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Fare thee well

I have decided to stop updating my Livejournal.
It's because the site has been sold to a Russian company; don't get me wrong, I don't hate Russian people, but they have strict laws about freedom of speech and I don't want any trouble.

Not to mention, Livejournal is pretty deserted these days. None of my friends use this anymore, and I rarely receive any interaction.

I'm not going to delete my blog due to all the fond memories I have here.

Anyway, my current lifeline is my Tumblr under the username "kittyramone".

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Any way the wind blows

I have felt a bit sad lately. I have realized that no matter what I do, I will never be able to be cured from my depression and anxiety and delusions.
Of course, I could start eating more healthily and exercising more often and visiting art museums, but I can't. I am more interested in sitting in my apartment, drinking coffee and surfing on the Internet. I just need a good kick in the rear.

Sometimes I believe I am wasting my life. I am already 30 years old without college degree, a job, or a soulmate.

Anyway, last night I slept on a mattress on the floor because Mirette and Elysion were having a sleepover at my home. I woke up to the feeling of being cold because it was chilly and rainy outside, the balcony door was open, and the cooling fan was on. I was practically shivering with cold.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day. I drank some cocoa.

Later that day I took the second biotin of the day.

Elysion's boyfriend came for a visit, she brought some stuff from Lapland where he had been on a vacation.

Mainly I just stayed inside sleeping all day, feeling ill and tired, but in the evening when Elysion went back home with her boyfriend and Mirette went to a concert, I decided to go see my mother. I called her and asked her if I can come over, she said it's okay.

I caught a bus to my parents' home, and ran into my friend Laufey. We had a nice talk on the same bus.

Once at my parents' home, I ate a few slices of buttered rye bread, a handful of cherry tomatoes and dark grapes, a couple of slices of a cinnamon bun loaf, and drank coffee and orange juice.

Later that day, I caught a bus back to my home town, and went to the supermarket to buy soy milk. I feel like I am getting better.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day, washed a load of laundry, tidied up my home, and watched The Good Place on Netflix.

Tomorrow I will receive money. I will pay my gym membership, a debt to a friend, and purchase a membership card to the aquarium downtown because it is in discount, half the price during the rest of the month. I will also order a face muscle trainer from Amazon.co.uk. As for the rest of the money, I will buy groceries.

On Saturday, me and my friends will go to the Pride March. Two of my friends, Eleclya and Suavecita, will be at the annual metal music festival, but me and Mirette will go there.

On Sunday, I will shave my armpits and chin fluffs. I will go visit my parents, my dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will also call my granny. As for the rest of the day, I might visit a museum. 
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Last night I had a dream where I missed the appointment at the psychiatric center. Sometimes when I have plans for the next day, I have the kind of dreams where I miss every appointment or otherwise ruin everything.

I got up about at eleven o'clock and took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day. I put some cream on my face and got dressed. I should buy more leggings so I won't give anyone an accidental panty- shot.

I washed two loads of laundry, Elysion helped me hang it in the drying room.

Later the day Mirette left, she was going to Perry's summer cottage.

Me and Elysion left at the same time. She went to see her mother, I went to the psychiatric center where I had an appointment with my nurse.

We talked about all kinds of stuff, and she also told me that I can start taking only one Ketipinor pill every evening.
After the appointment, we agreed to have the next at the beginning of August.

I went to the pharmacy to pick a batch of Ketipinor, and a tube of Hydrocortison lotion, and also ordered another batch of Solian.

Once back home, I put everything to their rightful places. I took the second biotin supplement, brushed my hair, put Miniderm and Hydrocortison on my skin.

I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come for a visit, she said it's alright.

I took a train to her hometown. Once at her home, we had coffee and petted Toast.
Eleclya told me that I smell like breast milk. I know what she's talking about, she has given birth to two kids.

Later that day I left and went to downtown to loiter around, feeling rather miserable.

I took a bus back to my home. I noticed that I had received the order from Wish.com.

I took my evening medicine and the last biotin supplement, put lotion on my skin and brushed my teeth. I put on a nightie and brushed my hair properly.

Tomorrow I will go see my parents so that my mother can give me the weekly allowance.
I will meet Elysion, we will go to Twinkle cafe together.
After that, I will go shopping.

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My Midsummer was pretty nice

Last night I slept on Eleclya's old sofa on my balcony; Mirette slept on my bed, and Elysion slept on the sofa.

I had all kinds of dreams. I woke up when the sun started shining into my face.

I have a weird pain in the tube between my nostrils and throat, I don't know what it is but I will have it checked out. I have also been coughing and sneezing a lot these days.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin, and brushed my teeth. I had slept in my summer dress.

I managed to wash a huge load of dirty dishes. I replaced my sweaty dirty dress with a fresh one, and also replaced my socks with dry ones. One of the best feelings in the world is putting on clean and dry socks.

Later that day, Mirette and Elysion went to the beach and I stayed inside.

I decided to go to the gym. I packed all the stuff I needed, and once at the gym, I learned that I had forgotten the lock and key I need to shut the locker door; without them, someone might steal my stuff.
I went back home, and had an anxiety attack after learning what the book & movie The Stepford Wives is actually about.

I decided to go for a walk around the area where my brother lives. I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said I was welcome.

My mother answered the door. My father and my brother were also home.
We had coffee and buns, mom gave me a ball of knitting yarn, and then I left.

I caught a bus back home, Mirette and Elysion weren't there yet. I took my evening medicine and changed into a nightie. I didn't see any reason in brushing my teeth or putting lotion on my skin.

Tomorrow I will start doing the weekly housework; take out the recycling, scrub the bathroom, and replace the towels.
Perry will drive me, Mirette, Elysion, and Berry to Clock River, we will have a picnic.

On Sunday, we will go visit Elysion's mother and then we will go visit Eleclya. At some point I will go visit my parents to collect my dad's weekly allowance. I also have to remember to call my granny.
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My plans for Monday, June 17th - Sunday, June 23rd

Monday, June 17th:
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at quarter to one o’clock in the afternoon (12:45 pm). I will wash all the dishes, including Mirette’s.
After the appointment, I will take an article of clothing to the dressmaker to be mended, and then I will go to the gym. I will do stretches and then use the cross- trainer.
At some point, I will visit the library.

Tuesday, June 18th:
I will go visit my mother so she can give me the weekly allowance. I will go to the same thrift store that I visited on Sunday and buy two books and a set of bed linen. As for the rest of the money, I will deposit it to my bank account so I can pay a fiver for a movie ticket; there will be a discount in movie tickets tomorrow.
In the evening, I will take part in plogging; we will pick up trash as we jog around a lake in the neighborhood next to my home town.

Wednesday, June 19th:
I will go to movies to see Blinky Bill.
After the movie, I will go to the swimming pool to swim a few laps, and then I will go to the sauna.

Thursday, June 20th:
I will go visit my mother, she will give me the monthly allowance. I will recharge my travel card and mail Zoya’s package.
As for the rest of the money, I will buy another set of bed linen, and some cute clothes from another thrift store.
My friend Elysion will come for a week- long sleepover at my home.

Friday, June 21st:
I will receive the weekly allowance. I will buy a week’s worth of groceries.
I will go to downtown and have my nose pierced.

Saturday, June 22nd:
Me, Mirette, and Elysion for a picnic.

Sunday, June 23rd:
I will go visit my parents. I will walk there and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny.
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What a nice day!

Yesterday I just stayed in bed all day, I saw no reason in getting up. I took my morning medicine, changed from nighties into a bathrobe, and went back to sleep.
Later that day Mirette and Perry came over, we had coffee together. I got dressed and took the second biotin of the day.

In the evening I went to the shopping mall to buy a big bar of chocolate, I also took some discarded trolleys to the station.

This morning I woke up early to a weird psychosomatic pain in my neck and shoulders. I took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day and went back to bed.

Later in the morning, about at ten o’clock, I got up. I took a shower and washed my hair, shaved my armpits and chin hairs, and put on an argan mud face mask.
I got dressed, and then I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said I can.

I decided to walk to my parents’ home. The weather was hot and fine, and I didn’t have as much delusions as I thought I would have.
Once at my parents’ home, mom and dad were both home. Dad gave me the weekly 20 euros.
I ate buttered rye bread, a handful of green grapes, and a tomato. I didn’t drink any coffee; come to think of it, I don’t think I even like coffee anymore.

I took a bus to downtown, then a subway to Grass Cove, and went to the photography museum. I was in a good mood, even if my internal demons were bothering me again.
I was thinking of walking along the beach and then going to my favorite café to enjoy a slice of key lime pie but decided to do that later.

I took a subway back to the city center, and then a tram to the posh neighborhood where I went to the thrift store and bought a pillowcase, a duvet cover, and a bed sheet. I also saw two second- hand books that I was interested in.

I took a tram back to downtown and took a bus back to my home town. Once there, I bought a big bar of chocolate; I have become addicted to them once again. Now that I think about it, I could have bought the books from the thrift store instead of spending the money on chocolate.

Once back home, I washed a load of laundry, sorted the old laundry, and called my granny.

I spent the rest of the evening playing FreeRice, watching The Good Place on Netflix, and re- arranging my stuff. At eight o’clock in the evening, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day.

Now I am suffering; I feel manic and panicky, like I am going insane.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly visit at quarter to one o’clock in the afternoon. I will wash all the dishes, including Mirette’s dishes.
In the afternoon, I will go to the gym.
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Thank goddess it's Friday

Last night I had a dream about geocaching, and my current fandom husbando Lobo. Nothing too special.

