I have been practically fuming with anger all day, even if I have eaten a healthy breakfast so it's not my blood sugar, my period is not due so it's not my PMS, I have taken my medicine so it's not my usual psycho attitude, and nothing bad has happened. I'm scared that I will hurt myself or do something regrettable. I'm truly scared.
As I mentioned earlier, my own nurse called me today and told me that my doctor has given me the permission to increase my Ketipinor into 75 milligrams each evening. I was also told I can increase my anti- depressant, Cipralex, to 20 milligrams each morning.
Why is it so, that I have got it better than many other people, and I am still bitching about how my life is a complete pisshole? I mean, I am white, cis, able- bodied and I am not sexy and beautiful enough to become a victim of sexual abuse, I have a stable home, a working toilet, Internet connection, private therapist, and I make enough money to pay for my food, hygiene, medicine, bills and rent even if I have never worked a day in my life, I live in a country where are no wars or natural disasters, I have pretty clothes, loving parents, friends and relatives.
A middle- class child cries their eyes out because they got an iPad of wrong color as a birthday present, while a poor child finds a peculiar- looking stone from a field, and feels like the luckiest kid in the world.