetson into my eczematic skin.

Tomorrow me and Mirette, along with other friends, will go to Heidi’s birthday party. I’m sure we will have a good time there.

I wish I was an angel to someone

Last night I had a dream where I was the guardian angel of the rap artist Eminem, when he was a child.

I got up at eleven o’clock in the morning (11:00 am) and took my meds. I decided not to brush my teeth because I didn’t want to leave my flu bugs into my toothbrush.

I put on the first thing I found in my closet, a pair of pyjama pants and a stripy shirt.

I almost forgot to check the balance of my bank account in the online bank service; I had received 216 euros, and paid for my Spotify Premium subscription.

I went to the health center in order to give a blood sample, but there were 50 people before me, so I decided to go later.

I took a train to Hell City and went to the nearest bank to withdraw money. What do you know, there was only one customer before me.

I withdrew all the money, and took a train back home.
I went to the dressmaker and paid for the mended clothes, then I went to the pharmacy and purchased two batches of my mood stabilizer, and a tube of anti- eczema lotion, they were both prescribed medicine.
I went to Cubus and bought the pyjama pants I had set aside yesterday.
I also went to the supermarket and bought a week’s worth of groceries.

Once back home, I put the groceries into the fridge, and dealt the pills into both of my Dosetts.

I received two letters in the mail; a phone bill, and a bonus coupon from the stationery shop.

I went to the library to return a stack of books and DVDs, and then to the stationery shop to buy ten magic ink pens; two purple ones, two black ones, two green ones, two blue ones, and two light blue ones; I purchased them with my coupon. Then I went to the social office to drop off two bills.

I took a train to Hell City, where I met Mirette. We went to the movie theater and bought two Premium tickets to the movie Moana, or Vaiana, as it is called in Finnish. It was a 2D version with Finnish dubbing.
The movie was awesome, it ended happily, and we left the movie theater in high spirits.

We went to Fiorella to buy a pencil case for Mirette, and then we took a subway to Heart Cape and went to the supermarket to buy groceries.

Once at Mirette’s home, we had supper, and Mirette recharged her camera battery.

We took a subway to Crossing, then the bus %&= to Mole Hill, and went to the supermarket to buy more groceries. I stocked up on hygiene products.

Once at home, we had some treats and went to bed at midnight.

Tomorrow me and Mirette will go to this winter break happening for young adults, it’s held in Hell City.

Now that I reflect the happenings of today, I am proud of myself since I accomplished so much. But then again, becoming an adult is when you realise that 200 euros isn’t that much of money. And when you realize that a thousand euros isn’t that much to earn, but it’s more to owe.

Trainspotting

Last night when I went to bed, I was feeling the usual apocalyptic angst about my existence; what is the point in living, when you are going to die anyway? But then again, I was too busy playing Pokémon: RED on PlayR.org and eating the rest of the Valentine’s day cheesecake to give a damn.

I was having an interesting dream about Roger Delgado, when my alarm clock woke me up. I snoozed for a quarter of an hour, and then I had to get up.
I took my morning medicine, washed my face, dabbed lotion on it, and dressed up. I didn’t feel like taking a shower.

I went to the health center, and knew that today was going to be a beautiful day.

I had my appointment at half past ten o’clock in the morning, which is a tad bit too early for my standards and internal clock, but nevertheless, I made it to the appointment.

I asked my doctor a few questions:
What kind of lotion should I use for my eczema?
Bemetson for the eczema, and Aqualan Plus for basic treatment. Zie also renewed those prescriptions.

Why do I keep on gnashing my teeth when I am awake?
It could have something to do with suppressed nerves, I should consult my nurse at the psychiatric center.

What kind of nutritional supplements should I use?
Vitamin D during winter, I could also start taking biotin if I wish.

Does hydro- colonic treatment actually work?
The doctor said zie is not sure, but I could give it a try.

Zie also peeked into my ears, eyes, and checked my teeth, and taught me how to check my breasts for lumps.

After the appointment, I went to the social office to drop off two bills, and then I went back home.

At noon I called my mother and asked her if she could visit me, she said it’s alright. We agreed to meet at the shopping mall at one o’clock.
I met her there, and we went shopping to the department store. She bought me a new brassiere, a roll- on deodorant, and gave me twenty euros.

We went to my home, I made some tea for her and coffee for myself. We had a good time together.

I noticed that the alarm was still stuck to my brassiere, so we had to go back to the department store to get it off.

Mom went home, and I visited Cubus. I was amazed to see that they had a new design of pyjama pants for sale, grey with panda bears and rainbows!

I went back home, and hoovered the floor including from under the furniture.
After I left, I went to Cubus again and asked the friendly shop assistant to set a pair of them pyjama pants aside, so I can come again tomorrow and purchase them.

I took a train to Hell City, went to the movie theater and bought a ticket to the movie T2 Trainspotting.
The movie was amazing, the kind that makes you laugh, cry, and feel like someone wiped their butt on your eyeballs.

After the movie I took a train back home, sent a couple of text messages, and scribbled furiously into my diary.

Once back home, I was full of energy, but not enough energy to wash the dishes or take out the recycling, so I just danced around in my underwear to Queen, wrote into my diary, and played Pokémon. My Blastoise grew to level 100, and I raised my Mankey to a Primeape. Now that I have beaten the Elite Four and captured Mewtwo, I have decided to raise my ‘mons into their evolved forms.

Tomorrow will be a very busy day; I will receive both my weekly allowance from the social office, and the monthly allowance from the social security institution.
I will go to the health center in the morning to give a blood sample, then I will go to the nearest bank to withdraw the rest of the money. I will go to Hell City and check out all the vintage thrift stores to buy new clothes.
I will purchase prescription medicine from the pharmacy, and buy a week’s worth of groceries.

Cough, cough, cough

I still have the flu, but I don’t feel as bad as I felt during the weekend; I don’t have temperature, or the general spaced out feeling, but I cough a lot and I have also lost my sense of taste and smell.

Today me and Mirette were pretty chill, I just did housework while blowing my nose, and coughing.

Later the day me and Mirette left after her smartphone was loaded. First we went to Subway to buy a sandwich for her, and then we went to the supermarket where we bought some snack and drink; I got a box of raspberries and a mint latte, and Mirette got a box of blackberries and cocoa.

We took a train to Hell City, then a subway to Heart Cape, and went to Mirette’s home. I picked up the suitcase I had forgotten there, and left.

I was thinking of taking some other route home, but the buses were a bit scarce so I took the subway to the city center, then a train to Mole Hill.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine, and washed my black trousers and two new brassieres in the washing machine, so I will be able to wear them at the doctor’s appointment tomorrow. I also took the mattress and blankets from my sofa- bed to the balcony to have them freshened.

It occurred to me that I didn’t feel as sad as I used to feel in the evenings. My life has been pretty smooth now.

I set my smartphone alarm clock to wake me up at nine o’clock in the morning. I need to take a proper shower and give myself a good scrubbing, because I will have an appointment with my doctor and I want to give a good impression.
After the appointment, I will go to the social office to drop off two bills.
I asked my mother if she could visit me today, we will decide about it tomorrow but anyway, she is going to give me the weekly allowance which I will use to go to movies to see T2 Trainspotting. I also have to finish doing housework.
Monday, February 20th:
I will continue doing housework.

Tuesday, February 21st:
I will have a doctor's appointment at half past ten o'clock in the morning, it will be a routine check- up.
I will go visit my mother, she will give me the weekly allowance. I will go to movies to see T2 Trainspotting.

Wednesday, February 22nd:
Today is a dream come true, I will receive the monthly allowance (130 €) and the weekly allowance (80 €) which is a huge sum of money!
The first thing to do is to purchase tickets to movies, preferably those mobile tickets I can store on my smartphone. I will go see Moana (or Vaiana as it is called in the Finnish translation) with Mirette, and I will purchase a set of four movie tickets to use later.
I will also purchase enough first- class postage stamps to mail every single one of the Valentine’s day cards, and then name- day cards and birthday cards, another thing I need is a wall calendar for the following year.
I will also go pick up the mended clothes from the dressmaker, and buy a week’s worth of groceries.
Me and Mirette will go to a winter break happening for young people.

Thursday, February 23rd:
I will go to movies to see three individual movies, believe it or not; Collateral Beauty, Swiss Army Man, A Cure For Wellness.

Friday, February 24th:
I will start doing the weekly housework.
My HoivaOnni worker will visit me.
I will go see my parents.
I will go to the local library, there will be a karaoke night.

Saturday, February 25th:
I will go to Heidi's birthday party.

Sunday, February 26th:
I will continue doing the weekly housework.
I will go see my parents.

Eleven stranger things

I had dreams about Stranger Things, the TV show I had watched on Netflix last night.

I had the cold, and I felt really bad; I slept pretty badly, and had to get up two times during the small hours to take a hot shower to make myself feel better. I felt really spaced out, my head ached and my throat was sore.

After getting up in the morning, I took my medicine, dressed up, and dabbed lotion on my face. I also remembered to put deodorant into my armpits, I have taken up the habit of using underarm deodorant.

I called my mother and told her that I am coming over, and took the bus ##% to my parents’ home.
I had coffee and some snacks with my mother, and then we took the bus %/¤ to the shopping mall.

Once there, we went to two department stores, and mom bought me two pairs of padded, wired brassieres. I think they’re rather nice, I might start wearing those types of brassieres again.
Mom also bought me two magic ink pens, one pink and one green, from the stationery shop. We went to a café, I got peppermint- flavoured cocoa and half of mom’s vanilla bun.

We took the same bus back to my parents’ home. I wrote into my diary, had coffee with mom, and when I left, I told my mother that I am coming again later tonight.

