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My plans for Monday, January 20th - Sunday, January 26th

Monday, January 20th:
Mirette will move into her own apartment today.
I will have an appointment at the parish at 1:15.
After that, I will go see my mother; she will give me the monthly allowance. I will buy 31 Valentine's day cards.

Tuesday, January 21st:
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at quarter past noon. I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
I will go to Twinkle cafe, and then I will go see my mother; she will give me the weekly allowance.

Wednesday, January 22nd:
I will go to a library downtown, there will be a knitting group.

Thursday, January 23rd:
I will go to an open mic happening in a club.

Friday, January 24th:
Me and Mirette will go downtown to celebrate the Chinese new year.
After that, I will go to the Red Cross youth group.
I will receive money, so I will buy Valentine's day cards.

Saturday, January 25th:
I will do the weekly housework, and perhaps go to a museum.

Sunday, January 26th:
I will visit the library before walking to my parents' home. I will call my granny, and my dad will give me the weekly allowance. 
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A visit to the hospital and a free concert

Me and Mirette were still asleep when Suavecito called Mirette and wondered where the hell we were. We both took it as a sign to get up. I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, drank a cup of cocoa, and put on my new dress.

We missed the train, so we took the next one to the town where Suavecito usually picks us up. He was waiting in his car in front of the convenience store, and Mara was there as well. Eleclya couldn't come because she had some other business to attend to.

Suavecito drove us to a thrift store, I waited in the car. They took about an hour and arrived with shopping bags full of stuff. Suavecito drove us to a supermarket, I waited in the car once again. They bought food and drinks.

Suavecito drove us to the hospital where Rige is being treated. We had coffee, exchanged gifts and cards, and then we went to the hobby room.

After a while, the visiting hours were over and we had to leave. Suavecito drove us to my home, and him and Mara came over for coffee and chitchat.
I scrubbed the bathroom wash basin and the kitchen stove, and re- arranged the dirty dishes in neat piles. I also washed my hair and blow- dried it.

Later that day we all left at the same time; Suavecito drove his car back to his home, and me, Mirette, and Mara took a train downtown. Me and Mirette continued by taking a subway to Volcano City where Mirette picked up her passport at her father's apartment, and then we took a subway to Fish Town where we went to a bar where a free concert was about to begin; we left our winter gear and backpacks but took our smartphones, diaries, and writing utensils along.

I drank water from a beer glass, and got a stomach ache.

After our favorite band, The Shrieks, had played the concert, we both went to hug the singer who apologized for being sweaty, and then we left.

We took a bus and then another bus back to my hometown, and went to a diner where Mirette ordered sweet potato fries. We sat into a booth and fiddled with our smartphones, and this random old dude with a lazy eye started flirting with us. Yuck! Fortunately our fries were ready, and we scooted back home.

Once there, I took my evening medicine with cocoa, and then I emptied my keeper.
I ate my part of the fries, and then I went to bed fully clothed because I didn't feel like changing into a nightie; especially when I would put these same clothes back on tomorrow morning, that is, if I was even awake in the morning. This month I have fallen asleep at the small hours and gotten up late in the afternoon.

Tomorrow I will walk to my parents' home and back. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny. As for the money, I need to buy oat milk.
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I stayed awake all night because, well, I simply didn’t feel like sleeping. I knew I had to sleep, but I simply wasn’t interested in it.
Of course, I could have turned off the lights, gone to bed, pulled the covers up to my chin, lied my head on the pillow, cuddled with my teddy bear, and thought about all the things that the Ramones used to sing about, and soon I would have fallen fast asleep.

Anyway, in the morning I took my medicine and biotin supplement, put lotion on my skin, got dressed, and brushed my teeth.

I spent the morning watching video clips of Stephen King’s Carrie movies and musical.

Later that day, I went to parish and got a coupon for food. Then I went to the pharmacy and got a new batch of prescribed medicine, and then I went to the psychiatric center to have my anti- psychotic medicine prescription renewed; I could have renewed it online, but as it is a special permission prescription, it has to be renewed in paper form. Then I went to the grocery shop and bought healthy food.