I woke up early, got up, took my morning medicine and first biotin supplement of the day. I got dressed, and didn’t bother with having a proper wash.

I received money today, so I went to the nearest ATM machine and withdrew cash.

I went to Arnold’s and bought a poppy seed- cheese bagel stuffed with cold- smoked salmon; I also bought a pink chocolate donut and a glass of lemonade. After finishing my brunch, I took a train to downtown.
On the train, a couple of dark- skinned women and a white man sat next to me. The man asked us if we knew that Jesus died for our sins, then he asked for our phone numbers.

I went to Pearl House, but I didn’t feel like staying there; the group I was supposed to attend was cancelled because of the low attendance.
I went to the Pearl café, there was some creepy old guy watching porn on the common computer. I talked about tattoos with this lovely woman, and the guy told me that I am not supposed to ruin my skin with tattoos because men would hate them, and God didn’t create me that way. I made a face and left.

I left and took a bus to downtown. Once there, I went to a department store and bought peeling cream for my face. I am also planning to buy stronger biotin, the one with 10,000 milligrams.

I met Mirette like we had agreed, and we went to the thrift store where I had had the clothes set aside. Once there, I paid for the clothes, and it used up most of my money. I still have a few tenners left for groceries, and I will receive more money on Sunday from my father.

I decided to head back home. Once there, I cut the price tags off the clothes and washed them along with other laundry. Some of the clothes need to be taken to the dressmaker, I will do it next week.

I did a little bit of this and that and then I went to the supermarket to buy some groceries. I was in a bad mood once again; I am not sure if it is the fact that I eat too little and my blood sugar gets low, or that I am simply mentally ill.

I went to my home yard to write into my diary, then I went back home. I have no energy to make a decent supper, so I guess I will just drink coffee all evening.

I took my evening medicine, re- arranged the dirty dishes, hung the laundry on the drying rack.

Tomorrow I will do the weekly housework; replace the towels, scrub the toilet bowl, take out the recycling. I will probably go visit a couple of museums.

On Sunday, if the weather is fine, I will walk to my parents’ home and back. My father will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny during the visit.
After the visit, I will travel to downtown and go to the thrift store to buy the curtains I had set aside.
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Thrift shop prowlin'

Last night I had a dream where me and my family were visiting the summer cottage / my mother’s childhood home, and my parents found my porn collection (I am asexual but I still enjoy porn, mainly yaoi fanart, actual mainstream live action porn is icky). They were really angry and disappointed with me so I burned the collection down, and I was comforted by the DC Comics character Lobo whom I have had many erotic dreams about.
In another dream, I lived in my former apartment in the colorful cubistic building, and we headed to The Ramones concert. I was wearing a pink t- shirt that said “Baby Doll” on front, and black daisy dukes. I was holding a bunch of cloth panty liners that were sewn to fit thongs and g- strings, and I also had a package of reusable cotton swabs.
In yet another dream, I was in a modern art museum downtown where I was supposed to vote for the most beautiful work of art. There were piles of rocks and piles of wooden planks, and I voted for a painting with pink and white flowers in a potty with a blue background. I was supposed to write my name in Icelandic, so I wrote “Miia Esasdottir”.
I went to the other side of the road; there was a demonstration against nuclear power. I went to a health shop on the side of the road and looked for some proper lotion for my itchy skin; there was this lotion that was made into the form of little yellow pearls that dissolved when you rub them against your skin (my mother has that lotion too, I think it’s a wrinkle cream from Nivea). Anyway, I saw a bottle of vitamin supplements that were especially meant for college students who lived on nothing but pizza and had suicidal thoughts. I was so overcome with worry and empathy that I started crying, and one of the demonstrators comforted me.

I woke up to a tremendous coughing fit. I should go see a doctor next week, I have been coughing and sneezing a lot for the past weeks.

I got up, took my morning medicine, brushed my teeth, had a wash, dabbed lotion on my skin, got dressed, and had breakfast, without losing my spoons. It actually helped me load my spoons.

I had oatmeal porridge for breakfast. Mirette had gone to a meeting with her social counselor.

I headed to Stick Town, once there I learned that Fountain House was closed because they had gone for a journey. I didn’t mind, I took a bus to downtown and went to Pearl House for a cup of coffee.

I traveled back home. I washed my hair, dabbed lotion on my skin, changed my panty liner, and took the second biotin of the day.

I watched the Monty Python musical on DVD. I learned a funny joke; British beer is like having sex in a canoe, it’s fucking close to water!

Later that day, me and Mirette took a train to downtown and went to the nearest thrift store. They had all kinds of gorgeous clothes for sale; I picked a pair of red dungarees with a heart- shaped pocket on the front, a floor- length skirt from the 1960’s, an actual Dirndl dress that fits me, and a brown dress with white polka dots, and a simple denim dress that I am going to customize.
They had other kind of gorgeous clothes but I was allowed to set aside only five articles of clothing at maximum; now that I think about it, I don’t think that all the nighties and the white lace gloves and the wedding dress are going to be sold out tomorrow, so I can be rest assured.

We walked over to the posh neighborhood, there was another vintage thrift store from the same chain. I didn’t find any clothes from there, but I picked up new curtains and I also saw four duvet covers that had amazing retro / vintage designs and they were also so worn that they felt so soft and smooth! I will buy them tomorrow.

It was getting late and we were both a bit hungry, so we took a tram and then a subway to another mall and went to a restaurant. I got a fish fillet, parmesan fries, and pea hummus, it was scrumptious. We didn’t make it to the third thrift store because it was going to be closed for the day.

Elysion called me and asked if she can come for a visit during the midsummer weekend, I asked Mirette if it was okay and she said yes. As for our plans for midsummer, I am going to get a nose ring on Friday, and on Saturday me and Mirette will go to a picnic in the town where I was treated in the psychiatric ward. The nature around there is very beautiful.

We traveled to downtown and went to the movie theater to see the film Shazam!, it was amazing. I love Marvel / DC superhero movies.

After the movie, a friend of ours gave us a lift back to my home. Once there, I took my evening medicine and went to bed.

Tomorrow I will go to Pearl House, there will be two groups where I want to take part. After that, I will go shopping with Mirette, we will go to all the thrift shops and I will buy all the clothes I have set aside. As for the rest of the money, I will buy a meager amount of groceries.

On Saturday, I will do housework and perhaps visit a few museums.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. I will walk there and back if the weather is fine. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny.
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I am becoming less and less interested in keeping a blog and writing into my real- life paper diary. Yet at the same time, I don't feel like giving up.

On Sunday I felt pretty sad; even if my period is over, my delusions are still so bad that it feels like I have PMS every day. The heat wave is driving me crazy, I have to wear revealing clothes every day from preventing my body from boiling itself alive. Each time I expose myself to sunburn and sexual harassment.
In the evening I cried my eyes out, I cried actual tears. Funny thing, I used to cry a lot when I was a child, and I also peed my pants up until I was 12 years old.
I find it rather weird how most people believe that I am a tap- dancing ray of sunshine, when I am actually a bitch queen from hell in my internal life. But then again, I WANT to be happy. And by happy I mean I wish I weren't so depressed and anxious all the time.

On a positive note, I suddenly noticed that I have started loving my body. I know I have a bad posture, flabby arms and a pudgy stomach, but I am no longer "zomg I look ugly" or even "zomg I look gorgeous", I am just "who cares?" I practice body neutrality more than body positivity.

On Monday, my care worker came for the weekly appointment. I had already got up from my bed and taken my morning medicine and put on clothes, but I was taking a depression nap. The meeting was like John Lennon's and Yoko Ono's interview; I just lied under the covers, and talked to her. She was okay with that.

Today was slightly better.
I got up and went to see my mother, she gave me the weekly allowance. I went back home, washed my hair and put on a hair mask, used the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment, put Miniderm on my skin, and got dressed.
I went to Twinkle café today, Mella was there as well. She looked lovely in a yellow- white summer dress. Raija was there as well, she had come home from the hospital. I gave her a birthday and a name- day card because she has them both this month.
I drank cocoa and juice and ate plenty of treats like raspberry cake with whipped cream, meringues, Karelian pies, chocolate kisses... Considering that there were only women present, I did some stretches.

Later that day I hugged everyone and left. I took a tram to downtown and then a train back home.

Mirette was home as well. I did a little bit of this and that, then I went out for errands; I took out a huge pile of trash bags, and then I went to the library. I used the library computer to click all the donation buttons on GreaterGood, and borrowed three books to read during the summer.

I went to the gym, but I didn't bother doing stretches considering that I had already done them during the day- time. Instead, I tried using the crosstrainer, but the physical exertion only made me angry and frustrated. I quit soon and went back home, on my way there I fetched the laundry from the drying room.

Once home, I put all the laundry in a huge pile on a chair, I will sort them out tomorrow. I took off my gym gear and put it in the laundry basket, and took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day. I wonder if the biotin is working, I have been consuming three of them during the day- time and the only way they have affected is that my eyelashes have grown longer.
I might get some stronger ones from the pharmacy.

Tomorrow will be Helsinki day, I will go to this special museum where they have rooms constructed after working class homes from the past, and the introduction will be made in the dialect / slang that is generally used in Helsinki.
After that, I will go to a group held by the same mental health company as Twinkle cafe; we will meet at a certain subway station in Helsinki, and go for a walk in the forest.
In the evening, I will go to a unicorn- themed café with Mirette.