Me and Mirette went to the supermarket to buy frozen French fries for supper. Once back home, I sorted my laundry into those that are going to be ironed, and put the rest into the cupboard.

I called my mother and told her I am coming over. I took the bus %&% to Troll Mountain, once there mom asked me to pop to the grocery shop to buy milk, and gave me some money for it.
I took a bus to the city center, and went to the supermarket to buy two liters of milk and some treats, mom had given me permission for it.

I took a bus back to my parents’ home, and later the day I went back to my own home on a bus. To be honest, I would have preferred walking, but now that I have the flu, I have to avoid losing energy.

Once back home, I warmed the French fries in the oven and washed the dishes.

Tomorrow I will help Mirette carry her stuff back to her own home. I left my luggage bag there, I will take it along and bring it to my own home, and do the rest of the housework.
Today I woke up with a sore throat, it’s a certain sign that I am going to catch cold.

Still, I managed to wash two loads of laundry, scrub the toilet bowl, and take out the trash.

Later the day me and Mirette went to the supermarket to buy some snack, and then we went to the hoods to take photos of the street art. I realized how nice it is to be outside, there’s plenty of sunshine and fresh air, and most of the snow had melted away.

Once back at my home, I warmed some lunch in the microwave oven. When I swallowed the pieces of food, it felt nice in my sore throat, like scratching an itch.

In the evening I wiped the worst stains off the stove, and made a mental note to hoover behind it.

I called my mother and chitchatted with her for a while, she said that she is going to take me to the shopping mall tomorrow to buy me a proper pair of brassiere. I said it’s alright.

I started watching Stranger Things on Netflix.
I slept very well last night, because I had plenty of sleep debt to sleep off.

Mirette was awake early and went to visit her own home, I continued sleeping.
Later the morning my doorbell rang, it was the repairer who brought me a new toilet seat and cover, and took the broken one with him.

I went back to bed, and got up at one o’clock in the afternoon. I took my morning medicine and dressed up.

My HoivaOnni- worker came to visit me. We had a nice talk, and I managed to wash all the dirty dishes.
I also replaced the towels and took the sheets off my bed, and put the mattress, blanket, and pillow to the balcony.

After she left, Mirette came home. We went to the supermarket to buy Shrovetide buns and something to drink, then we went to the stationery shop to buy a birthday card for Pärkele, who had his birthday on last Sunday.

We took the bus #) to Henhouse, and went to Horror Shop. Pärkele wasn’t there, so we asked the new shop assistant to give the birthday- and Valentine’s day cards to him when he returns.

We took the same bus back to Mole Hill, once there Mirette went to my home and I went to see my parents. I took the bus ##% to Troll Mountain, and called my mother on the way to tell her I am coming over, she said it’s alright.

Once at my parents’ home, mom was there and dad came home from work later.

Later the day I took the bus ##% to Mole Hill. Once back home, me and Mirette had mozzarella sticks for supper.

When I went to bed, I thought how awesome it is that I can sleep in my own bed at the end of each day.

Before you die, you see the sequel

I stayed awake last night, even if I was exhausted after the Valentine’s day party.
I watched Keeping up Appearances, played Pokémon: RED, and updated my journal.

When the next morning dawned, I took my medicine, brushed my teeth, dabbed lotion on my face, dressed up, and ate a decent breakfast. I noticed that I looked very pretty.

I spent my time wrapping my dresses and skirts into rolls, and putting them neatly into my cupboard.

I don’t know why, but it took me a while to notice that my armpits smell like, well, the best word would be “rotten shit”. Fortunately Suavecita had given me a roll- on deodorant.

Me and Mirette stayed inside all day, except in the evening we went to the movies. I had convinced Mirette to come along when I go see Rings.
We took a train to Hell City, and went to the movie theater.

The movie was amazing, even if many people have said that it deserves a Golden Raspberry award, I still loved it because the “monster” is a female teenager, and she isn’t sexualised in any way.

After the movie, we took a subway to Heart Cape and went to Mirette’s home. She wanted to see Gordon Ramsay’s Hell Kitchen on her television, and she also gave me a purple magic ink pen from her own pen collection, because mine was out of ink.

We took a subway to the city center, a train to Mole Hill, and once back home I was so tired that I just took my evening medicine, changed into a nightie, and went to bed.

Tomorrow I will start doing the weekly housecleaning routine, and I will go see my mother before the HoivaOnni worker comes for a visit.
In the afternoon, me and Mirette will go visit Horror Shop to deliver a birthday card and a Valentine’s day card to Pärkele.

Please do this

The first 6 people to comment will receive a surprise from me at some point in 2017 — anything from a book, a ticket, something home-grown or made, a postcard, absolutely any surprise! It will happen when the mood comes over me and I find something that I believe would suit you and make you happy.

(If you don't like surprises and would rather have something off a wishlist and/or some warning, let me know in your comment. The goal is to make you happy. Feel free to leave ideas if you don't have a wishlist!)

If you can, post this in your own journal and pay it forward. Let's do more kind and loving things for each other in 2017, without any reason other than to make each other smile and show that we think of each other.

All comments are screened, so you can safely leave me an address :) Feel free to include an idea, theme, a link to a wish list, or tell me what you collect (dinosaurs, rocks, ticket stubs, etc etc etc). Also, please note you can sign up for a surprise even if you choose not to put this in your own journal. I know that can be the tricky part sometimes.

Here's something I don't understand...

I have met many people in my life who criticize me for things that make me happy, like wearing colourful pyjama pants in public, eating tons of chocolate, playing Pokémon: RED or looking at stuff on Pinterest; and they always sound like they are angry or sad because of it.
But why should I be ashamed of things that make me happy?

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The situation right now

🍄 Here's something you could imagine Miia doing; when I was blogging, I noticed from my calendar that I didn't update on the sixth and seventh day, so I opened my real life paper diary, copied the entries written in cursive Finnish into my LiveJournal, and hey presto!

🌞 And here's another thing (I accidentally combined the words and wrote "anothing" 😄), I am writing this in my bathroom because I didn't want to disturb Mirette's sleep. She didn't even have to tell me about it, I just thought so. I don't mind it one bit; I can easily pour myself a glass of water when I want, and dab lip balm on my lips when the skin gets chapped.

🌵 I am planning to have an Easter party at my home in April; there will be marshmallow peeps, chocolate eggs, and jelly beans.

Hello month, goodbye month!

I am writing this entry in order to save the "goodbye (month)" tags for the future.
I am going to continue posting a "hello (month)" entry on every first day of a month at one o'clock in the morning (01:00 am), along with a "goodbye (month)" entry on the last day of every month at five minutes to midnight (11:55 pm).

EDIT: I wasn't allowed to post all twelve months of goodbyes and hellos, but I have saved them in my tags. Yay!

The situation right now

🍏 To be honest, there are only two things that stop me from fulfilling my dreams; my poor mental health, and my poor finances.
If those things weren't an issue, I would go to night school to study as a masseuse and then as a hair stylist, so I could give free massages and hair cuts to people in need.

🍐 Right now I am playing Pokémon: RED. Now that I have done all the side quests, I am focusing on evolving my beloved pocket monsters; from Psyduck to Golduck, from Pidgeotto to Pidgeot, stuff like that. I am also going to raise my favourite pokémons to level 100; Chansey, Clefable, Wigglytuff, Jynx, Hitmonchan, Mewtwo, Mr. Mime, Lickitung, Farfetch'd, Kangaskhan... My starter, Blastoise, is already on level 90.
I managed to raise my Krabby into a Kingler, it was the 101st new Pokémon on my Pokédex. Right now I am battling Agatha of Elite Four, and I don't understand why she keeps using the Dream Eater move when my 'mons aren't asleep, and why she keeps withdrawing her Pokémons.

🍈 I bought the rest of the Valentine's day cards today, I will send them next week. Yep, they will be late, but I'm sure you will appreciate them anyway, because it's the thought that counts, right? 😆 I will send the birthday cards as usual, and on April I will send the Easter cards.

🍍 I am planning to go see the movie Moana with my friend Mirette. I will also go see T2 Trainspotting, A Cure For Wellness, Tom of Finland, and Collateral Beauty.

Late Valentine's Day party

Last night I had a dream about travelling to Manse. It was a nice dream but I wondered how am I going to afford a bus fare back to my home town, what if it starts to rain, what if I get robbed, stuff like that.
Then I had a dream about visiting my old grade school, the one where I met Suavecita in fifth grade. In the dream all the teachers cooed about how they loved little Miia who was so bright and wonderful, and it almost made me gag when I thought about how they actually loathed me and practically shat on me, my self- esteem, my future plans…

I woke up early, when it was still dark outside. I looked at my smartphone on my nightstand, it was about half past two o’clock in the morning. I turned on my right side and continued sleeping.
I had a dream where me and my friend Mirette went to a park, and I had to stab a person with a broken shard of glass to stop him from harassing us.
I woke up with a start, and for a moment everything in front of my eyes was green and purple and I saw black squiggles dancing in front of my eyes. I went to the bathroom to take a pee, and went back to bed.

The next time I woke up was at quarter past eight o’clock. I turned on my laptop, logged in to my online bank account to see if I had received money. I had, so I went back to sleep, feeling content.
I got up about two hours later, paid for my Netflix subscription for a month, and ordered a mobile ticket to the movie Rings to my smartphone. I will go see the movie tomorrow.

I took my morning medicine, dabbed basic lotion on my face, and dressed up. I took a nap, and after getting up it was midday.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over to collect the monthly allowance, she said no because she is still at some charity meeting, and she would be able to meet me in an hour.
I wondered where I could get money, and then I remembered that I had money in my bank account and could go withdraw it at the bank account.

