She went mad so we shot her and buried her at the outback

Yesterday was a weird day. When I was visiting my parents, I was so angry for no reason at all that I was on the brink of having a panic attack. My stomach reacted and I went to the bathroom to throw up.
My mom was a bit worried, se talked about my health a bit.

In the evening, Mirette and I went to the circus. We had a good time there.

I have noticed that I get these feelings in the evenings that I am ready to put my life together, eat healthily and exercise. And as soon as I get up in the morning, I just want to fiddle with my smartphone and drink coffee.

Last night I had a dream where I was absolutely astonished at how beautiful the world is and how amazing life is. Fortunately I didn't have any dreams about how everything that would happen today would go wrong.

I got up at noon, took my morning meds, got dressed and went to see my mom. The days are getting colder.

I met my dad at the staircase.

Mom let me in, she gave me 100 euros and made me coffee.

I took a bus back to my hometown and went to the ATM to deposit the cash.

I went to the psychiatric clinic and attended a social group.

After the group, I took a train to another town and walked to Twinkle Cafe.

There was Mirette, Mella, Annie, Raija, and Jusa. I ate treats and drank cocoa and juice.

I got some free postcards from Mella. I am going to send them to my friends who have their birthdays in the near future.

Later that day Mirette and I went to a cafe, I bought a reusable mug and ordered a mint chocolate ice latte.

Furby arrived later, we went to three of our favorite thrift stores. I bought a coat and about five nighties.

Mirette and I took a train home and went grocery shopping. I bought a Pink Ribbon reflective vest, raspberry juice and oat milk.

Once back home, I was happy to see that the broken toilet seat and cover had been replaced.

Mirette made pizza. I cut the price tags off my clothes, put the dirty dishes to soak in the sink, took my meds, applied Bemetson on my scalp, and put on my nightie.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will iron the laundry, wash the dishes, wash all the laundry, change the face and hand towels and pillowcase, and scrub the toilet bowl.
I will go visit my parents.

On Thursday, I will won't have anything special to do.

On Friday, I will pay a couple of bills, go visit my parents, pay Eleclya for selling me her smartphone, and in the evening, Mirette and I will go visit the circus.

On Saturday, I will do the usual housework.
In the after oon, Mirette and I will go visit Furby. We will watch Masked Singer.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. They will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny. As for the money, I will deposit it to my bank account and buy postage stamps.

I had a dream about Poison Ivy, Harley Quinn, Tank Girl, Jet Girl, Sub Girl, and the entire Xavier Academy.
In another dream, I was holding a snowglobe I own. Here's a picture of it



I got up and took my morning meds and drank coffee in my nightie.

I called the Finnish Scouts and asked them why my membership has not been approved yet, the kind person explained that I am still in line to be approved for the group where I applied. That's alright.

I also called the apartment service and asked them if they can provide me with a toilet cover and seat. They said yes, but didn't say when.

I left and went to the convenience store and got a free cup of cocoa.

I took a train to downtown and went to the parish. Later that day I took part in the international youth group. This time there were two other visitors.

I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill for an hour and two minutes.

After leaving, I made the weekly phone call to Elysion.

I traveled back home, mailed two birthday cards, and went back home.

I took my evening meds, brushed my teeth, applied lotion on my skin, put on a nightie, and applied Bemetson on my scalp.

Last night I had a dream where I received the Spiderman backpack I ordered from Etsy a while ago.

I got up in the morning and took my meds. I brushed my hair, changed from nightie into a bathrobe, and made coffee.

My mom called me. I thought granny had died, but mom just said that lunch was served (yes, I usually sleep till lunch time). I quickly got dressed and took a bus to my parents' home.

Mom and dad were home, and so was my brother. He had a black pearl necklace wrapped around his wrist.

I ate smashed potatoes, friend salmon, salad, cherry tomatoes, dark grapes, and drank coffee and orange juice.

I called my granny. She kept going on and on about some old folk singer, and then she hung up.

I walked back to my home town and went to the ATM to deposit the money. Then I went home.

I put clean sheets into my bed.

Mirette came home, we booked tickets to a circus. Mirette cooked lasagna.

In the evening, I went to the supermarket and bought some greeting cards and postage stamps.

Once back home, I took my evening meds.
I started having anxiety.

I slept well last night, except I kept on waking up between hours. Ripe got up a couple of times, and I feigned sleep.

I finally got up, took my morning meds, had cappuccino and Spanish omelette and Karelian pies for breakfast. I put lotion on my skin and got dressed.

Ripe and I went for a walk. We walked through the Japanese Park, then we went to the playpark, and then we just walked around.

Once back at her home, we had coffee and then I left.

I took a bus to another town, bought coffee that was supposed to taste like milk chocolate but tasted like pinecones instead. From now on I will drink only ordinary coffee.

I took a subway to another town, then a tram to another. On the tram there was a random person begging for money; he said he needed to buy antibiotics because he had vomit in his lungs and it was getting moldy.
I would have gone and bought him the medicine, but I didn't have enough money.

I went to the parish to have coffee, and then I took a train home.

I tidied up a bit; changed the towels, took the sheets off my bed, bagged the trash, scrubbed the toilet bowl, washed two loads of laundry, sorted out past week's laundry, wiped the worst stains off the kitchen floor, soaked the dirtiest dishes in the sink, wiped down the coffee maker.