Once back home, I made cocoa and ate a little snack, and soon I started feeling sick and threw up.

I took a nap to sleep off all the sleep debt. When I woke up, I had a weird sort of pressure- like painful feeling in my head. I watched a bit of Keeping up Appearances, and then I took another nap.

I had missed the knitting group, but now I had enough spoons to go to the youth group at the church.

Once there, I ate plenty of treats; popcorn, licorice, cashew nuts, chili nuts, and drank lime- strawberry juice. I took part in the praying circle; we watched a YouTube video about a Finnish saint who died as a martyr, we sang hymns, discussed the importance of good deeds, hugged and blessed each other.

After the group, I took some discarded trolleys to the supermarket, and looked for Valentine’s day cards. I have already picked the design from the cards that have their postage fees paid by a charitable company.

I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils and put cream on my face. I put on a fresh nightie and went to bed.

My nose ring smells weird. I kind of like it.

I have a weird pain in my upper arms, the same kind of pain you get after receiving a vaccination.

I have been thinking of my hair curled and dyed strawberry blonde this year.
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Oh doctor, where art thou?

Last night I had a dream where I died of leukemia when I was a toddler; I spent my last night sleeping between my parents on their bed and come morning I was dead.
In another dream, I was the age I am now, and I was carrying my dead toddler form on my arms. I was wearing a pink frilly dress and a straw hat and white lace gloves, and I was looking for a resting place where I could bury myself.

In another dream, an attention- starved kitty cat hung onto me with her nails, and I tried to shake her off because I am allergic to cats.

I woke up early and continued sleeping. I slept past the writing group and the hobby group and got up at half past three o’clock in the afternoon. I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, got dressed, and put some cream on my face.

I took a train and then a bus downtown and went to Twinkle café. There was Mirette, Mella, Raija, Angie and her dog.
I ate cookies and sandwiches and drank cocoa.

Later that day I walked to the train station and took a train to my parents’ hometown. I went walkabout in the neighborhood where I grew up, wondering how modern the place has become. I walked around so much because I should exercise more often.

I went to see my parents. My mother answered the door, and my father was also home. Mom gave me the weekly allowance.
I ate a tomato and drank coffee and orange juice.

Later that day I caught a bus back home and went to an ATM machine to deposit the allowance to my bank account so I could pay for my Netflix subscription.

I went back home, took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils.

My mood started getting worse; I started punching myself and arguing with the voices to the point where I was screaming my head off. I tried calling the national crisis helpline, but no one answered. I called the health service, and I was told I called the wrong one because this was the one from downtown instead of the one in my hometown. I called the social worker helpline, and I was told to call an ambulance.

I called an ambulance. It took about an hour and half to arrive, they asked some questions, and took me to the hospital. I talked with a nurse, and then I was supposed to sit in the waiting room until the doctor was supposed to interview me.

There was a drunken man who had slit his wrists. I gave him his jacket when he accidentally left it on the couch and talked to his girlfriend about manicures.

My mood started getting better and calmer now that I had taken an Oxamin tablet, and soon the delusions stopped bothering me. Come morning, I took a bus back home and I was happy that today I would be awake early.

Once back home, I had a horrid need to pee. I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, made oatmeal porridge for breakfast, and put basic lotion on my body.
I brushed my teeth and did the skincare routine. I got dressed into clean clothes.
I went downstairs to the drying room and fetched my laundry.

I took a long nap to sleep off my sleep debt. I got up at five o’clock in the evening, and it took me a while of coaxing and convincing to get up.

I had missed plenty of errands I was supposed to run today; I was supposed to mail a few greeting cards, renew a prescription, visit the library, recharge my travel card, and go to the knitting group in a library.

I had received money today. I went to the shopping mall and recharged my travel card and used the rest of the money to buy treats. Now I regret it, I didn’t even feel like eating those treats so why did I buy them?

