Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼 (kattidya) wrote,
Mii- Mii the ever- loving 🌼💗‿💗🌼

Any way the wind blows

I have felt a bit sad lately. I have realized that no matter what I do, I will never be able to be cured from my depression and anxiety and delusions.
Of course, I could start eating more healthily and exercising more often and visiting art museums, but I can't. I am more interested in sitting in my apartment, drinking coffee and surfing on the Internet. I just need a good kick in the rear.

Sometimes I believe I am wasting my life. I am already 30 years old without college degree, a job, or a soulmate.

Anyway, last night I slept on a mattress on the floor because Mirette and Elysion were having a sleepover at my home. I woke up to the feeling of being cold because it was chilly and rainy outside, the balcony door was open, and the cooling fan was on. I was practically shivering with cold.

I got up, took my morning medicine and the first biotin of the day. I drank some cocoa.

Later that day I took the second biotin of the day.

Elysion's boyfriend came for a visit, she brought some stuff from Lapland where he had been on a vacation.

Mainly I just stayed inside sleeping all day, feeling ill and tired, but in the evening when Elysion went back home with her boyfriend and Mirette went to a concert, I decided to go see my mother. I called her and asked her if I can come over, she said it's okay.

I caught a bus to my parents' home, and ran into my friend Laufey. We had a nice talk on the same bus.

Once at my parents' home, I ate a few slices of buttered rye bread, a handful of cherry tomatoes and dark grapes, a couple of slices of a cinnamon bun loaf, and drank coffee and orange juice.

Later that day, I caught a bus back to my home town, and went to the supermarket to buy soy milk. I feel like I am getting better.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and the last biotin of the day, washed a load of laundry, tidied up my home, and watched The Good Place on Netflix.

Tomorrow I will receive money. I will pay my gym membership, a debt to a friend, and purchase a membership card to the aquarium downtown because it is in discount, half the price during the rest of the month. I will also order a face muscle trainer from Amazon.co.uk. As for the rest of the money, I will buy groceries.

On Saturday, me and my friends will go to the Pride March. Two of my friends, Eleclya and Suavecita, will be at the annual metal music festival, but me and Mirette will go there.

On Sunday, I will shave my armpits and chin fluffs. I will go visit my parents, my dad will give me the weekly allowance. I will also call my granny. As for the rest of the day, I might visit a museum. 
Tags: angst, elysion, friends, grocery shopping, mirette, parents, real life
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