I took a train to Hell City and visited the bank to withdraw the money, the teller was very nice to me.
Then I took a train back to Mole Hill and the bus ##% to Troll Mountain, and called my mother on the way to tell her that I am coming over.
Once at my parents’ home, mom gave me the monthly allowance, ninety euros.
I had coffee and buns with her, and I soon got bored so I left immediately. My mother asked me when am I going to go to college, and told me not to waste my money on Valentine’s day party treats, and also mentioned that my backpack smells bad.

I took the bus %/¤ to Mole Hill and went to the supermarket in the shopping mall to buy groceries; six microwaveable meals, six microwaveable soups, a cucumber, four big cartons of milk, butter, rye bread, and treats for the Valentine’s day party: coffee grounds, cocoa ingredients, raspberries, sour marshmallows, nougat pralines, soft chocolate cookies filled with raspberry jelly, and salmiakki- flavoured chocolate bites.
And oh, I also bought myself a Moomin Valley- themed coffee spoon, so I can bring it along when I got for one of urbane adventures and buy a pot of mint- chocolate pudding or some Ben & Jerry ice cream, so I don’t have to buy plastic spoons. The spoon was also in discount, and I also had enough points in my discount cards so that I got five euros discount from my purchases.
The shop assistant was very nice to me, when I fumbled with my cash and discount cards.

I also visited the stationery shop to buy the rest of the Valentine’s day cards; nineteen Finnish cards, four cards for friends outside Finland, an individual card for Perkele, and another for Schlitzie.
It was a real chore hauling the shopping bags to my home, especially when I had a terrible need to poop. I practically felt the tip of the turd peeking out of my butthole.

Once at home, I went to the bathroom to take a dump and practically felt myself lose three stones of my weight, and then I put all the groceries to the fridge, arranged the Valentine’s day titbits neatly on the kitchen counter, and started working on the Valentine’s day cards; I wrote the sender’s address, receiver’s address, greetings and signature, stuck the Priority stickers on them, and next Wednesday I will buy a huge bunch of first class postage stamps and mail them to their respective owners.
I know they will be late, but I guess my friends will still like them.

Later the day my friends came over; first Eleclya, she gave me a reddish- yellow rose and also brought some treats, then Suavecita arrived and brought lots of treats, and then Mirette who also brought treats, and then Emjuso, who looked lovely with her baby belly.

We had a good time, eating and drinking and laughing and joking, but soon I started feeling freaked out because everyone was shouting and yelling and hollering. I took three tranquillizers and then went to the bathroom to meditate.

Later the day Emjuso had to leave, then Eleclya and Suavecita. Mirette stayed at my home for a sleepover; there’s a renovation at her apartment building and the water supply has been cut off for tomorrow.

Tomorrow I will go to the gym, and before me and Mirette will go to Lappish Spring, I will take two bills to the social office and we will also take a couple of selfies; we have the habit of taking “friendship selfies” every time we go to the social office.
Then we will go to Lappish Spring to have a good time, and then we will go to movies to see Rings.

On Friday I will start doing the weekly housecleaning, the first thing to do is to replace the towels, take the sheets off my bed and wash them along with the week- old towels, and put the mattress, blanket, and pillow to the balcony for a few hours. Then I will take out the recycling, and then I will hoover and mop the visible part of the floor.
Then my H & O worker will visit me at half past one o’clock in the afternoon. I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
I will go visit Perkele in Horror Shop to bring him a Valentine’s day card, and then I will go visit my parents. In the evening I will continue doing housework.

On Saturday I will go to the gym once again, have a really sweaty work- out and then have a proper scrub- down in the shower. I will also continue doing the housework.

On Sunday I will go visit my parents, and continue doing the housework.
I was already awake early in the morning, but I decided to sleep until it was nine o’clock, and I called the social worker responsible for paying my bills. We talked for a moment, and then I went back to sleep.

I got up at midday, took my morning medicine, dressed up, and went back to bed.

Later the day my mother called me and told me to meet her in the train station, I went there and we took the same bus to my parents’ home.

I drank orange juice and coffee, and ate green grapes, cinnamon rolls, and cashew nuts.

Later the day my dad came home from work. I went for a walk and then I took a train home, and went to the shopping mall. I went to the stationery shop, picked some Valentine’s day cards and asked the shop assistant to put them aside for me, so I could come buy them tomorrow.
They already have Easter cards for sale; I am going to start purchasing them as well, preferably ten cards each week so I will have enough of them when Easter starts looming in the horizon.

Once back at my own home, I noticed that I wasn’t in such a good mood anymore; the delusions had started bothering me the moment I had turned back when I had gone for a walk.

I went to the gym and managed to have a proper work- out, after that I took a shower and left.

I noticed that my eyes feel weird, kind of socketed. I guess it’s because my eyelids retain so much fluid, it has been like that ever since last Xmas.

Tomorrow will be a good day, I know it; because it’s both Wednesday and the 15th day of the month, I will receive both the weekly allowance (85 €) from the social office, and the monthly allowance (90 €) from my mother.
The first thing to do is to pay my Netflix subscription and purchase a ticket to the movie Rings on Thursday, and then withdraw the rest of the money at the nearest bank, and then go buy a week’s worth of groceries and the rest of the Valentine’s day cards, and pick up the mended clothes from the dressmaker’s.
I will host a Valentine’s day party at my home, I know that Mirette, Suavecita, and Eleclya will arrive. Mirette will stay for a sleepover, because there is going to be a renovation at her apartment building on Thursday, and that’s when the water supply has been cut off.

Snooooooore...

I stayed in bed for most of the day, because I saw no reason getting up, not even when my mail slot clattered.
I got up in the afternoon, took my morning medicine, dabbed Aqualan on my face, and dressed up.
I went to see what was it that I had received in the mail, it was a Valentine’s day card from Gaia! I was so happy! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I listened to some upbeat music, like the We Will Rock You! musical version of Queen’s Headlong, and Every Sperm is Sacred by Monty Python, danced and sang along, imagining myself on the stage with Peter Capaldi and his electric guitar.

I met my mother at the train station like we had agreed, and she gave me the weekly allowance. I bought two cans of microwaveable soup, and a microwaveable lunch, and two bottles of iced coffee.

Like you have probably learned from my entries, I spend a great deal of money on iced coffee because, well, I have simply become addicted to it. I have decided that next week when I go visit my doctor for an annual check- up, I will talk to him about it and find out how can I kick the habit. And meanwhile I will spend my money on something else, like magic ink pens or pieces of fruit.
Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy sweet treats just like any person, but too much is too much.

Today was really somehow a peculiar day; it would have been amazing if it wasn’t for my general moodiness. I saw no reason why I was so angry; well, I know it was because my delusions kept on bothering me, but usually there is a reason why my delusions get worse than usual, and usually it’s my PMS or low blood sugar.

Sometimes I feel like my depression and anxiety prevent me from seeing how amazing and awesome my life is. It’s like, any mentally healthy person would think my life is amazing and awesome; today I slept in, danced to music, met my darling mother, wore my favourite t- shirt...
The weather was amazing as well, the sun shone softly, the air felt breezy and balmy on my skin, the sound of birds chirping and the melting snow dripping made me feel like it was already spring.

Tomorrow morning I will call my social worker and ask her why she hasn’t paid my bills, and then I will go see my mother and have coffee with her. In the evening I will go to the gym, and work out as usual, and take a shower after that.

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Valentine's sleepover

I spent the night between Saturday and Sunday at my friend Mirette’s home after her Valentine’s day party.

On Saturday, I spent most of the afternoon sleeping, I have been very sleepy for the past couple of days even if I have been doing fine and there has been no changes in my lifestyle whatsoever.
I felt very guilty, because I could have been wiser about spending my time; I could have knitted the quilt square, gone for a walk, tidied up my home, worked on my novels, anything at all. But then again, I felt calm and collected, as if I was sleeping on a giant lily flower in Heaven.
It made me recall the time when I first started taking medication for my schizophrenia, when I used to sleep about 18 hours a day, including the nightly sleep. Every time I was awake, I felt unhappy, anxious, depressed, and freaked out.
I guess I was sleepy because the medication is supposed to calm you down, and I became so calm that I slept like a koala bear.

I got up about at half past ten o’clock in the morning, took my morning medicine and had a proper wash, played a little Pokémon, and then I started feeling sleepy so I took a long nap.
I got up at every ten minutes to peek at my laptop’s clock, and what do you know, at first it was 2:27 pm, then 2:37 pm, then 2:47 pm. It made me chuckle a bit.

I got up about at three o’clock in the afternoon and decided to leave. I took along some of the stuff Mirette had left at my place during her sleepover, and also the chair she had lent me so I could fix my curtains.

I took a train to Helsinki, then a subway to Heart Cape. Suavecita and Eleclya were already at her place.

We had a good time, eating and drinking and being merry, and in the evening after Suavecita and Eleclya left, I stayed at Mirette’s home. I got to sleep on her newly bought bunk bed, it was an amazing experience.

I was feeling happy, actually very happy, but also a bit melancholy at the same time.

I had very happy dreams, that made me wonder why my dreams are always happier than my actual life.

I got up about at noon, took my morning medicine, emptied my mooncup, ate some of the leftover party treats, and then I decided to leave.

I took a subway to the city center, then a train to Mole Hill, and went back home.

I did some housework, and tried calling my mother but her phone went “The number you have chosen cannot be reached”. I collected my courage and called my dad, he told me that both he and mom are home and mom’s smartphone is probably low on battery. He handed his phone to mom, I asked her if I can come over for a while, and she said yes.

I took a bus to my parents’ home, I had a good time there.