On Thursday, I will go to all my favourite thrift stores, pick my favorite clothes and ask the shop assistant to set them aside until tomorrow.
In the evening, me and Mirette will go to movies to see Shazam!

On Friday, I will receive money. I will go visit the shops and purchase all the clothes I set aside. As for the rest of the money, I will buy a week's worth of groceries.
In the evening, me and Mirette will go to the sauna.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housecleaning.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, I will also call my granny. 
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Hope your weekend is amazing!

I don't remember what kind of dreams I had last night.
I woke up early, and got up about at nine o'clock in the morning.
I took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, and changed from my nightie into a bathrobe.

Later in the morning, Mirette's care worker came to see her. She seemed like a nice person.

After she left, I put Miniderm on my skin and washed my face and got dressed.

I received money today. I paid my Netflix and Microsoft Word subscription.

I went out for errands; the first thing to do was to withdraw cash, and then I went to the dressmaker to pay for the mended clothes. I was supposed to bring another three clothes to be mended, but I forgot.

I went to a supermarket to buy a box of pantyliners.
I went back home, and later the day me and Mirette left and caught a train and then a bus to a shopping mall.
Later we met Suavecita, we had agreed to meet today because it was her name- day. We went to Starbucks where I bought her a frappuccino.

We went to an amazing shop named New Yorker, they had all kinds of amazing clothes! And most of them were in discount.

Suavecita gave us both a lift to Mallard's home, where she picked up two lawnchairs and an air conditioner.
I took the second biotin of the day.

Suavecita drove us to Eleclya's home.
Eleclya told me that Mallard doesn't like it when I send her text messages. I didn't understand what she meant by that, I send her messages very rarely.

We laughed and joked and petted Toast.

Later that day we all left, me and Mirette caught a train back to my home.

We decided to go to movies tomorrow, we didn't have enough time today.

In the evening, I washed a load of laundry. I watched The Illustrated Mumand ate chocolate and some potato & goat cheese steaks.

I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day.

I felt a bit anxious, but it went over soon.

About at midnight, I brushed my teeth and dabbed lotion on my skin. I felt a lot better.

Today me and Mirette are going to a samba carnival.
After that, we are going to see the movie Pokèmon Detective Pikachu.
At some point, I will take out the recycling, replace the towels, and scrub the bathroom.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. If the weather is alright, I will walk there and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny.
Once back home, I will pay Mirette back the price of the movie ticket.

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I woke up early to the feeling of terror. I fell back asleep and woke up again after having a bunch of weird- ass dreams.
I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, and got dressed.

Mirette had gone to see one of her counselors, and then she went swimming at a beach downtown.

Later that day I left and took a bus to Flux Island. I visited a couple of flea markets, looking for bed clothes and teddy bears.
I took a subway to Pasture Cape, and went to Girls' House; the others had baked plenty of cakes, and we got to eat them all. I ate two slices of mudcake with cream cheese, blueberries, and blackberries. I painted my nails with white and powder blue fibers.

In the evening I left and took a bus back home.

Once there, Mirette was also home.
I re- arranged our belongings, cleaned out the kitchen a little, and took my evening medicine.

I noticed that the facial muscle trainer and toner that I wanted to buy has been sold out, and the ones on British Amazon won't ship to my home country, but the ones on American Amazon will. It's a tad bit more expensive, but I will buy it later.

Tomorrow I will receive money. I will withdraw it all, and then I will go to the dressmaker to pay him for the mended clothes and bring three other articles of clothing to be mended. After that, I will go visit the thrift store and the masseur so I can get an app for regular customers.
After that, I will pay Mirette a tenner for buying me food. Then we will go to a shopping mall near Mallard's home where we will meet Suavecita, she will have her name- day tomorrow so I will give her a card and buy her a coffee.
After that, we will go hang out at Eleclya's home. In the evening, me and Mirette will go to movies to see Pokémon Detective Pikachu.

On Saturday me and Mirette will go to a samba festival in downtown.
Once back home, I will take out the recycling, scrub the toilet bowl, and replace towels.

On Sunday, I will shave my armpits and my chin hairs, and put on a face mask.
In the afternoon, I will ride my bicycle to my parents' home and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance.
I will call my granny.
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Double yay

Last night I had a dream where I was Mary Poppins and traveled to 1970’s Britain to help a working- class family with washing the dishes and getting rid of cockroaches.
Sometimes I believe that Mary Poppins might be a Time Lord because she is British, has an extraordinary way of traveling, she has a bag that is bigger on the inside, she knows how to speak horse, and she has a flamboyant style and a weird- ass brolly like the 7th Doctor!
I also learned that Mary Poppins got her surname because when she arrives to the Banks household, she “pops in”.

In another dream, I rode my bicycle through the neighborhoods that are familiar to me in real life. I had the same dream I have had before; on the same road, there was a food bank formed by anti- abortion activists.

In yet another dream, I was in post- apocalyptic Finland in the middle of a forest with a huge shopping complex and went to look for new zodiac jewelry. In the dream, I was forced to take part in a Hunger Style contest where a courtyard was filled with water and sand, and me and the other contestants were supposed to fight our way out of it.

I woke up early and continued sleeping. I got up before noon, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, and then I got dressed and drank coffee.

My jaw feels stiff after I have been grinding my teeth, I cannot help it; it’s a symptom of my anxiety, and it also somehow gives me comfort. I hope that the face muscle exerciser helps them, once I have received it.

I spent the afternoon cleaning up; I took the laundry off the drying rack and folded it and put it to the cupboard and picked up trash and put it to recycling. I also took the second biotin of the day.

In the afternoon my care worker came for the weekly appointment. I managed to wash the dishes, but I forgot to wash the eating utensils.
We made a new appointment on next Monday at fifteen minutes past one o’clock in the afternoon.

Later that day I left at the same time with Mirette. She was heading to her father’s home, and I was going to the recycling center. Once at the bus stop, I remembered that I had forgotten the bag of broken electronic goods at home, so I went there to pick it up.
I caught a bus to another town near my parents’ home, and then another bus to the recycling center. I went there to recycle all the broken electronics in my home such as Eleclya’s old air conditioner, two pairs of broken headphones, a broken smartphone charger, and a broken coffee maker.
After that, I took another two buses to my parents’ hometown and went to the swimming pool. I could only swim one lap and by then I was so disturbed by my delusions that I decided to quit. I went to the sauna, washed my hair, and then I left.

I took a bus to my hometown and went to the shopping mall to buy a big bar of chocolate. Then I went back home and played Free Rice until it was time to leave. I was going to a free concert with Mirette; I took her camera along because she wanted to take photos.

I took a train to downtown; I missed the first train, so I waited for the next one. I paid a compliment to a pretty lady who wore funky colorful clothes.
Once aboard the train, I paid a compliment to two young women who looked pretty in pink.

I got off at downtown and went to the library where the concert is held.
I met Mirette and volunteered to watch over her belongings while she took photos. I also gave her a piece of paper I had found where someone had scribbled a funny picture on it.
After the concert, we were harassed by a man, so we quickly walked away.

I mailed a post card, and then we went to a 24/7 market where we bought groceries.

We traveled back to my hometown on a train and pilfered a flyer advertising the concert we went to last Sunday.

Today was such a nice day, I got good vibes except I was still a bit shaky after being harassed.

I have decided that from now on, when I first turn on my laptop when I get up from the bed, I will start playing Free Rice and play until I have donated 1000 grains of rice.

Tomorrow I will go to the gym to work out, and then I will go to a couple of museums.

On Friday I will receive money. The first thing to do is to order a face muscle exerciser from an online shop; if it isn’t in discount anymore, I will order a tube squeezer, clothes brush, and a wall picture from Etsy.com.
In the afternoon, I will go to the dressmaker and pay them for the mended clothes. I will also bring them two dresses to be mended; one sweet casual Lolita dress that needs to be widened around the bodice, and a pink Dirndl dress that has a tear between the hem and the bodice.
After that, I will go visit Salvation Army to get the membership card app, and then I will go to the masseuse so I can get a membership app there as well.
Me and Mirette will go visit Suavecita in a café in the shopping mall near Mallard’s home. I will buy her whatever coffee she wants, considering that she has her name- day on that day. After that, we will go visit Eleclya.
In the evening, I will go to movies to see with Mirette; we will go see Pokemon Detective Pikachu.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework; replace the towels, take out the recycling, and scrub the bathroom. I might also go visit an art museum or two.

On Sunday, I will shave my armpits and chin hairs, and put on a face mask.
I will go visit my parents. If the weather is alright, I will ride my bicycle there and back. I will call my granny, and my dad will give me the weekly allowance.
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Last night I had plenty of dreams that didn’t remind me of any dreams I have seen before, the most re- occurrent dreams.
Except in one of them, I was studying in Hogwarts and refused to wear the school uniform. I got a seriously pissed off Snape after me.

I woke up early, there was a heavy rain and thunderstorm outside, but it cleared up soon.

I got up before my alarm clock rang; it was supposed to ring at noon. I took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day. but I didn’t eat anything because I was supposed to fast for twelve hours so my blood sugar would be decent for my blood sample. I washed my face and put lotion on my itchy skin and got dressed into the same clothes I wore a week ago.