I brushed my teeth.
I took out the trash and went to the supermarket. I bought a roll of biodegradable trash bags, and two rolls of plastic trash bags.

I went back home and continued cleaning. I hung the laundry on the drying rack, and re- arranged the kitchen cupboard where I keep pans and pots on the lower department and the equipment; electric kettle, clothes iron, coffee maker, toaster; on the upper part.

Mirette and I watched Masked Singer.

I took my evening meds, put Bemetson on my scalp, and went to bed.

Tomorrow I will walk to my parents' home. They will give me the weekly allowance, and I will make the weekly phone call to my granny.
I will deposit the money to my bank account, buy skincare products and order a ticket to a circus.

Last night I had a dream where my mother and I went to this pastel- colored suburban area, which was flooded with water. We just swam along.

I woke up when my mother called me and told me she is ready to see me.
I got up and took my morning meds and got dressed. I went to see my mom who was smiling through her face mask. She gave me 20 euros.

I went to the dressmaker and paid him for mending my clothes.

I went grocery shopping, and paid for my Netflix subscription.

I went back home and put everything to their rightful places, and had some coffee.

I left and took along my sleepover stuff.

I went to a convenience store and bought four sandwiches. I talked to some politicians who had set up a coffee stand.

I went to the hairdresser and had my hair washed and conditioned with Olaplex products, then I had my bangs cut so that they fit the shape of my face.

I left and took a train downtown, then a subway and then a bus to my friend's home. She was on the balcony, waving hello at me.

I went in, we hugged each other, did some stretches and exercises, drank coffee, and then we we went geocaching.

It was getting dark. I hadn't been in a forest- like area, trudging in mud for a while, but I had a good time nonetheless.

We didn't find the geocaches, so we went back home.

Later Mirette came to see us. We went to the sauna, I washed my armpits and put Nuud into them.

Once back home, we watched the movie "Holmes & Watson", and then Mirette went home and we went to sleep.

Last night I had a dream where I visited the town with the psychiatric hospital where I was treated in 2006 - 2007. There was a huge trendy shopping mall.

I also had a dream about visiting some sort of a holiday resort, like a hotel.
In the dream, a bully girl from my junior high started harassing me. She was dressed like Queen Elsa from Frozen.
I strangled her and packed her body into a suitcase, and jumped into a swimming pool. The water felt like air, it was easy to breathe.

Then my smartphone beeped as a sign of a text message, I was glad to be awoken from my nightmare.

I got up and took my morning meds. I brushed my teeth and did the 12- step skincare regiment and put basic lotion on my skin. I got dressed.

I put fresh sheets into my bed.

I went to the health center and renewed my Bemetson prescription.

I took a bus to downtown and went to the bank. Now I have got a working bank application on my smartphone.

I went to the parish and took part in the international youth group.

I took a train back home and called Elysion on the way there.

Once back home, I took my evening meds and did the every evening skincare regiment.

Right now, I am lying on my be in my nightie, and I feel like I am electrified by this abnormal amount of energy.

I have started to resent evenings, they are the worst part of my day.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
I will go to Twinkle cafe.

On Wednesday, I will do the mid- week housework; take out the biological waste, scrub the toilet bowl, and change the hand and face towels and pillowcase.
I will go see my parents.
I will go to a feminist sewing group, then to a knitting group in a library.

On Thursday I will go visit Pearl House. I also need to recharge my travel card.

On Friday, I will have an appointment with my hairdresser. I will have my terf bangs cut so that they fit the shape of my face.
I will go to a friend's home for a sleep over, we will go geocaching.
Mirette will come visit us after that.

On Saturday, I will go back home and do the usual housework.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. I will call my granny, and my parents will give me the weekly allowance.

I had a dream where I tried to drive my dad's car.

I woke up early, and went through the seven states of grief and also every embarrasing situation I have been through.

I got up and took my morning meds. I brushed my teeth, did the every- morning- skincare routine, and applied basic lotion on my skin.
I got dressed and put on a pearl necklace.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said I can.

Once in the bus, my brother was there as well. I have noticed that I get along with him very well now that we are not hormonally frustrated teenager anymore.

We went to our parents' home, mom was happy to see us.

Mom had cooked scrumptious soup, we also had buns and ice cream. I ate some cherry tomatoes and grapes, and got a tiny sliver of grape peel stuck in my gullet. It stung a lot, but fortunately blowing my nose a couple of times managed to loosen it.

Mom gave me the weekly allowances and a spool of knitting yarn.
Both my brother and I left at the same time, I took a bus downtown and went to the nearest art museum to use the free bathroom.

I took a train to another part of the town, and went to the shopping mall which has become my favourite place.

I went to an eco- shop and bought a cloth pantyliner.

I went to a stationery shop and bought two cards, one postage stamp, and a hair bobble.

I took a tram to downtown and went to a historical museum.

I took a subway to another town, and went to the beach. I called my granny and talked to her.

I took a bus back home.
The journey took a while because two passengers fainted, they were probably drunk.

Once back home, I took my evening meds.
I had something in my right eye, and I managed to pull out one of my full length hairs out of it. It was satisfying.

I washed a load of laundry and hung it on the drying rack; from now on, I won't take the laundry to the drying room.

I had a weird feeling, like time had stopped. I felt bored, and cold.

I washed my hair and shaved my armpits.