I went back home and made coffee. I watched Keeping up Appearances on DailyMotion, The Good Place and Riverdale on Netflix, and Carrie: The Musical on YouTube.

In the evening I started having the furious anxiety again; I took two Oxamin tablets, and now I am waiting for them to affect me. I felt like I was back in junior high, and all my classmates were making fun of me. I don’t understand why, but then again, my mental troubles and bad memories are something I cannot control.

Now I feel fine, but I also feel like I should already be asleep. But I cannot sleep because I don’t feel like sleeping.

Once it is a proper time to get up, I will take a shower and wash my hair, mail a few greeting cards, visit the library for the charitable purposes and for the knitting group, visit the psychiatric center to renew my anti- psychotic medicine prescription, visit the pharmacy to pick up more medicine, and then I will go to the youth group at the local church. I might also go visit a couple of museums.

On Friday, I will receive the weekly allowance. I will buy another batch of biotin supplement from the health shop, second- hand duvet covers from a thrift store, clothes from a shop that will be closing soon, and in the evening, I will go to movies to see the musical Cats.

On Saturday, me and my friends will go see another friend in the hospital where I went today, and in the evening, we will go to a free concert; one of our favorite bands, The Shrieks, will be playing there.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. I will go to the library, and then I will walk to my parents’ home and back. My father will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny.
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The rise of Skywalker means the fall of Palpatine

On Friday, me and Mirette went to movies to see the new Star Wars. I liked it very much.
Once back home, I was strangely happy. I made some spaghetti and took a hot shower, and enjoyed it.

On Saturday, I slept till half past five o'clock in the evening, and went to see my mother.

Last night I had a dream where I was at the summer cottage with my family. I was overjoyed because I realized that I have finally made it to the place I have dreamed of, my own personal Heaven; then I woke up and realized it had been a dream.

I got up, I had slept fully clothed once again. I took my morning medicine, drank the first coffee, and did the skincare routine.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said I can. I took a bus to my parents' home, my mother answered the door. My brother was also home, and my father went to the gym. He gave me the weekly allowance.

I ate dinner; mashed potatoes, salmon, and salad with feta cheese. I also ate chocolate confections, apricots, and cherry tomatoes, and drank orange juice, coffee, and cocoa.

I did stretches, watched Keeping up Appearances, and talked with my mother.

Later thay day I left and caught a bus back to my hometown. I went to the shopping mall and wondered what I should buy, but I didn't feel like buying anything frivolous so I just bought a juice box to break the money and went back home.

I washed half of the dirty dishes, washed a load of laundry, and took the recycling outside.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment at quarter past noon, I hope I will already be awake before that.
I will go to the gym, library, and the post office. 
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A nice day :D

Last night I stayed awake late into the night / early to the morning, binge- watching Insatiable on Netflix and drinking coffee.
I took my morning medicine and biotin supplements at half past four o'clock in the morning and went to bed.

I was still asleep when Mirette got up, she went to a meeting in downtown. I got up about at noon, put on deodorant, got dressed, and went back to bed.

My mother texted me and told me to meet her under the station bridge. Once there, she gave me some extra money. I went to a knick- knack shop and bought two USB cables.

Once back home, Mirette was there. I confessed to her that I had accidentally broken her USB cable, and have her the other one. She was cool about it, and forgave me.

We traveled to Eleclya's home, I gave her the Alice in Wonderland necklace that I had ordered for her. She neatened my bangs (and couldn't stop laughing).

Later that day we left at the same time; me and Mirette traveled downtown and went to a salad bar. Then we went to the local library, there was a happening where a DJ played 1960's girl group music.

After the happening, Mirette stayed in the library and read books, I traveled back to my hometown and went to the youth group. I ate popcorn, candy, and grapes, and drank cocoa. I got a free bag with cosmetic products inside.

I went to the library, and then I went to the supermarket and bought two greeting cards and two postage stamps for them.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils. I worked on the greeting cards.

