You deserve to be healthy, safe, loved, and very happy
24th January 2011
OK, the reason why I had been so depressed in my last post was that I desperately want to lose some weight, so I have given up my life fuel that is chocolate, and also crisps, cookies, Jell-O and other sweeties. The only treat I allow myself is sugar in my tea.
My weekend was a fuck- up too, I only slept all the time and didn't do any housework. I managed to go see my parents and visit the gym, so that's that.
Oh sighs, why won't the Russian users leave me alone? This morning when I checked my e- mails, I noticed I had received a comment on my "depression" post from someone named drubelomor, he commented in Russian something like "I do not know what to say".
I mean, what the hell??? Since when did I ask his opinion?
I did the usual thing when it comes to Russian users; deleted his comment and banned him from reading my LiveJournal.
Yesterday evening I went to sleep at half past six. I had a dream I was visiting Linnanmäki, an amusement park in Helsinki. I bought lots of Gothic jewelry and Ghost World stickers.
In another dream, I was swimming in the ocean beside the Statue of Liberty, and shitted the ocean full of, well, shit, as a protest against USA. Geez!
When I woke up, I started thinking if I should stay in bed all day. After all, I would go back to sleep in the evening, so what's the point in getting up? Before I started my diet, I would think that the only reason to get up was to eat chocolate.
Then I started thinking I could drink vanilla tea for breakfast, so I got up and drank two cups of tea (one lemon- honey, one vanilla) while checking my e- mails and updates.
After I had had a wash and taken a shower and eaten a proper breakfast, I started thinking what to do for the rest of the day.
I washed some laundry, washed the dishes, took out the garbage and went to the library to return, retrieve and lend some items, then I visited the social office but forgot to drop off my broadband bill.
Once home, I washed the dishes once again, hung the laundry and washed another load of laundry, then I cooked some potato mash and broccoli. I guess I'm getting used to cooking, this week I'll probably cook my special pasta; spaghetti with wok vegetables.
I started feeling a little bored, so I decided to go for a little walk.
I decided to take the bus 53 to Martinlaakso, and walk around for a while. See, that's why I don't like winter. Streets are either mushy with snow or slippery with ice, so walking is pretty hard. And I like taking long walks. The one thing that bores me is that the landscape is always the same; white. If it was anything else than winter, there would be more colours, more light.
I got bored of shuffling back and forth, sweating my buns off, so I visited the Martinlaakso library to see if I could lend a nice DVD to watch.
Once in the library, the first thing to notice was that they had the DVD Otogiriso! The one Korean horror movie I had wanted to see since my junior high years, and it was in the library all the time!
I lent the DVD Mannen som elsket Yngve (The man who loved Yngve). It is a very indie movie about a bunch of teenagers in Norway, 1989; the Berlin Wall had just fallen, and the teenagers are pondering what to do with their lives. A young man named Jarle Klepp has everything in order; the coolest punk band, the most beautiful girlfriend, until he meets Yngve, a yuppie man, whom he falls in love with. I am currently watching the movie, and I don't regret lending it.
I visited the video renting in Martinkeskus shopping center; I had some euros left in my pocket so I thought of lending another indie movie, like Little Miss Sunshine. But then I thought of sparing my money, so I took a bus back to Myyrmäki.
Once home, I started watching the movie. I had thought it would be nice to have something savoury to eat while watching, but then again, I had promised myself to lose a few kilos.