I decided to go for a little walk because the weather was so pleasant; the air was breezy and balmy on my skin, and the sun shone a bit.
But in the end, I didn’t feel like walking for a long time because the delusions were bothering me. I decided to go to Helsinki, so I caught a train there and went to a few clothing and jewellery shops.

Once back home, I didn’t know what to do; I could have done all those things I wrote about, like do housework, write, knit, call my grandmother, stuff like that. But I didn’t feel like I was motivated enough.

In the evening I took my medicine, took a proper shower and washed my hair and body, and then I completely slathered myself in basic lotion, and went to bed, hoping tomorrow would be better.

*seductively flips armpit hair*

My sleeping pattern has changed the way that I get up every morning at quarter to eleven o’clock (10:45 am). I got up at the same time this morning, after I had a dream about the town where my grandmother lives.

When I was dressing up, I realized that I might have as well had a morning wash, but I simply didn’t feel like I had enough spoons for it.

I replaced the towels, that’s all the housework I did in the morning.

I scrolled through my Facebook feed and Tumblr dashboard, then I called my mother and asked her if it’s okay that I visit her, she said it’s alright. I left right away.
I guess that on days when I have something special to do, like going to visit my parents, or going shopping, I don’t feel like doing the morning routines properly because I already feel the need to get up and get going.

And what do you know, I met my mother at the bus stop, she was going to take the same bus as me. She had just clocked out of hair salon, and my, did she look beautiful!

We took the same bus home, once there I drank orange juice and coffee, and ate cinnamon rolls, cashew nuts, cherry tomatoes, and green grapes.

I also shaved my armpits, I have decided to start doing it. Not because I want to conform patriarchal beauty standards, but because of hygiene. I also shaved the hairs off my chin.
After shaving my armpits, I was left with a small pile of hairs that I picked off the floor and balled up, and took it to the waste bin. Now that I think about it, I could have taken a photo of it and posted it on Instagram, ha ha ha!

Later the day I had to leave and go back to my own home, because my H&O worker was going to visit me.
Once back home, she called me and told that she had gotten lost, so I went outside looking for her. Fortunately I found her at the car parking lot.

We went to my home, had a nice talk about whatever came up to my mind, and I managed to wash two weeks’ worth of dishes and iron two weeks’ worth of laundry.
She left while I was still ironing. The last things I ironed were three of my Dirndl dresses, I put them up on coat hangers and left them on the balcony overnight so they wouldn’t smell bad.

I decided to go see my mother again, I called her and she said it’s alright. I took the bus ##% to Troll Mountain, once there mom was cooking dinner.
I made some coffee, and noticed that mom was running out of milk and sugar, so I asked her if I can go buy some. She gave me twenty euros, and I left immediately.

I didn’t feel like walking on the slippery roads, so I took a bus even if the nearest grocery shop is only two stops away.
I bought two cans of milk, a bag of sugar, and a chocolate bar for myself, and took another bus back to my parents’ home.

Once back home, mom was taking out the trash. I put everything to their rightful places, ate baked salmon for dinner, made some more coffee, wrote into my diary, and later the day my dad came home from work.

It was getting late, so I decided to go back home. I kissed my mom and dad goodbye, and took the bus %/! to Mole Hill.
I went to the shopping mall for a little window shopping, looking at stationery, clothes, accessories, jewellery, and stuff I could serve at my Valentine’s day party, and stuff I could send to Schlitzie as a birthday & Valentine’s day gift.

I also visited the pharmacy to ask if my Ketipinor prescription has been renewed, not yet. I also asked how much one package of the medicine costs, and I was told it costs about less than ten euros, so I can easily afford it on my own.

Once back home, it was already eight o’clock in the evening (8:00 p.m.) so I took my evening medicine and decided not to go to the gym today. I have decided that after taking my medicine in the evenings, I won’t go outside anymore.

I took my winter coat to the balcony, and brought my mattress, pillow, and blanket inside. I am going to put fresh sheets into my bed tomorrow; I still have to hoover the bed and the mattress before putting the sheets into the bed.

I took out the trash; I have decided that from now on, no matter the weather, I will take out the biodegradable waste every evening before it starts to stink.

Tomorrow I will go to Mirette’s Valentine’s day party, I will also have a sleepover at her home. It will be awesome, having a good time with my friends, eating party treats, and then sleeping on her brand- new bunk bed!
On Sunday I will go visit my parents, and at some point I should also finally go to the gym, and finish my housework.

Use soap, and you'll look better

Last night I took a proper shower, gave myself a good scrubbing and washed my hair twice.

I got my period this morning, and I was glad about it.

I got up at half past ten o’clock in the morning (10:30 a.m.), took my morning medicine, dressed up into a punky shirt and a pair of pyjama pants, and dabbed lotion on my face.

I scrolled through my Facebook feed and Tumblr dashboard, and then I took a nap. I woke up feeling refreshed and calm.

I went to the social office to ask why the social worker, to whom I affectionally refer as Beanie, hadn’t paid my bills. The nicer receptionist told me that she had been transferred to Birch City, which is in another part of my hometown, and she had been on vacation. I might call her next week.

I took some of Mirette’s clothes to the dressmaker to have them mended, then I caught a train to Hell City, then a subway to East Center, and met Mirette there. We bought two Shrovetide buns and a can of cocoa for each one.

We took a subway to Grass Cape, and walked to Lapland Cape. Once there, we went to Lappish Spring, I met my mother and Mella there.

We did the usual thing, drank tea and coffee, but I was already full from the Shrovetide buns and cocoa so I couldn’t stomach more sweet stuff.

Mom gave me 20 euros and combed my hair. Mella told me that I look very healthy.

Later the day I took a subway downtown, Mirette went to Girls’ House. I went to Grassroots and bought a bottle of toilet cleaner, then I went to a supermarket and bought a vegan sausage snack and a bottle of carrot juice.

I took the train to Mole Hill, and went to the shopping mall. I bought a bottle of disinfectant, meant for small cuts and bruises, from the pharmacy, a box of three Nivea soap bars, a box of six pocket- sized Kleenex tissue boxes, and a Valentine’s day card for Elyseé from the supermarket.

Once back home, I washed a load of laundry and took my winter coat to the balcony.
At eight o’clock in the evening (8:00 p.m.) I took my evening medicine, brushed my teeth, washed my face, rubbed lotion on my skin, and went to bed.

Tomorrow morning the first thing to do is to is to replace the towels, take out the trash, scrub the toilet bowl, and bring in the mattress, pillow, and blanket from the balcony.
My H & O worker will visit me at two o’clock in the afternoon. During the visit, I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry. The visit lasts for one hour, I will manage to wash the dishes in half an hour, and iron the laundry in another half. Mind, I have lots of dishes to wash, and laundry to iron.
After that, I will go see my mother, I will have coffee with her. After that, I will go to the gym, and then my friend Elyseé will come for an overnight visit.

PMS-ing like woah!

I got up a little before noon, and I was already in a foul mood; my delusions were bothering me, they always get worse before my period. It’s not that I have a reason to be angry, it’s just my PMS.

I had slept on the sofa- bed because I didn’t bother with dressing my bed in fresh sheets; besides, I still had to iron every single one of my pillowcases, and besides, I would change my bed sheets on Friday.

I logged in to the online bank account, I had received the usual amount of money but I also had to pay my phone bill. I decided not to renew my Microsoft Word subscription because I can use Word without, and I couldn’t renew my Netflix subscription no matter how many times I tried, it said that there was something wrong with the payment system or something like that. I guess I’ll pay it next week.

I had left my winter coat on the balcony so it wouldn’t smell like sweat. It was a bit cold when I put it on, but it warmed up soon and smelled like fresh air.

I received a late Christmas card in the mail, it was from Lilith. It cheered me up a lot.

Less than half an hour after getting up, I took a train to Hell City and visited the bank to withdraw money.

I took a train back to Mole Hill, and went to the stationery shop to buy Valentine’s day cards.

I spent the rest of the afternoon at home. I hoovered the floor, washed my empty backpack and took it downstairs to the drying room, I will fetch it in the evening and leave it to the balcony for the night to refresh it. I also took out the recycling.

Later the day I went back to the shopping mall, just to spend time and look at the different selections in different shops.

Once back home, I continued pottering around my home; I wiped the dust and general grime off my Hello Kitty hairbrush collection, blocked the spam blogs from following me on Tumblr, and stuff like that.

I went downstairs to the drying room to fetch my backpack from the drying room, and took it to the balcony so it can freshen up during the night. I also noticed that there were two old- fashioned dustbins brimming with trash in the storage rooms where people keep their bicycles. I bagged the trash and took it to recycling, and fetched new trash bags from my home and put them neatly into the dustbins.

Time truly flies, it’s almost nine o’clock in the evening and I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything at all. I have already taken my evening medicine, and at some point I should go to bed, but I don’t feel like I am ready to go to bed.

Tomorrow I will go to the social office to deliver a couple of bills, and then I will go to East Center to meet Mirette, we will go to Lappish Spring.

Sailors fighting in the dancehall

Last night it was about nine o'clock (9:00 pm) when I realized that it was too late to do anything at all; go to the gym, dress my bed in fresh sheets... I decided to put off gym and sleep on the sofa- bed.

I started weeping, not because I had anything to weep about, it was just my usual PMS that triggered some bad memories.

When I woke up today, I thought it was already three o'clock in the afternoon (3:00 pm), but it was only quarter to noon (11:45 am).

I didn't feel like having a wash, I just took my morning medicine and dressed up.

I called my mother and told her I am coming for the Tuesday visit, she sounded as happy as she had been yesterday.

I took the bus %/¤ to Troll Mountain, which is actually my teenager home. My childhood home is on Broad Meadow.
Once at my teenager home, I drank coffee and ate cinnamon rolls, cashew nuts, and green grapes.

