I had another dream that resembled the animated Studio Ghibli movie Howl’s Moving Castle. I was a poor beggar girl who was adopted by an old woman who looked a bit like The Witch of the Waste from the aforementioned movie. In the dream she had two daughters who looked like the characters Anastasia and Drusilla from the Disney movie Cinderella. The mother and her daughters were a bit snarky, but they were all respectful and kind to me, and welcomed me into their family.
It made me think that no matter how tough and hard people may seem, it doesn’t stop them from being loyal and respectful. It reminds me of the DC Comics character Lobo, who is a badass anti- hero but has this rule of conduct where he keeps his promises.
Subconscious is really amazing, it might just dig up some stuff from my memories and make me live them again.
I got up about at eleven o’clock, took my morning medicine and put on a red Marimekko dress with white polka dots.
I looked around at my apartment, and decided that if everything goes well, I never have to move out from here. It’s the first place that actually feels like home after moving out from my childhood home.
Yesterday evening I had decided that today I would go to the social office to apply for income support; I needed a voucher for reloading my travel card and buying two expensive prescription medicines, the anti- psychotic Solian and anti- depressant Cipralex. There’s no way I can afford both the medicine and the travel card on my own.
I logged in to the online bank service, and what do you know, my balance was 64 euros. I had received my weekly allowance today, usually it’s 80 euros but my account had gone about 16 euros below zero because of the usage fees.
Usually I receive the allowance on Wednesdays. I won’t probably receive more money next Wednesday, but I can always pilfer a tenner or two from my mom.
I went to the cash machine in Myyrmanni shopping center, and withdrew 60 euros. I bought a set of five black cotton panties; I had already bought another set about a month ago, so now I have enough of them.
I was on my way to Iso- Myyri shopping center when I ran into Pinky, we hugged each other and then she had to leave because she was in a hurry. I went to Tokmanni and bought another brassiere, right now I have four of them; I need another four, and then I will have enough.
Once home, I put the stuffs to their rightful places. Later my ASPA worker called me and asked if it’s okay that she comes a bit earlier, because one of her clients had cancelled the visit. I said it’s okay.
Later the day she arrived, and brought along a student named Hanna.
We talked a bit about how my life has been, and I requested that we leave a bit earlier because I had some urgent business in the social office. Me and Kaarina agreed to meet again at the same time next Monday.
I went to the social office and used the computer in the waiting room to print out my account statement, then I filled out the application form for income support.
I waited for a while, writing into my diary, and also called a hairdresser in Iso- Myyri shopping center and made an appointment on March 23rd. Later the day I realized it’s the day when I will go see my grandmother for a week; I decided to call her tomorrow and tell her I am coming to see her a week earlier.
A social worker asked me to come to her office. We talked a bit about my situation, then I waited for a while, and then she gave me two coupons, one for buying the two batches of medicine and one for reloading my travel card.
I went to the municipal service point and got my travel card reloaded, I will be able to travel in the metropolitan area until the first of April.
Then I went to the pharmacy and got my medicine. After that, I felt very light- hearted.
I took the bus 411 to Helsinki and then the subway to Kamppi, and went to the eco- market to buy a new cloth panty liner, pink with purple flowers. Right now I have four panty liners, I could start using them. I still need to buy four more of them, so I won’t run out of them too soon before the next laundry day; I prefer having at least eight pairs of each underwear, panties and brassieres and socks and tights and leggings and panty liners, so they will last for a week and a day more.
I took the subway to Hakaniemi, and went to Girls’ House.
I had two cups of cocoa, wrote into my diary, and talked and laughed with the other girls, having a good time.
I walked to the city center and took the P train to Myyrmäki.
Once back home, I washed a load of laundry and dealt my pills into my Dosett.
When I was hanging the clean laundry on to the drying rack, I noticed that one of the spokes was detached from one end. Next time I receive money, I’m going to buy a new drying rack.
Tomorrow I have to be up and about early, because I need to go to the parish to ask if I can get some kind of voucher for getting a membership card to the swim hall in Myyrmäki, and another voucher for getting 25 visits to my gym card.
I know the parish worker whom I call J.P., he has helped me out many times. He’s very friendly and kind, I hope he will understand my situation.
I will also have an appointment with my occupational therapist at two o’clock in the afternoon.
After that, I am going to go see my mother, and then I will go to the Myöhätuuli youth group.