I also thought about life after death, and thought that I better worry about life before death. It’s always the same, I feel a bit morose in the evenings before going to sleep.
I slept well, and I remember waking up when it was still dark and the sun hadn’t risen, but I fell back asleep and slept all the way up to one o’clock in the afternoon. I had unhappy dreams, as I usually do.
I got up, took my morning medicine and dressed up. I didn’t feel like doing housework so I called my mom and asked if I can come over, she said it was okay. I also asked if she can give me a little grocery money, she agreed to give me 20 euros.
I took the bus 571 to Raappavuori, now that I think about it I could have walked there.
Mom was home, she gave me the money. We drank coffee together, mom commented that the coffee was “spicy” while I thought it was bitter.
I wish I could somehow tell my mother how much I love her and care about her, but sometimes I feel like there’s a wall between us. Nevertheless, we get along pretty well.
I decided to walk to Myyrmäki, it was such a lovely weather.
I bought myself a nightie, I have severe shortage of them, and two liters of fruit juice from Citymarket.
I also visited Iso- Myyri shopping center and went to the Salvation Army flea market to buy a pair of Marimekko slippers, they fit me perfectly and they were also comfortable, and didn’t cost too much.
I spent the rest of the evening inside, eating chocolate. In the evening I managed to do all the routines, take my evening medicine, brush my teeth, have a wash, change into nighties, and go to sleep.
While writing into my diary after going to bed, I felt unhappy again; the last thing I remember writing into my diary was “Some people have their heads in the clouds, I seem to have mine in the sky full of stars”.