Later the day me and mom left at the same time, mom had to go grocery shopping. I took the bus %/! to Mole Hill.

I had received a gift card for the local supermarket, so I bought a new pink gym shirt, a cushion used for shining shoes, and some treats.

Once back home, I washed a load of laundry, washed all the cutlery, re- arranged my stuffs, abd then I went out to take two big plastic bags full of stuff to a charity shop, and went to the shopping mall to return bottles and buy a pouch of cocoa ingredients.

Once back home, I plugged my smartphone to the recharger, ironed a dress I am going to wear tomorrow, and warmed some tomato soup for supper.

Gimme gimme gimme shock treatment

I got up before midday, took my morning medicine, and managed to have a proper wash.

Right after dressing up, I went to the supermarket in the shopping mall to buy some iced coffee. I was in a bad mood because the delusions were bothering me.

Later the day I visited the nearest pharmacy to pick up the rest of the anti- psychotic medicine batches, they will make do for three months.

I called my mother and asked her if she could meet me in a couple of hours so she could give me the weekly allowance, we agreed to meet in front of the stationery shop in the shopping mall. She sounded very cheerful, I felt happy for her; when she is happy, I am happy too. That's my mom.

Today was a peculiar day, because I had an appointment with my nurse Sadie at the psychiatric center. It's been over six months since our last appointment.

Once at the psychiatric center, I asked the receptionist to renew my Ketipinor prescription, and also send me a text message when the prescription is renewed.

I told Sadie that now that my life has been very nice and easy for a long time, I don't find anything to "complain" about. But we still managed to have a nice talk about nice stuff.

After the appointment I met my mother, she gave me twenty euros (20 €). I bought two magic ink pens, one purple and one green, and some iced coffee.

I spent the rest of the evening drinking the aforementioned iced coffee.

Mental dreams

Last night I had a dream where I was in a mental hospital, where I befriended two girls; Polly Clark (the character from Girl, Interrupted) and Pepper the Pinhead (the character from American Horror Story, who was also in a mental hospital). They were both nice to me.
In the dream I met another girl and gave her a box full of assorted gifts; the box was pink, patterned with red hearts, and I had wrapped a pink satin bow around it. There was a plastic sunflower garland bracelet, and some cute monkey stickers. For some reason, the girl was mortally offended and threw the box away, and I picked it up later and gave the gifts to Pepper and Polly, and both loved the gifts!

I thought I had overslept, but it was only half past ten o’clock in the morning when I got up.

I didn’t bother with having a wash; I just took my morning medicine, dressed up, and dabbed lotion on my face.

Grandmother was listening to a religious program on the radio. I helped her dust the carpets and sweep the kitchen floor.

As if the pain in my left knee joint wasn’t enough, now the nape of my neck is aching as well, as if there’s a sharp- ended bone poking into the muscle.

After lunch I went for a walk, even if I was a bit moody because the delusions were bothering me, I managed to walk through the natural park and then to the burial site.

Once back at grandmother’s, she made me pancakes and we had coffee together. I spent the rest of my visit knitting the quilt square, and writing my blog.

Both of my magic ink pens, the navy and the black one, ran out of ink so I couldn’t write my diary. I used grandmother’s lead pencil.

I took a very satisfying dump, because my stomach was a bit upset. Now I feel fine.

Later the evening it was time to leave so I could make it to the omnibus. Grandmother gave me a tenner, I gave her a kiss and hug, and I went to the bus station.
The bus arrived in time, but the driver who was supposed to replace the other driver was late, but I didn’t mind a bit once I was inside the bus, safe and warm and snug in my own seat.

I had brought my laptop and USB dongle inside, and had a good time surfing on the Internet and writing.
I started feeling a bit carsick, so I took my time looking at the landscapes sliding by the window. I knew that in an hour I would be safe at my own home.

Once in Hell City, I visited the supermarket to buy some treats, then I took a subway to the city center and then a train to Mole Hill.

Once back at home, I had not received any mail. I took my evening medicine, played some Pokémon: RED, ate some sandwiches and ice cream, and decided to unload my suitcase tomorrow.

Tomorrow at noon I will call the social worker who is responsible for paying my bills and tell her that from now on, I will pay my bills all by myself.
I will have an appointment with my nurse at the psychiatric center, I will also renew my mood stabiliser medicine prescription, and ask my nurse to book an appointment with the doctor at the health center, I need to have my left knee checked because it aches a lot.
After the appointment, I will go to the pharmacy to purchase the rest of the Solian medicine.
I will go to the gym in the evening, and then I will do some housework.

Period panties

Last night I dreamed about the adventures of the eleventh Doctor and Amy Pond.
I had also one dream that started nicely, and turned into a nightmare.

Grandmother had gone for a walk when I woke up. I slept till eleven o’clock in the morning, and didn’t bother with having a wash; I just took my morning medicine, dressed up, and dabbed basic lotion on my skin.

I had rice porridge with blueberries for breakfast, and had coffee.

Later the day I went for a walk, but I was feeling moody and the delusions were bothering me. I guess it’s my PMS, according to my calculations I will get my period on the week after next week.

Once back at grandmother’s home, I did the face and neck muscle exercises and also exercised my feet. I will do that once every day.

I watched sports programs on television with my grandmother, and helped her peel some beets for lunch. After lunch she took a catnap and I read books, surfed on the Internet, and knitted.

In the afternoon I went to sauna, grandmother stayed behind to watch the final episode of her favourite TV program.
In the sauna, I washed my hair and scrubbed my body, and after the sauna I dabbed basic lotion on my skin.
Once back at grandmother’s, I clipped my finger- and toenails, plucked the hairs off my chin, big toes, and between my eyebrows. I decided to wear my nightie for the rest of the evening, because I wasn’t going out anymore.

I watched Keeping up Appearances with grandmother, the episode where Hyacinth takes her daddy for a picnic, Rose is dating a Mr Butterfield, and Sheridan wears pyjamas made of pure silk.
Which reminds me, I have get new pyjamas as well, I have been thinking of buying eight pairs of the red- and- white striped Marimekko nightshirts with mid- calf hem. I need ankle socks, preferably Marimekko and Happy Socks, and new panties are fine too, preferably the Doctor Who “period panties”.

At eight o’clock in the evening, I took my evening medicine and brushed my teeth, and kissed grandmother goodnight.

Tomorrow I might go for a walk, and finish my knitting.
My omnibus leaves at twenty to six o’clock in the evening (5:40 p.m.). Once back home, it will already be almost nine o’clock in the evening, so I will probably just take my evening medicine, have a wash, dress my bed in fresh sheets, and go to sleep.

The dream must stay alive

Last night I had a dream about my grandfather from my mother’s side; I was watching an old videotape with him and my mother, the one where I was a toddler and run amok on the grassy yard of the summer cottage, wearing a smock that used to belong to my mother’s old childhood doll.
I almost woke up crying because the dream made me feel nostalgic in a bittersweet way.

In another dream I was watching an old grainy 1990’s film about a gang of abandoned children who lived in an old sports hall, and moved everywhere on bicycles. It reminded me of the TV show The Tribe that I used to watch during summer vacations when I was in grade school.

Grandmother had gone grocery shopping early in the morning, I got up after she came home. I’m amazed at how she manages to be active and get up early in the morning, considering that she is over seventy years old and has lots of illnesses.
I took my morning medicine, brushed my teeth, dabbed lotion on my skin, and had rice porridge with stewed blueberries for breakfast, and coffee after that.

I ironed two of my Dirndl dresses, the purple one and the brown one, I was really glad to see how well grandmother’s old clothes iron worked, better than my own. And the purple dress was pleasantly warm after I put it on.

In the afternoon I went to Kimmo Pyykkö art museum, and then to the local library, there was an art exhibition as well. There were drawings and sculptures and plastic wedding cakes made by students.

I mailed two greeting cards, a name- day card and a birthday card, and then I went back to grandmother’s home.

I helped grandmother with housework, such as dusting carpets and cooking a dinner.

In the evening I went to the local culture center to see a Finnish children’s movie. There were plenty of visitors, mainly kids and their parents and grandparents.
The movie was very sweet and amazing, it cheered me up a lot.

Once back at grandmother’s, I had supper, took my evening medicine, brushed my teeth, had a wash, changed into nighties, and wrote into my blog before going to bed.

Tomorrow me and grandmother will go to the sauna, and grandmother will make me pancakes and cocoa with whipped cream.

Déjà vu dreams

I had one of my most re- occurring dreams; I lost all my teeth, they came rattling out of my mouth.
I also had one very bizarre dream that I haven’t had before, but for some reason I had a strange sense of déjà vu.

Grandmother had gone to some sort of a seminar early in the morning.
I got up, took my morning medicine, had a wash, dressed up, and had some of the stewed blueberries for breakfast. I also drank coffee, and played Pokémon.

Later the day grandmother came home, we had lunch together; boiled potatoes, herring fillets, carrot- cauliflower soup with rice, and sugared lingonberries for dessert.

I went for a walk in the natural park where I usually go when visiting my grandmother.

I also visited the supermarket to buy two greeting cards, one name- day card and one birthday card, and then went to a crafts shop to buy a fridge magnet for my grandmother, a hologram picture of Jesus.

Once back at my grandmother’s home, I had coffee with her.
In the evening I played Pokémon and managed to beat the Elite Four and capture Mewtwo.

Tomorrow I will go to Kimmo Pyykkö art museum, and help grandmother with housework.

