This morning when I went to the bathroom to take a pee, I noticed that it was half past eight o’clock and it was still really dark outside. I realized that most people are going to work or school at this time. I shuddered and felt glad that I don’t have to.
I slept all the way to ten o’clock, got up and took my morning medicine and didn’t bother with having a wash, I just put on some clothes and logged in to the online bank service to check out my balance. I had received 80 euros, like every Wednesday.
I was feeling anxious and moody, so I took a nap and got up at one o’clock in the afternoon. I felt disappointed with myself, as I had wasted the morning by sleeping and hadn’t bothered with keeping up my hygiene, and I can’t even remember the last time I cooked a decent breakfast.
I went to visit the bank, at least the beautiful sunshine made me feel better and soothed my moodiness.
I withdrew the money and went to the Salvation Army thrift store just to spend time, I saw a gorgeous 80’s vintage dress that was obviously made by Marimekko, my favorite clothing designer! I would love to buy tons of their products but they are extremely expensive, considering that they are from a designer.
The dress cost 16 euros, I made a quick calculation in my mind and realized that if I buy both the dress and the suitcase I had planned to buy today, I would run out of money. So I decided to buy the dress next week.
I visited Citymarket in Myyrmanni shopping center to buy the suitcase I mentioned. It was a sensible purchase because I can fit lots of stuff in there, it’s in a lovely pink color, and it was in discount.
Usually the sales begin after New Year, but this time they have begun before Xmas. It’s alright by me.
Once back home, I washed the dishes and also washed a load of laundry. I managed to brush my teeth and wash my face, despite that it was already quite late in the afternoon.
I fetched my laundry from the drying room downstairs, and started packing for the Xmas holidays. I took along my four Dirndl dresses, stripy blouses to go along with them, the green lace dress for the Xmas feast, and some jewellery to go along with it, underclothes, filled up Dosett, my knitting, my nutritional supplements… I think that is all.
I called my mother and told her I am coming over for the holidays, she grumbled a bit and then said, it’s fine.
I barely made it to the bus 565, once in my parents’ home my mom was right behind the door and the first thing she said to me, was to ask where did I get that suitcase and how much did it cost and why should I need one? I didn’t mind, I took off my winter coat and biker boots and went to my old room.
In a few minutes I had set up my laptop, I made some coffee and ate the buns my mom had baked. I helped mom put up the fairy lights on the balcony and fetch the plastic Xmas tree from the storage room downstairs, I also helped her with housework.
In the evening I took a shower. I noticed that my hair was greasy again, even if I washed it yesterday. But then again, if you wash your hair with shampoo too often, it gets greasy too often. I have decided to rinse my hair with water every day when I take a shower, but wash it with shampoo about two times a week.
My dad came home from work, at first I feared that he would be angry and yell at me; even if my father has calmed down now that he’s older, I cannot shake the memories since when I was a kid and he used to scream the place down and slap me about.
My brother will come home tomorrow morning, here’s to hoping we will have a merry Xmas despite everything.
My stomach was so bloated that I looked like I was six months pregnant, and mom said I am overweight. I have decided to go on a diet after new year, not because of my body but because of my health; I am not going to starve myself, I am simply going to start exercising more and starting to eat more healthily. Now that I think about it, I don’t even like chocolate and crisps as much as I used to, so I can easily cut them off my diet.