I swallowed two tranquilizers, and it made me feel sleepy and comfortable enough after many hours, but as usual when I take them before going to sleep, I felt this strange nervous pain in my knee joints.
In the small hours I woke up to the terrible need to pee, I practically felt my urine bladder balloon right through my abdomen; combined with the strange need to relieve the ache in my knees by stretching and bending them, it felt uncomfortable. I also didn’t feel like going to the bathroom because I was too sleepy, but I finally went there, and fell back asleep again.
I had some dreams that made me feel very uncomfortable. In one of them, I was at my grandmother’s house, I had done something not nice and she was disappointed with me. In another dream I was about to be molested by a fedora- wearing brony.
I had set my alarm clock to ring at quarter to ten o'clock in the morning (09:45 am) so I would wake up in time and do the morning routines before my ASPA worker comes for a visit. It woke me up in time, but I just turned it off and went back to bed.
I woke up with a start when my doorbell rang, it was the ASPA worker; Kaarina was on summer break, so this time it was a substitute. Zie seemed nice enough.
Zie waited while I dressed up in the bathroom, and washed the sleep off my eyes.
We had a nice talk, after zie left I went off, too, I had a therapy appointment at quarter past noon (12:15 pm).
I walked to Malminkartano train station and took the M train to Helsinki and walked to Kamppi. I was a bit late from the appointment, and I didn't feel like talking much so I let Jaana, my therapist, to ask me questions that I answered.
After the appointment, we made a new one on June 29th at the same time as today; Jaana mentioned that since I am going for a journey, we shouldn’t make an appointment for next week. Zie also mentioned that we should have a break for four weeks in July so zie can have a summer break, too.
I didn't feel like hanging around downtown, so I took the bus 452K to Myyrmäki and went to Citymarket. I looked for new underwear, I have decided to start wearing Sloggi underwear because they're more comfortable. I should also buy brassieres, and ankle socks.
I decided to go see my mother, so I took the bus 53 to Raappavuori. Mom wasn't home yet, neither was dad, they were both at work.
I noticed that my parents were running out of milk, so I took the wallet where they keep their grocery money and went to Alepa in the old minimall to buy two liters of milk.
Mom came home later. I wished hir a happy birthday, she gave me the monthly 80 euros.
I went to the convenience store in the old mall I had visited, and recharged my travel card for a month.
I took the bus 52 to Myyrmäki, once there I went to Citymarket to buy a small drying rack. I also bought a liter of milk and a bunch of bananas.
Once home, I started a new diary. I am going to post a photo of it later.
I remembered that I had to go to the gym today; of course I felt like I don't wannaaaahhh...", but I will only regret it if I stay inside all day, and I will feel mentally and physically better if I go there, even for a short while.
I decided to do this thing I usually do before convincing myself to go to the gym; I did all the random odd jobs such as washed laundry and hung it on the new drying rack, cleaned out the drawers of my working desk and threw away some useless stuff, opened the kitchen window and balcony door to let fresh air in, stuff like that.
The panda backpack was falling apart, and I couldn't afford to buy a new one. I picked my unicorn shoulder bag, it will have to do once I can afford to buy a backpack from Varusteleka, an army surplus store, in Konala. Here's to hoping grandmother will give me some money.
I went to the gym but first I took out three bags of garbage and then I went to the library to return all of the four books I had lent from there. I have decided to do a complete clean-up in my apartment before going to visit my grandmother; I will be away for six days and I want my apartment to be spick and span once I return.
Once in the gym, I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes on the Manual setting, then 4 minutes on the Cool Down setting, and burned 103 calories. I also tried one exercise machine, but I was getting tired and not to mention it was getting late, it was eight o’clock in the evening (08:00 pm) and the fitness center was about to be closed for today, so I left.
I visited Citymarket in Myyrmanni shopping center to buy two iced espressos, they were in discount.
Once home, I took my evening medicine and brushed my teeth. I have decided that from now on, I will brush my teeth every time I take my morning- and evening medicine, so that they will certainly be brushed.
I washed my gym clothes, I intent to take them to the journey to Kangasala because I will keep my promise about going to the gym every third day, and there’s a fitness center in Kangasala, my grandmother goes there to physiotherapy and water aerobics.
Tomorrow I won’t have any special appointments, so I think I will spend the entire day cleaning up my apartment; I need to wash more laundry, and take three full bags of clothes to a charity shop.