Updating from my grandmother's ^_^

I stayed awake all night, probably because I hadn’t taken my evening medicine.
Nevertheless, I had a good time; I played Pokémon: RED and managed to acquire EXP.ALL, and catch Zapdos. Here’s to hoping I will catch Chansey, she is my favourite pocket monster ^_^

I got up early in the morning and logged in to the online bank account to see if I had received money, yes I had. I purchased myself omnibus tickets, to Kangaskhan and back.
I’m glad I used the online discount, I got two tickets to Kangaskhan and back on the usual price of one.

I took a shower, dressed up into pretty clothes, and washed a load of laundry.

Mirette was still sleeping when I went to the shopping mall right after it was opened. I bought a little gift for Carol Anne, and some stickers and treats for myself. I also bought four Valentine’s day cards for my friends outside Finland.

I went back home, did some housework and puttered around, and then went to the pharmacy.
Hallelujah, the voucher had arrived there, and I was finally able to purchase a month’s worth of anti- psychotic medicine! I almost jumped up and down with joy.
I dealt the pills into both of Dosetts, and then took my morning medicine and immediately felt myself mellowing out.

I took a train to Stick City, and visited the bank to withdraw the rest of the money.

I took a train back to Mole Hill, and went back home. Mirette was already home from hir own errands.
I wrote some of the Valentine’s day cards; sender’s address, receiver’s address, greetings, and signature. I decided to write the greetings in different addresses according to the receiver’s native language.

I packed some more stuff, and played a little more Pokémon: RED. I managed to acquire Lickitung and Kabuto.

In the afternoon me and Mirette left at the same time. We took a train to Hell City and walked to the omnibus station.
I bought two Shrovetide buns and two bottles of iced espresso for the journey.

My omnibus left at twenty to four o’clock in the afternoon. The bus ride to Kangaskhan went pretty smoothly, it didn’t feel like a long ride at all.

Once at Kangaskhan, dusk had already fallen. I went to my grandmother’s apartment, she greeted me with open arms, and said that my short hair was nice.

We had supper and coffee together, watched the news together, talked a bit about world politics, and after going to bed, I played a little Pokémon.

Tomorrow I will go for a walk in the natural park, and then go to the local art museum, like I always do on the first full day at my grandmother’s. I might also go to the gym in the afternoon.

Choose your own adventure!

I had a really funny dream about those interactive "choose your own adventure" online games; I designed a game with really bad MSPaint graphics, with choices like "You have received 20,000 euros from the mafia boss. Will you squander it all on beer, or a used Lada?" and "You arrive to the secret fishing hut, but the door is locked. Will you kick the door down, or use a secret code read from the bottom of a vodka bottle to open the door?"

I took my anti- depressants in the morning, and called the pharmacy right after. I asked the pharmacist if I have received the voucher for purchasing the medicine I cannot afford to buy on my own.
The pharmacist told me that the social security institution called the pharmacy and told them that I won’t receive a voucher, instead they have deposited the amount of money for buying the medicine into my bank account.
I logged into my bank account in the online bank service, and what do you know, I hadn’t received the money.
I spent most of the day calling the pharmacy and the social security institution and my mother, hoping they would sort those things out.

Today I received a package in the mail. Tt was the book I had ordered from Amazon.co.uk a few weeks ago; Teenage Survival Guide: Book about Life, Love, and Caring for the Planet by Marina Baker. I know I am not a teenager anymore, but I loved that book when I was a teenager, and it still makes me happy.

I spent most of the day in bed, watching student- made Stargirl book trailers and Dr Sandra Lee’s cyst- popping videos, trying to keep myself calm and content so I wouldn’t trigger a psychosis.

In the afternoon I put on some clothes, a stripy shirt and a pair of Care Bears pyjama pants, and went to the shopping mall to buy myself an iced espresso and look at the new selections in my favourite shops.

In the evening Mirette came home, we talked a bit and surfed on the Internet on our respective laptops.
Then we went to the shopping mall and visited the department store to buy something to eat and drink.

Tomorrow morning the first thing to do is to log in to the online bank service to see if the social security workers have kept their promise, and sent me the money so I can pay the medicine.
Me and Mirette will head to the bank to withdraw the money, then visit IKEA to buy another Malfors mattress for her, and then we will take it to Mirette’s home.
I will buy the medicine I need, and then I will go visit my mother. She will give me some extra money for my visit to my grandmother’s.

Blessed Sunday

I had a dream where I checked into this amazing five- star hotel for one night, and went shopping during daytime. The hotel and shopping center were built right in the middle of low- income suburbs that turned into Silent Hill kind of ghost town when I went to investigate.
Then I went back to the shopping mall, and visited a shop where I bought a new My Little Pony Goes Rock hoodie. I already have one like that, but it’s about two sized too small, fraying at the sleeves, and has holes under the arms, and it has been washed so many times that the pony prints look more like stains.
In another dream I was living with my parents, they had furnished a cozy little room for me. My friend Mirette was there as well, and the grandmother, whom I am visiting next week, was having tea with her.

This morning I got up at ten o’clock, which is moderately early in my standards.
I took my morning medicine, dabbed lotion on my face, and dressed up.
I washed a load of laundry, and took out the trash. I also folded my dresses and skirts and put them neatly into the cupboard, usually I just ball them up and shove them inside.

I called my mother and asked her if it’s okay that I come for a visit, she said it’s alright.
We have agreed that I visit my mother every Tuesday, Friday, and Sunday.

I caught the bus %&% to Troll Mountain. My mother was at home, and my dad was working. What a tough old codger, this year he will be 60 years old and he still goes to work almost every day!

I made some coffee and ate the rest of the couscous my mother had cooked for lunch, she also warmed me some frozen peas in the microwave. For dessert I had soft cookies with raspberry jelly filling and chocolate coating, and also some green grapes.

I was surfing on the Internet on my mother’s laptop when my dad came home.

Later the day I decided to go back to my own home. I kissed and hugged my mom goodbye, and told her I am coming again on Tuesday. She promised to give me some extra money for my journey to my grandmother’s home.

I caught the bus %/! to Mole Hill, and then went to the Big Mole shopping center.
Mirette was there as well, she was having iced tea at Starbucks. We went to Arnold’s, where she bought herself a bagel.
We went to Hennes & Mauritz, then to the stationery shop, and then to Flying Tiger.

I planned my Valentine’s day party; I will serve marshmallows and chocolate confections, along with cocoa and tea and coffee.

Once back at my home, I did some random odd jobs and tidied up, and planned for next month’s calendar.

I warmed some soup in the microwave oven, ironed the laundry, and packed my stuff for my visit to grandmother’s.

Tomorrow I will call the local pharmacy and ask them if they have received the coupon which I can use to buy the medicine I need, because tonight I will take the last dose.
I know I should have done the paperwork earlier, but mistakes do happen. Here’s to hoping I will actually be able to buy more of the medicine; I will go to the pharmacy as early as possible, and take my morning medicine right there and then deal the medicine into both of my Dosetts.
If not, tough luck.

Girl, I wanna take you to IKEA

The pain in my left knee is getting worse. I can walk and flex my knee, but it just bothers me. I might go visit the health center after I return from my grandmother’s.

Today me and Mirette went to visit one of the IKEA department stores in the metropolitan area. We took a train to Stick City and then the bus %&” to the aforementioned IKEA, and headed to the restaurant.
Mirette got spaghetti Bolognese, I got French fries and a cinnamon roll. Mirette’s father arrived later to meet us.

We bought a mattress for Mirette’s new bunk bed, a box of felt- tip pens, and two sets of colourful butterfly- shaped wall decal stickers. We also visited the grocery shop to buy a bag of salted crisps, three raspberry juice boxes, and a box of chocolate- covered marshmallows.

I valiantly carried the rolled- up mattress on my arms to the bus stop. We took the same bus to Mellu’s Hill, then a subway to Heart Cape, and once at Mirette’s home, we had some treats, and I took the mattress out of the package and put it to Mirette’s bed. Mirette put the butterfly stickers on her wall.

Later the day we headed back to my home, on our way there I called my mom and asked her if I can come over for about an hour or so. She said it’s alright.
We both got off at Mole Hill, Mirette went to my home and I caught the bus %/! to Troll Mountain.

Both of my parents were home. Mom gave me 20 euros and shaved off the scruff on my neck, to make it look neater. I had coffee and green grapes, and surfed on the Internet on my mother’s laptop.

Later the day I caught the bus #%% to Mole Hill, and went to the department store to buy a box of panty liners, two boxes of Kleenexes, two bottles of shampoo, five tubes of toothpaste, and something else I don’t remember right now.

Once back at my home, Mirette was already there. I put the hygiene products to their rightful places, cooked a supper, and then it was time to take my evening medicine and go to bed.

Chinese New Year celebrations

My smartphone’s alarm clock woke me up at half past seven o’clock in the morning. Me and Mirette had to go to her home to tidy up.

I got up, took my morning medicine, dressed up, and soon we were off. We took some of Mirette’s stuff along.

We caught a train to Helsinki, then a subway to Heart Cape. Once at Mirette’s home, her social worker was there to help us clean up.

I tried helping them, but I was too sleepy. After the social worker left, we both took a nap sleeping on two old mattresses on the floor of Mirette’s apartment. I slept very well, and got up feeling refreshed.

I had to go back to my own home, because my H&O worker was coming for a visit. I took a bus to Helsinki, then a train home.

Once at my home, the H&O worker was waiting for me, she was a substitute to my usual worker.

While she was visiting me, I managed to wash every single one of the dirty dishes.

Later the day Mirette came to my home, we went to Helsinki to watch the Chinese New Year celebrations.

After seeing the fireworks, we went to Mirette’s home to pick up some of her stuff, then popped to the grocery shop to buy some eatables. Then we went to my home to sleep.