I went to the lab to have my blood drawn. My queue number was 219, and they were serving number 181.
After about two hours of waiting, it was finally my turn. I got my blood drawn.
I was also told to go to the EKG, but by then a power shortage occurred due to the storm, and the lights were turned off. Before anarchy would ensue, I went to the parish.

The parish worker was really nice to me, as he usually is. We talked about Christianity and other things, and then he gave me two gift cards because he couldn’t print the food coupon for me; there was a power shortage as well. I also got a box of raspberries and a half of a honeydew melon.

I took a train to downtown and went to the Twinkle café. Mella was there, she gave me a sweet hug.

Later all the others left, and me and Mella were left together. I drank plenty of cocoa and ate plenty of treats, did some stretches, and talked with Mella about stuff.

In the afternoon, I took a tram to the city center and then a train back to my hometown.
Once there, I went back home to have a little wind- down time. I took the plastic waste to recycling, and then I went grocery shopping.
With the other gift card, I bought ten postage stamps and some personal and domestic hygiene products from the supermarket.
With the other gift card, I bought groceries from a grocery shop.
Once back home, I fetched the laundry from the downstairs drying room. Once back home, I divided the laundry into mine and Mirette’s, and folded mine and put it into the cupboard.

In the evening I was feeling bored, so I went for a short bike ride. Once back at my neighborhood, I went to the supermarket and bought a pair of gardening gloves; I am going to use them for picking up garbage when I go out.
I also took a couple of discarded trolleys back to the supermarket.

I did other good deeds today; when I was in the corridor, I held the lift door open for an elderly lady using a walker.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and rubbed cortisone lotion on my itchy shins and put on a clean nightie.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will wash the dishes.
After that, I will ride my bicycle to the swimming pool in my parents’ hometown and swim a few laps.
After the swim, I will go to the sauna and I also have to wash my hair properly.

On Thursday, I will go to a couple of museums. If the youth group is still open, I will go there.

On Friday, I will receive money. I will order a face muscle trainer from an online shop; if it isn’t in discount anymore, I will instead order some important stuff from Etsy.com, such as a tube squeezer and a clothes brush.
It will also be Suavecita’s name- day, we will go to the café where Eleclya works and buy her whatever treat she wants.
I will also go to the dressmaker and pay them for the mended clothes and bring them another two articles of clothing to be mended.
In the evening, I will go to the sauna.

On Saturday, I will do housework, and go to a museum.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. If it doesn’t rain, I will ride my bicycle there and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will also call my granny.
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On Saturday, I went to see my parents; my mom gave me 60 euros in advance; it was her weekly allowance, dad’s weekly allowance, and a little extra. I bought soy milk, toilet paper, paper tissues, and the rest of the money was spent on nail care products. Now I have remorse for wasting my money, but at least I bought something useful like soy milk and paper products.

Sometimes I actually believe that I might have a compulsive spending habit.

On Sunday, I went to a free music festival with Mirette, Odessa, Eleclya, Jazz, and Perry. We all had a good time; we sang “Hey Jude” and “Yuri Gagarin” together.

Last night I had a dream where I was hanging out on a bright winter morning at downtown. It was a nice dream.
I found myself thinking that I should probably get up and get going to the Fountain House, but I didn’t get up until half past noon; I was having such nice dreams. I took my morning medicine, freshened up and got dressed.

I took a train to Eleclya’s hometown and went to Fountain House. Odessa was there, she goes there as well.
The counselors didn’t seem to mind that I had arrived late.
I joined Fountain House as a member and got a member card, and had a piece of salmon pie and two mugs of cocoa at the café. I also took the second biotin supplement of the day.

Later that day, I took a bus and a subway to the city center. I called the parish worker on the way there and asked him if I can visit him tomorrow to ask for a food coupon, he said yes. We agreed to meet tomorrow at half past one o’clock in the morning.
The museum I was supposed to go was closed, so I went to a few clothing shops but that’s when my delusions kicked in and I almost got an anxiety attack. I quickly headed out and went to the train station.

On the station square, there was an old man preaching about God and Jesus, and some drunkies arguing with him. On the train, there was an old man who kept on shouting how much he hates idiots.

Once back home, Mirette was there as well. She has to crash at my apartment for a while now that she was evicted from her home.

I washed a few loads of laundry, both mine and Mirette’s, and later that day we went to the supermarket because Mirette had to buy groceries. I went there to accompany her.

Once back home, I took three loads of laundry downstairs to the drying room. The carrier bag was very heavy, as wet clothes usually are.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day. I put lotion on my skin; my ankles and shins have been especially itchy. I put on a clean nightie and went to bed with my laptop.

Tomorrow I will go to the lab to have my blood drawn, and then I will visit a parish to ask for a food coupon.
I will go to Twinkle café right away, and after that I will go to the grocery shop where the coupon is assigned and buy some food and hygiene products.

On Wednesday, my care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will wash the dishes.
I might go visit a museum or two.

On Thursday, I will go visit two museums that I usually have planned to visit on Thursdays; the museum of natural science and a children’s museum. If the youth group at the local church is still open, I will go visit it.

On Friday, I will receive money. The first thing is to order a face muscle toner & trainer from an online shop; if it isn’t in discount anymore by then, I won’t order it. Instead, I will order some useful stuff from Etsy; a tube squeezer, a clothes brush, and a cute picture to tape on my wall.
It will be also my best friend Suavecita’s name- day, so I will take her to the café where Eleclya works and buy her whatever coffee she wants.
As for the rest of the money, I will buy food and hygiene products and go to the dressmaker to pay them for the job and bring them another two dresses to be mended.
In the evening, I will go to the sauna.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework; scrub the toilet bowl and take out the recycling. I might also visit a museum and go bicycling in the neighborhood.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. If it doesn’t rain, I will ride my bicycle there and back.
My parents will be home from their trip to Greece, and my dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will also call my granny.
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Last night I went to bed after taking a depression shower.

I had a dream where I became a Buddhist nun, celebrated New Year with Mirette, and pretended to be Mary Poppins in the same town where my first therapist’s office was.

I woke up about at seven, fell back asleep and woke up again at ten o’clock, and then I fell back asleep and woke up at noon. I felt surprised that I had managed to sleep so late, but then again, I usually get up at that time.

I took my morning medicine, got dressed, put Miniderm lotion on my face, and this time I didn’t drink coffee because I was out of sugar. I didn’t mind, I am not as badly addicted as I used to be.

I called my mother and asked if I can come see her, she said yes. I left and took a bus to my parents’ home.
Once there, mom answered the door. She gave me the weekly allowance and made coffee. I ate goat cheese, buttered rye bread, and green grapes.

I walked to the shopping mall and went to the newsagent to recharge my travel card and buy a bar of chocolate.

I took a train to downtown and went to Twinkle café.
There were only me and another counselor whom I didn’t remember, some people also visited and left earlier.

I felt pretty sick after drinking plenty of cocoa. I had to take three long dumps.

Later that day I left and took a tram to another part of the town, and then a subway to east. I went to a theater to see a theater play about school bullying.
I was about an hour too early, so I went to a nearby bar to enjoy a bag of crisps before I went to the theater.

The play was held in a small room in an abandoned factory that had been converted into some sort of a culture center.
We were asked about our experiences with school bullying, and the actors improvised short skits based on it.

After the play, I took a subway to the town center.
I took a bus back home, once there I took the stuff out of my storage room and brought them upstairs to my apartment, it only took me two trips but it also triggered my delusions.

I took my evening medicine, made some supper, and felt strange. I felt like, metaphorically speaking, I was a stone statue with a live electric wire sparkling inside it.
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Last night I had a dream of the survival horror games Silent Hill and Silent Hill 2. I also dreamed of many other things and woke up to the horridly self- conscious feeling that I am not doing enough to make my dreams come true. How can I afford traveling if I won’t be able to get a job?

I got up about at ten o’clock in the morning. I took my morning medicine and drank coffee.
I washed my hair and put on a hair mask. I put Miniderm on my skin and deodorant into my armpits.
I haven’t brushed my teeth for a while, and I can’t because I don’t want to transfer my flu bugs into my new pristine toothbrush.

My care worker came for the weekly appointment. I managed to wash all the dirty dishes, even if I still had the flu and I was disturbed by my delusions.

We made a new appointment on next Wednesday at two o’clock in the afternoon.
We left at the same time; I went to the pharmacy to pick up another batch of my anti- depressants, then I went to the library to return two DVDs. I also told the librarian that one of the DVDs was scratched.

Then I traveled to Girls’ House, they were celebrating the beginning of summer and that the House was going to be closed for said summer, so it was kind of a see you again- type of party.
One pretty girl played the ukulele and sang a beautiful song she had written all by herself. There were party treats too, watermelon slices and an old- timey Finnish treat made of old bun slices, whipped cream, and fresh berries.

After the party, I traveled back home and went to the pharmacy to pick up my pain killers and also six pump- action bottles of Miniderm, the basic lotion I use for my itchy skin.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine, and went to bed feeling alright.

Tomorrow I will go visit my mother, she will give me the weekly allowance. I will go to Twinkle café, after that I will go see a theater play.

On Wednesday, Mirette will move into another apartment. I promised to store some of her biggest belongings,
In the afternoon, I will go to a hang- out place for mentally ill people, there will be a hobby group. In the evening, I will go to the town center, there will be a sing- along. We will sing a well- known hymn which is usually sung at the beginning of summer.

Thursday is Ascension Day, which is a bank holiday in my home country. I will go visit my parents.

