February 3rd, 2011


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Gee- whizz, yesterday I truly experienced a Creepy Moment! I had to take my meds at 7:40 in the evening and go to bed, because I was feeling so freaky that I couldn't possibly do all the evening routines.

My jaws felt stiff, my eyes boggled and I tried to read some Ghost World to calm myself down. I felt a bit worried for absolutely no reason.

I managed to write my diary all the way to the last page, so I started another. It's an A4 sized ringbinder, with red Marimekko poppies in the cover. I'mma take a picture of it later.

I woke up later because I had to take a pee, and I noticed that it was only half past eleven! I had thought it was about four or five in the morning.

I had a dream that the Gremlins managed to conquer Vantaa, and turned other people into Gremlins. The Protectobots drove me and some other survivors to safety, and I cried bitterly because I felt so sad for my family members who had perished.

I got up at quarter to nine in the morning, quite unusual to me as I nowadays sleep till midday.

For some reason, I felt good in the morning. Well, maybe not exactly good, but I didn't feel as panicky and neurotic as I usually feel in the mornings.

It was raining snow. I wish spring would arrive soon; I know that if we had no winter, eternal summer would feel boring and le gasp, we would have no autumn!
But anyway, the neverending coldness and darkness gets on my nerves, I would love me some warmth and light in my life.

I went to Citymarket to buy two bars of chocolate, then to the rehab center (which actually is a psychiatric polyclinic now, but "rehab center" is less dramatic) to renew my Ketipinor prescription. I'm going to pick it up next Thursday.

I visited the Salvation Army flea market, but noticed that they didn't have the yellow- striped Marimekko shirt I had wanted for sale. I think it was the UFF in Hakaniemi where I had seen it.

I also visited the social office to ask if I had fin- fuckin'- ally received the gym card. According to the mentally delayed receptionist, I had not, so I left the office.

I took a train to Helsinki, and visited a few clothing shops. I started to feel a bit weird, not to mention I was hungry, so I took a bus back to Myyrmäki.

Once home, I cooked my special pasta and started worrying about money. I decided that if I want to get more money, I should get the work experience rollin' so I called a few libraries to ask if I could attend a work experience period there. Myyrmäki, no dice, neither Martinlaakso.

I was getting a bit desperate so I called the Pähkinärinne library (which used to be Hämeenkylä when I was attending a work experience period there), and Mervi the librarian greeted me like an old friend and said yes, I may be able to attend my work experience period there.

I called my liaison in the employment agency to inform her that I might be able to get a work experience place in the Pähkinärinne library. I guess my little project took a step forward.

Oh, before I forget, I must tell you this; on February 21st- 27th I'm traveling to Kangasala to meet my grandmother. I will assist her with her new computer, we will go skiing and maybe visit Tampere (I hope so), she will teach me to cook and I'll rent Jawbreaker from the local video renting.
It's been a while since I last visited her, I mean I saw her after Christmas when me and my family visited her but now I am going to visit her all alone. I already miss her delicious salmon soup.
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What sign were you born under in the Chinese lunar calendar? Do you think it accurately represents your animal spirit?

I was born in Dec 28th 1988, so it makes me a Capricorn/Dragon. Yeah. I breath fire and I have horns in my head.

Nah, I don't give a shitfuck about horoscopes. And besides, I'd rather be a Transformer or a witch rather than any of those furry otherkin wolfy toe paws spirit fucktards.