Tomorrow we are going to IKEA to pick up a new mattress for Mirette.

I know, right?

My bones hurt.

This morning I woke up to a horrid pain in my left knee. I wonder why, I hadn’t banged it against furniture or twisted it, and I haven’t gone to the gym or walks or bike rides, or anything like that.

I knew I was supposed to head to the health center before it becomes too crowded, but I was having such pleasant dreams that I didn’t feel like getting up too soon.

When I finally got up, I took my morning medicine and dressed into the Time Lord shirt for the first time, and a tartan skirt with that.
I have taken up the habit of picking the clothes I am going to wear tomorrow every evening, and putting them ready.

I left immediately, and went to the health center. I waited for an hour for my turn, and then I waited for another hour for my turn for the doctor on call, and then I got bored and went back home.
I took one of Mirette’s painkillers, and then we left. I barely noticed the pain anymore, and soon it felt better.

We took a train to Helsinki, then a subway to Grass Cape, and went to Lappish Spring. We talked with the volunteers, and I drank coffee and ate cinnamon rolls and eclairs.

Later the day me, Mirette, and Tina left at the same time, we walked to Grass Cape and took a subway to Kamppi, and went to the shopping center to visit the stationery store.
I noticed that they have some pretty new designs of Geepap notebooks for sale.
I bought myself a purple and dark blue magic ink pen, and then we went to the city center on a subway and took a train home.

I visited the pharmacy, I was told that there was one batch of the anti- psychotic prescription medicine ready for purchase, but I didn’t have the coupon for purchasing it. I will run out of medicine on Sunday, so there is only one bank day left to receive the coupon from the social security institution.
I have decided that if I haven’t received the coupon before noon tomorrow, I will go to the social office to ask about it. Then again, I should have applied sooner.
I have to wait until Monday morning, and if I haven’t received the coupon by then, I have to be without medicine.
One way of purchasing it is buying the medicine with cash, but it costs about 300 euros a package, and there’s no way I can afford it on my own. Neither can anyone of my family members, or friends.

I went back home feeling a bit downcast. I warmed some soup in the microwave, and took my evening medicine after finishing my supper. I washed two loads of laundry, and took a shower.

Tomorrow I will get up early in the morning, me and Mirette will go to the latter’s home to tidy up.
Then I have to go back to my own home, because my H&O worker will visit me and I have to tidy up my own home, at least wash the dirty dishes and iron the laundry.
Me and Mirette will go to Helsinki to watch the Chinese New Year celebrations.

Shrovetide buns

I had a dream about the movie Mad Max 3: Beyond Thunderdome. I also had a dream where I was trying to travel from the summer cottage to my home, and in another dream I was playing an acoustic guitar and singing the song Tree Hugger by the band Antsy Pants. I wish I could learn how to play acoustic guitar, and I have also been thinking of attending singing lessons. The only thing stopping me from fulfilling dreams is either my anxiety, or the lack of money.

I got up at half past eleven o’clock in the morning, took my morning medicine, dressed into a pair of pyjama pants and a stripy blouse, and washed the crusty sleep out of my eyes, and dabbed lotion on my skin.

I turned on my laptop and logged in to the online bank account. I had received the weekly allowance, so I paid the monthly gym membership fee, along with my Spotify Premium subscription.

I left immediately, I took a train east and went to the bank to withdraw the rest of the money, and left enough money to pay for my Netflix subscription.

I took a train back to my hometown, and went to the dressmaker to pick up my mended clothes; a nightshirt that had holes under the arms, and a summer dress that was missing a button, and a long- sleeved blouse that was fraying at the wrists.

I went to the supermarket in the department store, but unfortunately the aforementioned supermarket was under construction, or perhaps they were just messing up with the shelves in order to troll the customers.

I went back home and felt a bit downcast. I put everything to their rightful places, made a few phone calls, and then it was time to leave again.

Yesterday I had made an appointment with a parish worker. We met at three o’clock in the afternoon.
I talked a bit with the worker who has helped me before, zie was very kind and understanding. At the end of the appointment, zie gave me a gift card of 30 euros to the supermarket I had visited.

I went to another supermarket right next to the parish, and bought five microwaveable meals, five cans of tomato- goat cheese soup, and three big cartons of milk.
I had originally wanted to buy eight meals and soups, but they didn’t have enough of them.

I took a train back home, put all the groceries into the fridge, did some random odd jobs around the apartment, and warmed one of the microwaveable meals in the microwave oven.
Later the day Mirette came home.

Later the day I went out again, simply because I felt the need for fresh air.
I went to the library to return a book, and then to the supermarket to buy dinner for Mirette, it took me a while to find the products because it was the supermarket where they were replacing the shelves.
I also bought some Shrovetide buns with marzipan, and some iced coffee.

Once back home, I warmed some soup in the microwave oven for supper, and took my evening medicine after that.

Tomorrow is Thursday, I will go to Lappish Spring and then to Girls’ House.

Busy, busy, busy!

I had a dream where me and my parents lived in one of them British council estates, and my parents tried to convince me to go for a cruise to Sweden. Instead I went shopping in Espoo, a city in the metropolitan area of Finland.
In another dream it was January, and the sun shone and there was no snow and the leaves in trees and bushes were in full bloom. I guessed it was because of global warming.
I rode my bicycle on a dirt path, with my arms up in the air, yelling “Whoooooooo!”
In another dream, I was an angel and welcomed Leelah Alcorn on the throne in Heaven. It made me feel very emotional.

I got up in the morning about at eleven o’clock, took my morning medicine, dressed into a sunflower- yellow blouse and a lemon- yellow dress, and dabbed lotion on my face.
I went to the department store to buy some iced coffees.
Once back home I hoovered the floor, washed a load of laundry, and clipped my nails. I also put on some jewellery, basic earrings and a necklace pendant in the shape of a white and yellow wooden daisy.

Later the day me and Mirette left, we went out for some errands; I took out the trash (two bags of household waste, and a broken headboard from one of the kitchen drawers) and mailed some cards (three name- day cards and one birthday card), and took two bills (electricity and broadband) to the social office (and took friendship selfies with Mirette, like we always do when visiting the social office), and then we took a train to Helsinki.

Once in Helsinki, we travelled to Mirette’s home on a subway. Once there, we gathered all the empty bottles and cans and took them to recycling to the local Lidl. Mirette made almost fifty euros!
I absolutely adore people who collect empty cans and bottles and recycle them. They keep the city clean, save the environment, and get money from it! How cool is that?

We travelled to Grass Cape on a subway and went to Lapland Cape, where we went to Lappish Spring. I introduced Mirette to my mother and also Mella, Tina, and Kata. I drank coffee and ate chocolate chip cookies, Mirette drank tea and ate sandwiches.

I told Mella that in December 2006, about ten years ago, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, and I would never have guessed that a decade later my life could be this awesome.

We walked back to Grass Cape, and took the subway to the city center and a train to Mole Hill.

We went to the shopping center, and visited the department store. I bought a small pink plastic spade I am going to use to shovel the snow and ice away from zebra crossings and stairways where the council doesn’t shovel it. I also bought a microwaveable and a can of soup, and some treats, and also plastic spoons and paper cups for the get- together I am going to have at my home on Sunday.

Once back at my home, I put the meals into the fridge and put the shovel into my backpack. I am going to start using it tomorrow.
I didn’t go to the gym today, I had been far too busy.
I watched Doctor Who on Netflix, so I could make sense of the Pandorica story arc.

Tomorrow I will receive the monthly allowance.
I will go to Mirette’s home with her early in the morning, I will help her tidy up her home with her social worker.
After that I will go to the bank to withdraw the allowance, then I will go to the dressmaker, pay for the mended clothes, and bring some new clothes for mending.
My H&O worker will visit me at half past one o’clock in the afternoon, while talking to her I will wash the dishes.
Me and Mirette will go see the movie Sing right after that, then we will go to WeeGee art museum, there’s a free entrance every Friday evening.
I might not go visit my mother like I do every Friday, I don’t have enough time.
I was awake for most of the night, even if I had remembered to take my evening medicine. I guess it’s simply because me and Mirette were having such a good time, listening to music and surfing on the Internet, that we didn’t feel like going to bed.

About at five o’clock in the morning, I took my morning medicine, and dressed up.
I logged in to my online bank account, and yes, I had received money.
I ordered two books from Amazon.co.uk, and couldn’t help noticing that the postage costs were far greater than the cost of the books itself.
I ordered the book Go M.A.D! (make a difference), which contains 365 simple ways to help environment, I borrowed that book from the library when I was a freshman in high school. It helped my life immensely and made me even a better environmentalist.
I also ordered Marina Baker’s book Teenage Survival Guide: A book about life, love, and caring for the planet. I also read that book during my freshman year when I borrowed it from the library, it made me so happy. Even if I am not a teenager anymore, I still enjoy reading it.

I went back to bed fully clothed, and slept till eleven o’clock in the morning, simply to sleep off the sleep debt.
I got up when I received mail, I got the package I had ordered from Etsy.com last week; it was the 1990’s grunge ornament with a holographic picture of an eye. And what do you know, it was only an ornament, not a necklace like I had predicted. Then again, I could always mend it to a necklace, such as bore a hole into it and put a rawhide string into it, or buy one of those necklace bases and glue it into it.

Me and Mirette had made plans for today; we had to go to the bank to withdraw cash, visit Mirette’s home, go shopping and out to eat, go to movies…

We took a train to Helsinki, then a subway to Heart Cape, and went to Mirette’s home. We brought some old stuff there, grabbed some new stuff, and then we took a subway to East Center.
We went to the bank to withdraw cash, and then we went to Jungle Juice Bar. Mirette ordered a smoothie named Flamingo, I got an O.C which is orange- and carrot juice with a shot of ginger. It tasted good, and it sure is healthy.