On Friday, I will go to another hang- out place for the mentally ill. I will also receive money, so I need to recharge my travel card, pay the dressmaker for mending my clothes and also bring them two other articles of clothing to be mended.
I will also pay the monthly gym membership fee and renew my Spotify Premium and Microsoft Word subscriptions.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework.

On Sunday, if I have been healed from flu by then, I will shave my armpits and chin hairs and put on a face mask.
I will go to a free concert with Mirette, and then I will go see my parents. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will also call my granny.
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My plans for Monday, May 27th - Sunday, June 2nd

Monday, May 27th:
The first thing to do in the morning is to wash my hair.
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment, this time I will try to at least wash the dishes because they have been sitting around for too long.
I will go to Girls’ House, there will be one last party because the house will be closed for summer.
After that, I will go visit the library and return a DVD that has been scratched, and then I will go to the pharmacy to pick up a refill of my anti- depressants.

Tuesday, May 28th:
I will go visit my mother so she can give me the weekly allowance.
After that I will go to Twinkle café.
In the evening, I will go see a theater play about school bullying.

Wednesday, May 29th:
I will go to the hobby group in Pearl House.
In the evening, I will go to downtown; there is a celebration for the beginning of summer.

Thursday, May 30th:
It will be Ascension Day, which is a holiday in Finland. I don’t know what to do, I will probably go see my parents.

Friday, May 31st:
I will receive money; the first thing to do is to recharge my travel card until June 20th. I will also pick up my mended clothes from the dressmaker, pay the gym membership and Spotify Premium, and buy all the greeting cards for June.
I will go to Fountain House.

Saturday, June 1st:
I will start doing the weekly housecleaning; replace the towels, scrub the toilet bowl, and take out the recycling.

Sunday, June 2nd:
I will do the weekly beauty remedies; shave my armpits and chin, and put on a face mask.
If it doesn’t rain, I will ride my bicycle to my parents’ home. Once there, my father will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny.
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I have the flu :c

On Thursday morning, I woke up with a sore throat. I guess it was because I had been caught in the rain without a coat when I went to see Eleclya on Wednesday; it’s always the same, I get a little rainwater on my bare skin and immediately get the flu.
On the same evening, I went to see this middle school theater production of Stephen King’s novel Carrie. It was more like a dress rehearsal, but it was still awesome.

On Friday, I received money. I fetched my mended clothes from the dressmaker, and I didn’t buy groceries because I had some left from last week.
In the afternoon, my care worker came for the weekly appointment. Mostly we just talked, because I didn’t want to wash the dishes or iron the laundry now that I was ill with the flu.
In the evening, me and Mirette went thrift store prowlin’; there's a thrift store chain in my home country (like GoodWill in the USA) that has these occasional discounts, for example, on Monday and Tuesday everything costs seven euros at maximum, on Wednesday and Thursday they cost six euros, and on Friday and Saturday, five euros, and on next week's Saturday, they cost only one euro.
We especially visited the ones in proximity to the town center, the ones that have a special vintage department. I bought a stripy long- sleeved shirt, and three dresses.
We went to Burger King to have a little sustenance to keep our spirits up, I bought a halloumi burger and big fries.

On Saturday morning I woke up and had a feeling that I had a full- blown flu. I stayed inside all day, except when I went to the supermarket to buy unsweetened soymilk for my coffee.

Today I felt slightly better. I called my mother and we agreed to meet at the local shopping mall so she could give me my dad’s weekly allowance. Then I went to the newsagent to put a tenner’s worth of charge into my travel card and bought two liters of unsweetened soymilk.
Then I went to the nearest school to vote in the Europarliament election.
Me and Mirette went to the World Village festival in downtown, it’s about nature protection, multiculturalism, democracy, charity, and other awesome stuff that I like. I got a free tote with a cute design, lots of free candy, and a free badge.

I was in a lousy mood because I had the flu, and it kept on raining a lot.

Later that day I headed back home, and went to the shopping mall to buy a pump- action bottle of hand wash gel.

Once back home, I ate some supper and made coffee, and I felt weird; I didn’t feel as depressed and anxious as I usually feel, the delusions bothered me as usually, but I didn’t feel like, freaked out or unhappy, and I didn’t feel like if I drink a cup of coffee after taking my evening medicine, I didn’t believe it was going to deteriorate my mental and physical health.

In the evening, I started feeling anxious and frustrated again, about at when I was supposed to go to bed. I hoped I would feel better tomorrow.

Tomorrow I will wash my hair, it’s in a desperate need of a wash.
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at 12:45 pm, I will wash the dishes.
In the afternoon, I will go to the summer party at Girls’ House.
I also have some errands to do; return a DVD to the library, and swing by the pharmacy to pick up my anti- depressants.
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My nice life

Last night I had a dream where Netflix had added the second season of my favorite sitcom, The Good Place.
In another dream, me and my family went to visit my mother's childhood home which later served as our summer cottage. In the dream, we got to know the new family who had moved in there, and got along pretty well. They had renovated the cottage into a real luxurious mansion.

I woke up early, went to the bathroom to take a pee, and then went back to bed, wondering if I already had to get up.
I got up at noon, took my morning medicine and got dressed. Then my doorbell rang; it was the pest exterminator coming to see if there was a wasp nest in my balcony. He took a look at it and said that there might not be a wasp nest because there were only one or two wasps, so they might be coming from another balcony. He told me to keep an eye on the situation.

I went to see my new own nurse today. On my way to the psychiatric clinic, an elderly lady told me I looked lovely. Another elderly lady kept saying "Blessings from Jesus" to all the passers- by.
Then I remembered that I had forgotten my smartphone at home, so I went there and picked it up.

Once at the psychiatric clinic, I got to know my new nurse.
We had a nice time, we talked about things and made some plans. We decided to have the next appointment on June 19th at one o'clock in the afternoon.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes. I walked to my parents' home, where mom answered the door. She gave me 50 euros and made coffee.
I ate goat cheese and blue cheese and cheese balls, and then it was time to leave.
I walked back to my own home and picked up some gifts I was supposed to give to Eleclya whom I was going to visit today.

I went to the shopping mall and bought new headphones, two nail clippers, and a bottle of Listerine.
I caught a bus to Eleclya's home town, and went to a jewelry shop where I bought an Alice band with a plush unicorn horn and ears and plastic flowers, and a beaded necklace with letters that spell AWESOME, and then I went to see Eleclya.

Once at her home, I realized that I had forgotten my gifts at home, oh well. We shared a hearty laugh, and then we went to the post office so Eleclya could pick up her new orders, and then we went to a supermarket where she bought milk and ice popsicles, I also bought a popsicle for myself.

Once back at Eleclya's home, Odessa came for a visit. We all had a good time together, but later in the evening I had to leave.

I took a bus back to my home town, and went to the supermarket. I bought a spray bottle of dry shampoo. I took some discarded trolleys back to the trolley station.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and used my dry shampoo. It actually worked, my hair is smooth, looks clean, and smells nice.

Tomorrow I will go to the Fountain House to become a full- time member. After that, I will visit Eleclya and give her the gifts.
After that, I will go to my parents' house to see a musical based on Stephen King's novel Carrie.

On Friday, I will receive money. I will fetch the mended clothes from the dressmaker.
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at 2:40 pm. I will iron the laundry and wash the dishes during the appointment.
Me and Mirette will go shopping at the thrift stores, because there will be a sale: all clothes five euros at maximum!

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents and pick up the weekly allowance.
In the afternoon, me and Mirette will go to World Village festival.
In the evening, we will go to movies to see Pokémon Detective Pikachu.
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Cherry blossoms

Last night after I had gone to bed, Elysion called me and asked if she can come for a sleepover because she was visiting the metropolitan area and had no other place to go. I agreed, and made her a bed on the sofa. Mirette was coming for a sleepover too, she was going to a concert with Eleclya and Suavecita.

In the small hours, about at three or four o'clock in the morning, they were both at my home and I went to sleep on the sofa on the balcony. Fortunately the nights are warm now.

In the morning I heard the wasps starting to buzz about, so I went to sleep next to Elysion. I had nice dreams about loving communities.

I got up about at noon, took my morning medicine, got dressed, and did a little bit of this and that before we left.
Me, Elysion, and Mirette went to a newsagent to buy Elysion a train ticket, and then we took a train to downtown. We had a good time, talking and laughing.

Once at the town center, we went to a small grocery shop to buy some sustenance. Mirette noticed that she had forgotten her wallet at my home, so I paid for her snacks.

We hung around for a while, and I felt a bit anxious because I was afraid that some of the junkies and drunkies that hang around in the same place would have come to harass me.

Later Elysion went to see her boyfriend, and me and Mirette traveled eastward and went to a cherry tree park; there was a Japanese- styled happening called Hanami. We ran into Tiana and some of her friends, they shared their picnic with us. I petted dogs and paid compliments to people.

Later that day I left and walked to the subway station. I caught a subway to another town and then a bus back home; I was feeling wanderlust and I wanted to go visit a shopping mall I had never visited before, but it was past closing time.

Once back at my home town, I went to the supermarket and bought a box of pantyliners and a whole garlic, and mailed some greeting cards.

Once back at my home, I started toiling; I washed two loads of laundry and hung them on the drying racks, took out the recycling, hoovered the floor and the sofa- bed and my bed, and then I spent some time for myself; I put on an argan mud face mask, and after rinsing it off, I put toner and eye cream and basic lotion on it. I put on a clean nightie, and went to bed to update my laptop.

