Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼 (kattidya) wrote,
Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼

Why do I feel this way?

Yesterday morning I woke up with a start when my smartphone rang. It was my mom, she told me to come to the shopping mall so she could give me the weekly allowance; now that I receive the allowance from the social office on Fridays, my mom gives me her own allowance on Tuesdays.
I got up, took my morning medicine, got dressed, and then I travelled to my parents’ hometown. Once there, mom gave me 40 euros. I travelled back home, and once there I practically just flopped on my bed and slept like a log for about eight hours. I guess it was because I had had to get up so early and besides, I still had sleep debt.
My best friend Suavecita called me, we talked for a while about our plans for the next weekend. On Friday me, her, Eleclya, and Mirette will go to Rige’s home for a get- together, after that we will have a sleepover at my home.
I went to the supermarket and bought four cans of milk and three packages of household paper. I was thinking of buying something from the stationery shop, but decided not to.
Then I went back home, watched Deadpool on DVD, and then I took my evening medicine, put on my nightie, and went to bed.

I had a dream where I studied in Hogwarts, and a dream where I was naked in a public place. I had plenty of other kind of dreams, and then I woke up.
I took my morning medicine, washed my face, dabbed lotion on my skin, and got dressed.
I listened to music and danced along, and felt really happy. Nevertheless, I felt really weird, as if my head was enveloped in thick clouds.
I went to the shopping mall and bought two magic ink pens and a Valentine’s day card. I also went to the pharmacy and bought a tongue scraper, it’s this plastic thingy that is used for cleaning your tongue every time you brush your teeth. I have decided to start using it as a daily part of my dental hygiene.

Once back home, three of my friends came for a visit; Odessa, Eleclya, and Mirette. We had agreed that they are going to meet at my home and then go to Helsinki where Eleclya was going to get a labret piercing.
I cleaned my teeth for the first time in ages; I cleaned my tongue, brushed my interdentals, brushed my teeth, and used mouthwash.

After my friends left, I felt a bit lost. I didn’t know how to spend my time, so I took some stuff downstairs to the storage room, and then I hoovered the floor of my apartment.
I started feeling angry for no reason at all, so I took a tranquillizer.

I decided to head to the gym, as Wednesday is my official gym day. Right after I had arrived at the gym, I started having delusions from being bullied at the gym class in junior high.
I tried to do stretches and exercises, but I started feeling worse; I felt like I was shaking all over, and I felt neurotic and panicky. Well, at least I tried.

I went straight back home, feeling utterly crushed. I called my mother, and took a shower. I also washed a load of laundry. I have decided to stop using Tide Pods, considering that they stink up my entire apartment. From now on, I will use scentless detergent.

In the evening I started feeling better. I fixed myself supper, and started feeling relaxed by half past six o’clock in the evening. I took my meds and went to bed.

Tomorrow I will have a doctor’s appointment at one o’clock in the afternoon. When I get up in the morning, I will have to force myself to have a proper wash and eat a proper breakfast.
During the doctor’s appointment, I will talk about the myriad of health problems I have; the eczema on my hands and feet, my itchy nipples, my achy breasts, my occasional insomnia and anxiety and depression in the evenings. And also something to control the greasiness of my hair; the next day after washing it, it’s greasy again.
After the appointment, I will go visit Sederholm Museum, and then the Museum of Natural Science, and then I will go to the youth group.
Tags: eleclya, friends, gym, health issues, mental health, mirette, mother, odessa, physical health, real life, shopping, sleepy days
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