Tomorrow I will receive the weekly allowance. I will pay a bill, and pay Mirette a tenner for buying me food. In the evening, we will go to movies to see the new Star Wars.

On Saturday, I will go to the first scout meeting. After that, I will do the weekly housework; tidy up the bathroom, change the towels, and take out the recycling. I will also go visit a museum.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. My father will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny. 
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A regular day

Last night I had a dream where me and some other people died and ended up in a kind of a purgatory that looked like the town of Silent Hill. We boarded a bus and went looking for an entrance to Heaven.

In another dream I went shopping with my mother to a shopping mall that looked like a helicarrier in a harbour. I went looking for doormats and snowglobes.

I woke up when my doorbell rang. I went to open the door, it was my care worker. I was still sleepy and asked her if she had visited yesterday, and then my head cleared and I let her in.

I went to the bathroom to take a pee, and wondered how much pee you can fit into one medium- sized person's bladder. Then I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, and made the first coffee of the morning.
We had a nice talk, and made a new appointment on next week's Monday at 12:15 pm.

After she left, I changed from my nightie into regular clothes and put assorted creams on my face.

I went to the library and returned a stack of books and used a laptop and a tablet for the daily donations on Greater Good.
I also took a bag of old clothes and other stuff to a charity shop container.

I traveled downtown and went to the parish for a cup of coffee and another of cocoa. Then I traveled back home and fetched the laundry from the downstairs drying room.

Once back home, I brushed my teeth, and me and Mirette reserved our tickets for the movie we are going to see on Friday.

We traveled to downtown and went to a convenience store. Mirette bought us both a cup of cocoa, and then we went to the strobe light art festival.

After that, we traveled back to my hometown. I called my mother and asked her if she can fork over 20 euros, because I have some extra expenses this week. She said it's okay, and we agreed to meet tomorrw.

Once at my hometown, we went to the supermarket. We bought mozzarella sticks, strawberry- banana oat milk smoothies and pear- vanilla smoothies, Shrovetide buns, chocolate- coconut puddings, ice tea, and mozzarella- tomato sandwiches. I agreed to pay back my own expenses on Friday.

We went back to my own home and had a wonderful feast. I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils, put moisturiser on my face, and put on a clean nightie.

Tomorrow I will go to the parish to ask for a gift coupon so I can buy groceries; if I receive it, I will go to the supermarket to buy food and other stuff. Once back home, I will wash all the dirty laundry, and call the hairdresser to have my appointment cancelled, then call my financial worker to talk about my finances.
In the afternoon, I will see my mother under the station bridge, she will give me some extra money. I will buy anti- eczema cream and a USB cable.
I will go visit Eleclya because I asked her to shorten my bangs. I will also give her the necklace I ordered for her.
In the evening, me and Mirette will go to a library downtown; there is a happening where a DJ plays 1960's girl group music. After that, I will go to the church for the youth group.

On Friday, I will receive money. I will pay a bill, pay Mirette back for the things she bought me, and in the evening we will go to movies to see Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker.

On Saturday, I will go to the first scout meeting. Once back home, I will change the towels, take out the recycling, and tidy up the bathroom.
In the afternoon, me and Mirette will go to a hospital to see a friend who's being treater there.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. My father will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny. I will deposit the money and pay a commission to Candy. 
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Thrift store prowling

Last night I went to sleep a little after midnight. I was fully clothed, because I knew I had to get up early to go see my mother.
I woke up at half past six in the morning after having a dream of being friends with a human- like hamster; he walked on his hind legs, wore clothes, and spoke to me, and stored stuff in his cheek pouches.

I made some coffee and took my morning medicine. Then I fell back asleep.
I woke up again at half past eleven o'clock in the morning when my mother called me, and she asked me if I would be able to see her this morning so she can give me the weekly allowance. We agreed to meet her in half an hour.

I fell back asleep, and had a dream where I was playing Pokémon: RED on my laptop. In another dream, I caused a huge explosion of flower petals downtown, and in another dream, me and my mother and my brother went to a thrift store to look for new duvet covers.

