Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼 (kattidya) wrote,
Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼

This life shit is hard.

I have felt quite depressed and anxious this week so far, even if nothing bad has happened. Fortunately, it has made me realize that I should start taking better care of the most important building blocks of life, such as nutrition and exercise and sleep and hygiene.
Of course, taking anti- depressants has helped me a lot, I am not one of those people who believe that green tea, yoga, colouring books or stuff like that zaps your depression away.
Well sure, those things are a fine way to spend an afternoon, but they won’t cure a serious illness. And popping pills is not going to help me if I stay awake all night drinking coffee, and sleep all day, no matter how pleasant it might feel.
I had another epiphany today when I realized that getting better when you suffer from a severe mental illness is a life- long operation. When I was a teenager, I used to believe that someday I will “see the light” and then everything will be peaches and cream. Now I have realized that no matter how good I feel, I will continue having delusions every day, and perhaps someday I will relapse. But then again, I can always learn to dance in the rain instead of waiting for the sun to come out.

I proofread my writing and realized that I have already seen the light; I have felt so optimistic and positive for about two years now.
Tags: angst, health issues, random thoughts
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