Tomorrow I will take a shower, wash my hair, and use the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
As I won't have an appointment with my care worker tomorrow, I will spend the day all myself. I will go visit an art museum and the aforementioned shopping mall, and at some point of the day I have to take the broken electronic appliances to the recycling station. I might take a bus because there's no way I will be able to haul all that stuff with a bicycle.
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Many days

On Monday, my care worker came for the weekly appointment. I managed to iron all the laundry until the windows were steamed up, but I only managed to wash about half of the dishes and that's when I ran out of energy.
In the evening, I went over to Mirette's home for a sleepover because I was supposed to have a dentist's appointment the next day at the municipal dentist right in her neighborhood.

On Tuesday morning, I got up before my smartphone alarm woke me up. I brushed my interdentals, tongue and teeth, and used mouthwash.
During the dentist's appointment, I had two fillings made. I am not afraid of dentists, but it still hurt a bit. Nonetheless, I have nice teeth now, and I have also stopped gnashing my teeth.
After the appointment, I went back home to take a power nap and then I went to Twinkle cafe. In the evening, I went to see my mother who gave me 20 euros. I bought all this month's greeting cards.

On Wednesday, I received money. I used my discount coupon and bought two packets of ink pen refills from the stationery shop, one purple and one green. I also bought some dental care products from the supermarket.
I went to the Weird hobby group at Pearl House, where we celebrated Christmas (yes). We had gingerbread biscuits and mulled wine and sang songs and talked about our favorite Christmas memories, and then I had a cup of coffee and left.
I had to go back to the Pearl House because I forgot my smartphone there, d'oh!
I took a tram to the town center and mailed a few greeting cards. Then I went to a cafe and ate a slice of Sisilian lemon pie, and it didn't erase my sour mood. I was unhappy because I had wasted all the money, and I still had so many things to buy.
I went back home, called my mother, put the clean dishes into my cupboard and took the laundry off the drying racks, folded them and put them into the cupboard.

Tomorrow I will have an orientation day at the Fountain House, and then I will go shopping for a new zipper hoodie with my mother.

On Friday, I will wash my hair during the morning routines so my hair will be clean when I go to the hairdresser to have my bangs shortened and neatened. After that, I will have an appointment with a masseuse; I will have my shoulders and neck massaged.

On Saturday, I will start doing the weekly housework; take out the recycling, scrub the toilet bowl, and take the bed clothes to the balcony to freshen them. In the afternoon I go to a block party. Mirette will come for a sleepover.

On Sunday, I will do the weekly hygiene routine; shave my chin and armpits, and put on a face mask.
Me and Mirette will go to a Hanami- themed block party in a park with lots of blossoming cherry trees.
After that, I will go to my parents' home to collect the weekly allowance. I also have to remember to call my granny. 
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My plans for Monday, May 13th - Sunday, May 19th

Monday, May 13th:
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at 2:40 pm. I will iron the laundry and wash the dishes.
In the evening, I will go to Mirette's home for a sleepover.

Tuesday, May 14th:
I will have an appointment at the dentist near Mirette's home at half past noon. I will have new fillings done on my teeth.
I will go to Twinkle cafe, and then I will go visit my mother who will give me the weekly allowance. I will buy greeting cards with it.

Wednesday, May 15th:
I will go to a hobby group.

Thursday, May 16th:
I will go to the Club House for an orientation day; I was told that I can pick whatever time I want, so I will go there as soon as I have finished my breakfast and other routines.
I will go to the youth group at the church.

Friday, May 17th:
Mallard will come back from Kenya.
I will receive the weekly allowance; I won't spend it until I have had my appointment at the masseuse at three o'clock in the afternoon. I will have my neck and shoulders massaged.
I will buy groceries and some other useful stuff.
In the evening, I will go to the Red Cross youth group.

Saturday, May 18th:
I will do the weekly housework; scrub the bathroom, take out the recycling, and take the bed clothes to the balcony to have them freshened.

Sunday, May 19th:
The first thing to do in the morning is to shave my chin and armpits, and put on a face mask.
I will go visit my parents. If the weather is fine, I will walk there and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny. 
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Why do I feel this way?

Last night when I slept on Mirette's spare bed, I had all kinds of weird dreams.
I was still sleeping when Mirette left. I got up at 11:39 am, and took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day with cocoa.

I packed my stuff and left. I caught a bus back to my home town and went straight back home.
I shaved my chin and armpits, and then I took a shower. I washed my hair and armpits and face, and then I put on an argan mud face mask, rinsed it off after a while, and put on face toner, serum, lotion, and eye cream. I also put anti- atopic lotion on my body, and got dressed into fresher clothes.

I went to see my parents today; I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes I can. I decided to walk to my parents' home town because most of the buses had already gone past and the next bus would arrive in half an hour, no less.

During my walk to my parents' home, the delusions bothered me. Once at my parents' home, I was feeling apathetic and morose. Dad gave me 20 euros.
I ate boiled potatoes and fried salmon and two types of cheese and salad for lunch, and mother had bought blueberry pie for Mother's Day.

Later that day I walked back to my home town. I went to the shopping mall and visited a knick- knack shop to buy a USB cord for recharging my smartphone. I also bought two cans of fresh coconut milk and a bag of sugar.

I mailed two greeting cards for my friends.

I went back home, put the shopping to its rightful places, and washed two loads of laundry. I also hoovered the floor, scrubbed the toilet bowl. and bagged the trash.
I brushed my teeth properly, I should do that more often.

I called my granny and talked with her for a while.

I was feeling manic, speedy, and frustrated, so I took one Ketipinor and one Oxamin to calm myself, but they made me feel even weirder. I felt like I was a huge lump of grey matter.
I wonder what was the reason behind it; I had eaten a full meal a while ago, my period was already over, and nothing bad had happened today.

I went to visit the supermarket, just because I needed to clear my head. I bought a box of oatmeal porridge flakes, and fruit and vegetable juice boxes that work as a supplement for your vegetable and fruit intake.

Once back home, I put everything to their rightful places and made a few sandwiches.

I dealt my pills into both of my Dosetts; which reminds me, I need to buy bigger Dosetts.

In the evening, I changed into my nightie and went to bed without having a wash.

I am increasingly worried about my physical health. I should exercise more often and eat healthily, but I cannot seem to be able to make those wishes come true. I have a lousy appetite and I don't have enough hours in my day to work out.
I don't know how to motivate myself to brush my teeth more often.

I still feel manic and speedy, but I did some stretches and exercises to make myself feel better.
  • Current Mood: anxious anxious
  • Current Music: Hevisaurus - Hevitwisti
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Mirette's party

I came home from movies in the small hours, I was home about at half past midnight.
I took my evening medicine and went to bed.

I got up in the afternoon at half past two o’clock. I had overslept because I had gone to sleep so late.

I took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, got dressed, and drank coffee.

Later that day, I packed my stuff and left. I took a bus to Mirette’s home town, once there I walked the shortest way to her home. I’m glad I got the door code right on the first try.

Once at Mirette’s home, I was the first visitor. Then Berry arrived, and then the rest of the visitors; Jusa, Perry, Eleclya, Suavecita, and Rige.

We had a good time, eating treats and listening to music. I felt sleepy, and I didn’t know why; I took a power nap and started to feel better. I guess it’s the fact that I came home late and the rainy, grey weather making me so sleepy.

By the end of the party, I had warmed up to other people. I stayed in the living room more often than I went to the bedroom to take a nap.

I stayed at Mirette’s home for a sleepover.

Tomorrow I will probably be sleeping when Mirette goes to her granny’s home with her family to celebrate Mother’s Day. Fortunately Mirette trusts me enough to let me stay at her home.
I will go back home and clean myself up properly; shave my chin and armpits, take a shower and wash my hair and body, and put on a face mask.
I will go visit my parents, I will probably walk there and back.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will also call my granny.
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Late night show

When I got up in the morning, I didn't bother with having a wash or eating a decent breakfast; I just took my morning medicine and the first biotin supplement of the day, got dressed and had coffee.

I went to the ATM machine to withdraw cash, and then I went to Arnold's and bought a cold- smoked salmon bagel and an iced coffee.
I took a bus to Mallard's home town. First I went to the supermarket and bought some milk and skin care products; then I went to another shop and bought a bottle of face tonic.
I went to Mallard's home and gave her the milk and also 15 euros for the sushi buffet. I stayed for a while and petted Dipsy, and took the second biotin of the day.

I caught a bus back to my home town, and went to the supermarket to buy coffee and some greeting cards.
I went back home, put my belongings to their rightful places, and then I went out again.

I caught a train to downtown and a subway to another part of the town, where I met Mirette in front of Subway. We went to movies to see Avengers: Endgame.
I bought a double dose of nachos with warm cheese sauce, and Mirette bought sweet popcorns.

The movie was amazing, I am not going to spoil it for you.

After the movie, we went to a supermarket that is open for 24 hours a day. Mirette bought me orange juice because I was terribly thirsty.

I caught a bus to another part of the town, and then I caught a train to my home town.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day. 
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Back home again! ^_^

Last night I had a dream where I was studying in Hogwarts, and realized that I was actually dreaming. I tried to sit up in my bed in order to wake myself up.

I got up in the morning, took my medicine and the first biotin, and then I went back to bed and slept for a full hour, as usually when I go to bed right after taking my morning medicine. I wonder why I never fall asleep right after going to bed when I have taken my evening medicine.

