Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼 (kattidya) wrote,
Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼

I have felt a bit down in the dumps for the past few days. I got my period last week, so I guess it’s the horrid PMS I have each month. I hate it, every month I am angry to the point of being psychotic, and sad to the point of being suicidal.

I had a very realistic dream where I woke up in my old room in my parents’ home, and I actually thought I was in there.
I also had nightmares, and woke up feeling already gloomy.
I had slept on my sofa- bed, because I didn’t feel like putting clean sheets into my bed.

I got up at eleven o’clock in the morning, took my morning medicine, put on clean clothes, washed my face and dabbed lotion on it.

For breakfast I ate Nutella out of the jar, I didn’t feel like eating a proper breakfast even if I knew that eating a proper breakfast would have made me feel better.

I had an appointment with my nurse at the psychiatric center, it made me feel a bit better even if I cried a bit.
After the appointment I went to the bathroom to freshen up a bit, do some face muscle exercises and take a very impressive dump.

I ran into my mother on the way home, she had bought some raspberries and shared them with me.

Once back home, my ASPA worker Kaarina came to see me.
We had a nice talk, and I managed to wash the dishes. I wish I had a dishwasher, washing dishes by hand is really tiresome.

After Kaarina left, I managed to hoover the floor and make myself a decent lunch; just- add- water pasta with goat cheese and rucola. Then I went to the natatorium in Martinlaakso, because the one in Myyrmäki is closed for summer.

I took the bus there, because I was already in a bad mood and it would only worsen if I walked there, and besides my bicycle tires were out of air.

Once in the natatorium, I managed to swim for 75 meters, and by then my muscles were aching and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I went to the sauna, but didn’t feel like staying there for a long time.

I took a bus back to Myyrmäki, and felt like I was having a Creepy Moment; it’s when my blood sugar starts getting so messed up that I start having hallucinations, and I feel like my whole body is trembling and my teeth are chattering, and I start feeling like everything around me is a threat.

Once back home, I decided to go to the Amos Anderson art museum.
I took a train to Helsinki, by then it has started raining.

The art show cheered me up a bit. After that, I went to a grocery shop to buy a Milky Way bar to lift up my blood sugar.
I was supposed to take a train to Myyrmäki, but it was delayed so I took a subway to Rastila and then a bus to Myyrmäki.

Once back home, I washed two loads of laundry, took the carpet and mattress outside to dust them, took out the trash, and dressed my bed in clean sheets. I also managed to have a proper wash in the evening after taking my evening medicine.

I’m glad I managed to do a lot of things today, even if I didn’t always feel like up to it.
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