I woke up when my mother called me again and told me that she is heading to the station bridge. I got up begrudgingly, threw on my winter gear, and went to wait for my mother under the station bridge.

She arrived later, gave me the weekly allowance, complained about my sleepy demeanor and my greasy hair, which bewildered me because I had washed my hair yesterday.

I went back home, slept a bit more, got up later, and changed my clothes and put on some jewelry.

We left at the same time and took a train downtown and then a bus to Twinkle cafe.

Mella was happy to see us, and so was Raija. I gave the latter a late Christmas card.
We ate treats and drank cocoa and coffee.

Later that day we left and took a tram to another part of the town, and went to a thrift store. I bought a vest and a dress, then we took a subway to another part of the town and went to another thrift store. I bought a dress and a skirt.
Then we walked to another thrift store, but I didn't find anything special.

I also paid Mirette back for buying me a cup of cocoa yesterday evening.

We took a tram to downtown and then a train to my hometown.

Once at my home, I took my evening medicine with strawberry juice and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils.

I did a little bit of this and that; recharged my smartphone; cut my fringe shorter; watched Keeping up Appearances; cut the price tags off my new clothes and put the tags into recycling; and turned the clothes inside out and put them into the laundry basket

I made two little packages in envelopes; one is for Elysion who forgot her earrings at my home, and also a necklace that was her birthday and Christmas present. And another for Sadie, her Christmas gift arrived from the online shop a bit late and I won't get to send it to her until now.

At half past nine o'clock in the evening, I got an anxiety bout.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment at 1:15 pm. I will wash the dishes, after the appointment I will go to the library to return some books, and then fetch the laundry from the downstairs drying room.
In the evening, me and Mirette will go to the strobe light art festival again.

On Thursday, me and Mirette will go to a happening in a library downtown, there is a DJ playing 1960's girl group music.
In the evening, I will go to the year's first youth group at the church.

On Friday, I will pay a commission to Candy; pay a bill; and in the evening, I will go to movies with Mirette to see Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker.

On Saturday, I will go to the first scout meeting. I will also do the housework again; I will tidy up the bathroom, replace the towels, and take out the recycling.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. I will call my granny, and my dad will give me the weekly allowance.
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Strobe light art festival

Last night I had a dream where me and my parents traveled to Greece. In another dream, I accompanied Murphy Pendleton in Silent Hill.

Mirette came home about at three o'clock in the morning, she had been visiting Perry. I would love to visit him as well, except that he has cats and I am allergic to them, bleh. Otherwise, I love kitties so much!

I slept pretty well. I woke up early, but continued sleeping till one o'clock in the afternoon. I got up, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, and made some coffee.

I shaved my armpits and chin, washed my hair; I have started washing my hair by rubbing shampoo into my scalp instead of my hair; and did the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment. I put basic lotion on my skin, got dressed, and put on a necklace and earrings.

Later that day when Mirette was up as well, I did housework; I washed two loads of laundry, dealt my pills and supplements into both of my Dosetts, sorted out the fresh- out- of- drying room laundry, and stuff like that.

We left at the same time and took a train to downtown. We went to see two strobe light art installations at the art festival; the first one was kind of a corridor (it was built in the courtyard of the company where my father works) with tons of long, thin strings hung on the ceiling. You were supposed to walk through the corridor, and there was a bright red light as well.
The second one was a bit scary; there was a sculpture, a huge lump of undeterminable material that looked like a grisly face, and there were loud booms like bombs dropping. It was like war or hell.

After that, we traveled east and went to a cafe where we had pizza and cocoa, and then we went to see three light art installations and a random art show at the local library.

We traveled to Mirette's home where Mirette watered the plants, we picked up some food and then we traveled to my hoemtown.

I mailed a couple of birthday cards, and then we went to my home.
I sorted out the trash, made some coffee, took my evening medicine, sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils, and made French fries for a midnight snack.

I started feeling the evening anxiety again.