Anyway, I got up later, got dressed, and had breakfast with the other girls. Suavecita took Dipsy for walkies.

Later that day, I packed my stuff and left. I caught a bus back home.
Once at my home, I noticed that I had received one of the Easter cards I had sent to a friend, with a stamp that said "Unable to forward". I had also received a notification that a plastic recycling bin will be constructed at my home yard. I like that, I no longer need to take my plastic trash to the recycling bin near my parents' home!

I put everything to their rightful places, and later the day I left. I took a bus downtown and went to a shopping mall, there was an Europe Day celebration going on. Mostly there were different political parties holding up stands, and I went from stand to stand and asked them questions and grabbed some free candy.

After that, I traveled to another part of the town and that's when my smartphone ran out of battery. Fortunately I met my mother, she was going to take part in the same group as I was.

We walked around the forest, and I was in high spirits. I should go for walks in the nature more often.

After the group, mom bought me a candy floss- flavored ice cream cone with strawberry sauce. Then we took the same train back home.
On the train there was a drunken man acting creepy, and I felt bothered.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and went to bed, still feeling bothered.
The only bad things that happened to me today was my phone running out of batteries, and the creepy man on the train.

Tomorrow I will receive money. I will go shopping, and then I need to visit Eleclya and pay her for the sushi buffet. I will also bring her a few liters of milk to compensate all the milk that I had drank with cocoa when I visited her.
I will also go shopping at the mall next to her home.
In the evening, I will go to movies with Mirette, we will go see Avengers: Endgame.

On Saturday, I will start doing housework.
In the afternoon, I will go to Mirette's house- leaving party, and stay overnight.

On Sunday, I will go back home. I will shave my chin and armpits, and put on a face mask.
I will go visit my parents, and preferably ride my bicycle there and back.
I will call my granny, and my dad will give me the weekly allowance.
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A sleepover at Eleclya's

Last night I had a dream where I was a rebellious teenage girl with long black hair and bangs, and I rode a red Cadillac on the highway next to the shopping mall near Mallard's home, where I was going today. I was laughing like a loon and the police were following me. I told them I was celebrating my graduation from high school, nothing else!
I abandoned the car and went to see a bunch of does who looked like Bambis, brown with white spots, and had kind eyes and antlers that looked like lilies of the valley growing in vines. They were grazing in a small meadow that was surrounded by grey concrete covered in colorful graffiti. In the dreams, it was a bright sunny summer day.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin supplement of the day. I noticed that I had finally got my period, so I squeezed my keeper inside myself and got dressed into a pink Dirndl dress and a grey The Ramones shirt.
I decided that I wouldn't go to the Chocolate Angel Makes You Smile happening at the library in the neighboring town. If there are more happenings like that in the metropolitan area, I will go there.

I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come over a bit earlier, she mumbled and grumbled and yawned and then she said yes.

I packed my stuff; my nightie and my laptop; and caught a bus to Mallard's home. Eleclya was having a smoke on the porch, so she let me in. Dipsy the dog didn't seem to be so afraid of me as he usually is.

Later that day, Suavecita came for a visit as well, she was going to stay overnight. We went to the shopping mall I had had a dream about. We went to a Chinese buffet to eat lunch.
I ate plenty of sushi, and noticed that I prefer the “plain” sushi (the one with avocado, fried egg, and cold- smoked salmon) as opposed to the ones with plenty of condiments and sauces.

We visited a few shops as well, and then we just hung around. Suavecita and Eleclya used the same vending machine and got matching skull- and- crossbones pewter rings, and joked that they had gotten engagement rings-
We went to a hairdresser where Eleclya had a pentagram shape shaved onto the back of her head, and I asked a couple of questions about improving my hair quality. The hairdresser recommended me hair specialist shampoo instead of market shampoo, and told me to put argan oil on my hair tips once a day.

Then we went grocery shopping. I had to carry Eleclya's groceries in one huge bag and I practically felt like my spine was retreating into itself, vertebra by vertebra.

In the evening, I accompanied Khan (an immigrant who lives as a tenant in Mallard’s home, and also studies in high school) to the shopping mall; he wanted to buy cologne and face wash.

Once back at Mallard's house, it smelled like waffles because Eleclya had made some waffles for supper. I had three of them with whipped cream.

In the evening, Eleclya and Suavecita went to the nearby hotel to play Pokémon Go!, there was going to be a "five star raid" or whatevsies, I don't understand anything about that lingo.

I washed my hair with two shampoos; first I tried one that smells like tar, it made my hair smell so bad that I rinsed it off and used one with aloe vera and coconut. It made my hair *fabulous*

In the evening when the other girls came home, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day. Eleclya helped Suavecita dye her roots.

I have eschewed Google, and instead started using Ecosia search engine. For every search, they plant one tree.

I put on the 1970’s robe I use as a nightie, and then I went to bed in Eleclya’s old bedroom; she and Suavecita sleep on Mallard’s double bed. Khan sleeps in Oskar’s old bedroom; Oskar is Mallard’s adoptive son from Columbia, who currently lives in a halfway house.

Tomorrow I will go back home. I will put my sleepover stuff away, and then I will go to downtown to celebrate the Europe Day. After that, I will go to Heart Cape, where me and my mother will take part in the group where we go for a walk in the nearby forest. It's held by the same organization that upkeeps Twinkle cafe.

On Friday, I will receive money. The first thing to buy is groceries, then hygiene products, then greeting cards, and then go shopping at the mall near Mallard's home. I will buy a jewelry set from a clearance sale at a shoe shop.
I will also visit Eleclya, and pay her back for the sushi buffet and also bring her a few cartons of milk.
In the evening, me and Mirette will go to movies in downtown; we will go see the film Avengers: Endgame. I will buy a double dose of nachos with warm cheese sauce.

On Saturday, I will start doing the weekly housework. I will take out the recycling, scrub the toilet bowl, and replace the towels.
I will go to Mirette’s house- leaving party. I will stay for a sleepover.

On Sunday morning, I need to shave my armpits and chin hairs, and put on a face mask.
I will travel to my parents’ home. I will make the weekly phone call to my granny, and my dad will give me the usual twenty euros.
  • Current Mood: jubilant jubilant
  • Current Music: Emo the Musical - You're safe with me
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Early in the morning

Last night I went to bed in time. I managed to feel relaxed and fell asleep just fine, which is a rare occasion for me; I usually toss and turn with worry and anxiety.
I have found myself thinking that I am becoming addicted to my anti- anxiety pills, I might take a break from taking them every evening.

I woke up about at half past one o’clock in the morning and didn’t get any sleep after that. I got up to take my morning medicine and the first biotin and made coffee, turned on my computer, and did a little bit of this and that.

I shaved my armpits and my chin hairs and put on the last of the Rosy Cheeks fresh face mask that I got as a gift from Girls’ House. I also put Miniderm on my skin and deodorant into my armpits. I need to buy another face mask soon, and take the old mask- stuff jar to Lush for recycling.

After the mask had dried, I rinsed it off. I dabbed the last drops of my toner on my face, and then I put on serum, lotion, and eye cream.
I brushed my teeth and got dressed.

I made my bed and cooked a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast. At some point, I need to buy more chia seeds.
I did some simple stretches to release the tension in my body.

Soon I started to feel a bit sleepy, so I went back to bed to sleep off the sleep debt. I had a weird feeling; I somehow realized I was lying down horizontally, I had never realized it as well as before.
I slept till ten o’clock in the morning and had a dream about the movie Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, especially the dolphin scene: “So long, so long, and thanks for all the fish!”. I also had a dream where I rollerbladed naked through an old mansion.
In another dream, I was walking at the bus station in my parents’ home town, and soon I became aware of my surroundings and then I woke up.

I got up, washed a load of laundry, took the second biotin supplement of the day, and made pasta-in-a-bag for lunch.

I took some of my old and new diaries to the downstairs storage room, and took my leggings to the drying room so they would dry faster; I was out of clean leggings and it was cold outside.

I decided to keep the drying racks on the balcony, so my laundry would smell fresh.

Later that day I left and took the household waste to recycling. I got aboard a train, traveled to my parents’ home town, and took the plastic waste to recycling.

I took a bus to downtown and went to two museums.
After that I took a bus back to my parents’ home town, and went to see my parents.
My mom answered the door. My dad gave me 20 euros, and I had a nice talk with my brother.

I had coffee, and then I walked to the bus station and caught a bus to my home town. I went to the supermarket and bought a new pair of gloves, a tube of ecological toothpaste, and a Mother’s Day card for my granny.

Once back home, I washed more laundry. I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come for a sleepover next Wednesday, and also made the weekly phone call to my granny.

In the evening, I started to feel a bit weird. I took my evening medicine and the last biotin supplement of the day and went to bed even if I had plenty of stuff to do.
I took a depression shower and went back to bed.

Tomorrow I need to wash my hair; I won’t take a full shower, just wash and condition my hair. I won’t use the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment for a while because I am out of facial cleaner, toner, and peeling cream.
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will iron the laundry and wash the dishes.
After that, I will go visit an art museum, and then I will go to Girls’ House and then to the Monday Evening group.
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Winter is coming, again

There was a weather forecast that there will be a back winter in most of the parts of Finland, but not necessarily in the South where I live.
I had a dream where the landscape outside my balcony had turned into muddy fields covered by snow. In another dream I heard a truck driving down the road where I live, and I thought it was a snowplow.
I had very intensive dreams. In one of them, I told my mother I won’t be able to live to see my future if we won’t travel to Lapland. I dreamed of all of space and time, and woke up in the safety of my bed.