We went to Hennes & Mauritz, BikBok, Gina Tricot, Glitter, and other shops.

We travelled to Pasture Cape on a subway, and went to the local thrift store. I bought a denim dress with embroidered pink and green flowers on the lapels, and a canvas belt for myself, and a gift for my grandmother; a small statue depicting a grandmother holding a child on her lap.

We went to the corner shop to buy something to drink, and then we took a subway to the city center and then a train to Mole Hill.

Once back at my home, I put everything to their rightful places, re- arranged my stuff, and planned to renovate my home; I need to replace the cupboards and drawers in my kitchen because they’re getting old and grubby and they’re in a very bad condition. Then again, the apartment house where I live in was built in the 1970’s, so it’s no wonder.
I might also get one of those simple plastic bathtubs, and get a new bathroom cabinet. I also need new furniture.

Tomorrow me and Mirette will go to Lappish Spring together, then we will go to movies to see Sing. In the evening I might go to the gym.

Power naps

Yesterday I went to the social security institution to apply for a voucher, so I can purchase this super- expensive anti- psychotic prescription medicine from the pharmacy.
One package has 100 tablets, I take three tablets a day, one in the morning and two in the evening, so one package lasts for three months. Only one package of the medicine also costs about 650 euros, so there’s no way I am able to purchase the aforementioned medicine otherwise because it costs about as much as the rent of my current apartment.
Here’s to hoping that my application will be accepted, if I remember correctly I provided all the necessary statements and remembered to sign the application.

Once back home, it was only half past three o’clock in the afternoon, but I was already so tired and exhausted that I took a long power nap.
I woke up after two hours, still sleeping on my left side, and I turned on to my right side and slept for another two hours. After getting up, I hoovered the floor.

Today I went to see my mother, she gave me 20 euros like every Tuesday.
I had coffee with her, and then I took a bus to Nut Hill.
Once there, I learned that the youth group in Late Winds is closed for a few months because they couldn’t find a counsellor to lead the group. Oh well, I guess I will find something else to do.

I travelled back to Mole Hill, and went to the stationery shop to buy one birthday card and four name- day cards, and then I went to the department store to buy something to drink, and a can of microwaveable beetroot- goat cheese soup.

Once back at my own home, Mirette had already returned from her own errands.

I wrote some of the Valentine’s day cards, and the birthday and name- day cards.

I warmed the soup in the microwave oven and ate it, it tasted scrumptious.

I didn’t go to the gym, but I took a shower and used the dry scalp treatment.

Tomorrow I will receive the weekly allowance. I will order one product from an online shop, and then go withdraw the rest of the money from my bank.
I will go to the dressmaker to fetch my mended clothes, and take three articles of clothing to the same place for mending.
I need to purchase magic ink pens and twenty Valentine’s day cards, and stock up on hygiene products and light bulbs and buy a week’s worth of food.
I also need to mail this month’s birthday and name- day cards.
In the afternoon, me and Mirette will go to movies to see Sing.

Lost in IKEA

Last night I had a dream where I visited my gay alien wife Luisa in Mexico to celebrate Halloween.

I got up at midday, took my morning medicine, had a proper wash (flossed my teeth, brushed my teeth, scraped my tongue, used mouthwash, rinsed the sleep out of my eyes with water, rubbed basic lotion on my skin), dressed up in tidy clothes, and cooked a decent breakfast.

Me and Mirette left right after I had finished my breakfast.
We went to the department store to buy something to eat and drink, and then we went to the stationery shop to buy me a navy blue magic ink pen, because my black magic ink pen was running out of ink.

We took the bus %&% to IKEA, where we bought a nifty grater for myself, small plastic boxes for storing food for Mirette, and some treats for both of us.

We took the same bus back to Mole Hill, where Mirette went to my home and I travelled all the way to Troll Mountain to visit my parents.

Both mom and dad were home. I drank orange juice and coffee, ate green grapes, chocolate- salty liquorice waffle bites, and cherry tomatoes.
I helped mom load the dishwasher and swab the kitchen counter. She was very happy.

I took the bus %&% to Mole Hill and went to the gym. I worked out for a while, and took a shower. Then I went back home.

During the evening I washed three loads of laundry, and went downstairs to the storage room to sort out my belongings.

Tomorrow I have to go to the social office to print out and copy some papers, and then go to the social security institution to apply for income support, because I need a voucher for buying a batch of an extremely expensive anti- psychotic medication.
I also need to finish the rest of the housework; iron the laundry, wash the dishes, hoover and mop the floor, and take out the trash.
If I have enough time, I will go to Pearl House and then to Amos Anderson art museum.

Blessed Saturday

As I mentioned in yesterday’s entry, my friend Elyseé had a sleepover at my home. She left at noon while me and Mirette were sleeping off the sleep debt, because we both had stayed awake during the night between Thursday and Friday.

We both got up in the afternoon when the dusk was falling, and carried out our plan to go out to take photos.

There is a forest right next to my home, we went there to take photos of the winter weeds, the river flowing by, graffities, animal paw tracks, and fallen trees. Then we went to Quarry to take photos of the street art.

Once back in Mole Hill, we went grocery shopping. Once back at my home, I did plenty of housework which I probably would not have done if it was not for the boredom. I tidied up most of the bathroom and washed the dirty dishes and swabbed the kitchen counters and the writing desk, and washed a load of laundry.

Tomorrow me and Mirette will go to IKEA, then I will go visit my parents, and then I will go to the gym. As for the rest of the day, I will probably do housework.

My Friday the 13th was a very lucky day

I stayed awake almost all night, even if I had remembered to take my evening medicine and also taken a few tranquillizers. I guess it’s because I had had such a busy day, I was enjoying a natural high and couldn’t come down for a while. Or maybe it was because I had drunk lots of coffee at Lappish Spring.

I wish I could overcome my craving for treats; most of the time it’s a craving for something sweet, like chocolate or cocoa, or coffee with milk and sugar.
I understand that if I maintained a healthy routine of regular meals without too much additives, salt, and sugar, and got plenty of fresh air and exercise, I wouldn’t have these cravings. But it’s always easier said than done.
The thing is, I don’t feel like I truly want to stay awake all night, drinking coffee and munching on chocolate. I want to live a healthy life, not because I am expected to do so, but because I want to, out of my own free will.

Mirette was awake as well, so we spent the night having fun together and listening to music. Sleepless nights are always better when shared with friends ~

At five o’clock in the morning, I took my morning medicine and dressed up. At first I wore the new black Dirndl dress with a 1990’s cardigan over it, but the cardigan made me feel too hot and sweaty so I changed them into a Benedict Cumberbatch shirt and a tartan skirt.
Then I wrapped myself into a blanket and slept till eleven o’clock.

Mirette had already left when I got up, and I decided to get on the move too.
I went to the department store in the shopping mall, and bought a bottle of iced coffee and a few cocoa ingredient pouches.

Once back home, I made myself a cup of cocoa and knitted the quilt square I started last night, surfed on the Internet watching YouTube videos, and read the Jerry Spinelli book Stargirl.
And also, the website Playr.org finally restored my saves, so I could play Pokémon: RED. I saved Silph Company from the clutches of Team Rocket led by Giovanni, and acquired the Master Ball, and played against two trainers in Saffron City gym.

I replaced the towels and took the sheets off my bed, and put the blanket, pillow, and mattress into the balcony, and the towels and bed sheets into the laundry basket.

Later the day my H&O worker’s substitute came to visit me. While we were talking about stuff, I washed the dishes and then I ironed my clothes.

She left before I finished my ironing. I took out the trash, took my old wooden billboard to the Salvation Army flea market, took three articles of clothes (a nightie, a blouse, and a dress) to the dressmaker for mending (the nightie was torn under the arms, the blouse was torn on the sleeves by the wrist, and the dress was missing a button), and then I took some old medicines to the nearest pharmacy for recycling.
I also visited the psychiatric center to pick up a medicine prescription and the special permission for using it.

I went to see my mother, she gave me the monthly allowance, ninety euros.
I drank coffee and orange juice, and ate chocolate- salmiakki waffles and green grapes.

My friend Elyseé called me and asked if I wanted to see her today, I was overjoyed and said yes, because I have missed her so much.

When I left, I hugged and kissed my mother and told her that I will visit her again on Sunday.

I walked to the station and took a train to downtown. Once there, I met Elyseé and we went to a burger joint. I bought a cute Angry Birds Hatchlings pencil case, and a tall glass of orange juice.

We took a train to my home. I was going to the department store, but Elyseé didn’t feel like going there because she was getting tired. I gave her my keys and went to the department store.

I bought two boxes of Kleenex paper tissues, six pocket- sized tissue boxes, two boxes of panty- liners, one mega- package of sanitary pads, two big cans of milk, nine plastic coat hangers, four pouches of Tazza cocoa ingredients, two bottles of iced coffee, a canister of scent- free laundry detergent and fabric softener, and some gifts for my friend Michelle. I also bought twenty Valentine’s day cards, ten for my Finnish friends and ten for my friends who live outside Finland. And something else I don’t remember right now.

I went back home and rang the doorbell, Elyseé opened the door for me.
I put my new belongings to their rightful places; milk into the fridge, hygiene products into the kitchen cupboard, detergents into the kitchen drawer, coat hangers into the cupboard, wrapped up the presents and drank the iced coffee.

I washed a load of laundry using the fabric softener, and made a cup of green peppermint tea and a couple of sandwiches for Elyseé. Mirette made pizza for us.

Tomorrow I will spend time with my friends, I’m glad they saved me from an otherwise boring Saturday.

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