I had slept very late and had such intensive dreams that made my reality a bit weird.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, and then I had coffee and a few sandwiches.

I was feeling a bit unhappy and unmotivated towards doing anything. I strongly guess it’s the cold and rainy weather and the fact that there was a holiday in the middle of the week, it has given me a bit of jet- lag.

I received money today. I completely forgot that I was supposed to recharge my travel card.
I went to the shopping mall. Sheesh, it was cold outside!
All the ATM machines were out of cash, so I decided to pay with my debit card.

I went to the supermarket and bought groceries. I also bought two Mother’s Day cards; one for my mother, and one for my granny.
On the cashier line, I helped this elderly lady pack her groceries.
I went to the stationery shop and bought twenty postage stamps; ten for mail to be delivered inside Finland, and another ten for outside Finland.

I went back home, put all my belongings to their rightful places, and then I decided to go visit an art museum.

I took a bus, because I didn’t feel like taking a train. Once at the last stop, I decided to take the same bus back home; I didn’t feel like going to the museum after all. Somehow I had already used all my spoons.

I traveled back home, and went to the shopping mall to buy two mint chocolate truffle bars.
Once back home, I fixed myself some dinner, took a shower and brushed my teeth. I immediately felt better, but then it was time to go to bed.

I took my evening medicine, and I also had to take one anti- anxiety pill and one extra Ketipinor because I was feeling manic and speedy.

I woke up early this morning after having even more intensive dreams. Right after I had woken up, my mother called me and asked if I was still in bed. I lied and told her that I was having my morning coffee; we agreed to meet at the local shopping mall.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, got dressed, and left.
Sheesh, it was still cold outside!

I took a train to my parents’ home town, where I met my mother at the convenience store. I needed to spell the situation out three times before she finally agreed to pay for the recharging of my travel card.

After she had finally recharged it, I took a train back home and went right to bed.
After getting up, I made coffee, replaced the towels with fresh ones, took the bedding to the balcony, and scrubbed the toilet bowl.

I went to see Eleclya today, she is currently living at her adoptive mother’s home because she went aboard for a month, and needs someone to take care of Dipsy the dog. Her bunny rabbit Toast is currently at Berry’s home.

I took a bus to her home, and once there, Dipsy barked madly at me and then scurried away when I tried to pet him.
We had coffee, cocoa, and candy. Later Mirette and Odessa came for a visit as well.

I left early, and took a bus and then a train and then a subway and went to an art museum. I had a good time there.
I went to the café and ordered a glass of water, so I could take my second biotin supplement.

I took a subway and then a bus back home because I wanted to take a longer way; I needed to be alone with my thoughts and also knit a lot.

Once back at my home town, I went to the supermarket and looked for new gloves.

Once back at home, I changed from my day clothes into a bathrobe, washed a load of laundry, and in the evening I took my evening medicine and the last biotin supplement of the day.

I wondered if I could leave my drying racks with the laundry hung on it on the balcony, would it freeze during the night? I decided not to take a useless risk, and instead brought the drying rack inside.
I washed another load of laundry, had some supper, and brought my bedding inside from the balcony.

In the evening when I changed from bathrobe to nightie, I managed to put Miniderm on my skin.

Tomorrow the first thing to do is to shave my chin and armpits, and then put on a face mask.
I will go visit my parents and take the plastic waste to recycling.
Once at my parents’ home, I will call my granny.
My dad will give me the weekly allowance, I will buy a new pair of gloves with it.
After that, I will go to two museums in downtown. Once back home, I will finish doing the housework.
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From Thursday to Friday

During the night between Wednesday and Thursday, Mirette came for a sleepover, she had been in a concert nearby.

I got up at noon, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day. I tried to wash my hair with dry shampoo, but it didn’t work so I washed my hair with real shampoo. I also washed my face and put lotion on my skin and deodorant into my armpits and got dressed and put on jewelry.
And then I was done with my morning routines.

Later that day we both left at the same time. I went to see my parents because it was a holiday.
My dad answered the door, my brother was also home, and my mom was visiting downtown.

I had coffee and orange juice and ate whatever I could find from the kitchen. I took the second biotin of the day.

Later that day my mother came home, and she was angry at me because I kept on talking to her. I wish she would have realized that I was only trying to socialize, it was not my intention to make her angry.

In the evening I went back home, took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day, and went to bed.

Last night I had very intense dreams; in one of them I went to the summer cottage with my family, and this time I was actually convinced that I had made it there. I was mighty disappointed when I woke up.
I don’t understand why I keep on having so many dreams about the summer cottage.
In another dream, I went geocaching. I also had dreams of Lapland and the town where the psychiatric hospital was, the one where I was treated in 2006 - 2007, and in another dream I was looking for four- leaf clovers with my childhood friend whom I haven’t met since we moved away.

I woke up early and continued sleeping; about at eleven o’clock, I started thinking that I may have to get up soon-ish. I got up and logged in to my online bank account and noticed that I had received the usual weekly allowance.
I took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, got dressed, and put lotion on my face, and put on some jewelry.

I paid my gym membership fee and Spotify Premium subscription: even if my account statement said it hasn’t been paid, my Spotify still worked.

I went to an ATM machine and withdrew cash, and then I went to the nearest newsagent to recharge my travel card so I can travel in the metropolitan area until June 20th.
I traveled to Eleclya’s hometown and went to Fountain House. I learned that they were going on an outing, so I left.

I went to the café where Eleclya works and ordered an iced mint chocolate espresso. Eleclya looked funny now that she has taken all her facial piercings off; well, not exactly funny, she looked like an ordinary person, but it has been a while since I saw her without her piercing.

I took a bus to downtown simply because I wanted to travel a long way to celebrate the fact that I got my traveling privileges back.

I went to a supermarket, and bought a box of tissues, a box of toilet paper, a can of soy milk, a bag of sugar, and a box of coffee grounds.

I took a train back home.
Once there, I put my shopping to their rightful places, took the second biotin supplement of the day, and made coffee.

I washed a load of laundry.

Later that day, Mirette came for a visit and brought some of her food and other stuff.

I went to the sauna, but I couldn’t enjoy it because I was bothered by my delusions. I might be getting my period soon, my delusions worsening is a certain sign that I am going to have PMS.

Once back home, I put lotion on my skin and got dressed into a nightie.

I feel weird. Strung up, wired up, nervous, and my throat is dry no matter how much water I drink.

I watched the movies The Ring, The Silence, and a bit of the TV show The Mist on Netflix.
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Sleepovers make the rockin' world go round

Me and Mirette had a sleepover at my home last night.

I woke up pretty early, but I slept late.
I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day, put Miniderm lotion on my skin, got dressed, and had breakfast.

Later that day me and Mirette left and went downtown to celebrate the first of May.
We walked around for a while, and then went to a free concert.

After that, I went aboard a train and called my mother to ask her if I can come over. She said she was in the same train.
We got off at my home town and caught a bus to my parents' home.

I have started to resent my father after my mom told me that he yells about everything; it's been a while since he did that in my presence.

Anyway, I had salmon and potatoes and feta cheese for dinner, and some coffee as well. Then I caught a bus back to my home town, and went back to my own home. I mailed three name- day cards.

I was feeling a bit bored, so I decided to arrange and re- arrange my dirty dishes on the counter and sort out the cutlery; then I mopped the bathroom floor, and then I went to take out the recycling.

I went to the shopping mall to hang out, and then I went back home. I knitted and watched Netflix for a little bit.

I took my evening medicine and the third biotin of the day, and soon I'm off to sleep.

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A nice day!

I woke up early in the morning two times to the need to pee.
I didn’t bother getting up until just before eleven o’clock in the morning, when my smartphone alarm was supposed to ring. it’s always the same; even if I wake up early, I won’t be able to get up until my alarm clock rings.

I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement and made coffee.

I took a shower, washed and conditioned my hair, did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment, put on skin cream and deodorant, got dressed, and put on a necklace.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes. I was already out of my apartment, out of the hallway, on the street when I realized I had forgotten to bring the detachable parts of my fridge that my mother was supposed to wash in the dishwasher. I went back home, took them out of the fridge and put them into a shopping bag, and still made it to the bus.

Once at my parents’ home, mom washed the parts in the dishwasher, gave me 40 euros, and made coffee.

I walked to the shopping mall and went to the convenience store to recharge my travel card.
I took a train to Stick City and went to the Club House. The orientation was actually nice enough, and we had a May Day party at the same time.
I learned that if you become a member of the Club House, you can get discount from the local beautician. That may be the only reason I am going to join it.

After that, I took a train to downtown and went to Girls’ House for the May Day party. Once there, I had a good time and talked with the others and drank coffee.

After the party, I traveled back to my parents’ home to pick up the fridge parts that had been washed, and also pick up my scarf that I had forgotten there.
I had to leave early so that my dad wouldn’t start yelling at me.

I took a bus back to my home town and went to the supermarket to buy name- day cards and postage stamps.

Once back home, I started working on the cards.
In the evening, I took my medicine and drank too much coffee.

I felt weird. I got the shakes and felt like I am going to start screaming uncontrollably at any moment. I took one anti- anxiety pill and a depression shower, and then I went to bed.

Mirette came home about at midnight, she had been at a barbeque party with Rige.