October 11th, 2011


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Yesterday I just slept all day, which is good because I didn't have anything special to do, anyway.
I had run out of shampoo and shower gel last Sunday, and couldn't afford them until today.

Today I had a meeting with my nurse and my doctor; I had to get a statement written for receiving more welfare.
It was a pretty awkward situation, but I hope I will get more welfare.

After that, I went to the bank and withdrew the money I had received today, then I took a bus to Helsinki as I had to visit Backstreet to retrieve my order, a pair of black lace gloves.
Once in Helsinki, I was thinking that I would have better gone grocery shopping and then have lunch as I was so hungry that my head hurt, but then again, now that I had already arrived to Helsinki I should do my business there.

Once in Forum, I learned that Backstreet is going to be closed for good because, well, I don't know why, but it's going to be reopened near Tavastia, I vaguely know where that is and now that there's going to be a Hennes&Mauritz store in Myyrmanni, I don't complain.

I retrieved the gloves I had ordered and took a bus back to Myyrmäki, once home I had a terrible headache and nausea, so I warmed some food for myself and after that, the nausea and headache didn't go anywhere.

It was getting a bit late, but I decided to go grocery shopping.

I bought toilet paper, handkerchiefs, panty liners, shampoo, shower gel, leave- in hair conditioner, cotton wads, ramen noodles, rye bread, toast, tomatoes, satsumas, laundry rinse and wok vegetables.

I don't eat noodles often, except when I don't feel like cooking anything else, and then I try to spice them up with wok vegetables or goat cheese.

When walking up the Kitler hill I felt pretty weird, my low blood sugar mixed with physical exertion and the darkness around me was making me feel kind of psychotic.

Once home, I put my purchases to their right places and by then I noticed that my nausea and headache were gone.
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In moments like these I am glad I don't live in the States, where fertilized eggs are regarded as "persons" and women who miscarry will be criminalized.

Today when I visited my doctor, I talked about getting a sterilization surgery. I haven't even started my sex life yet (and I don't think I ever will because no man/woman in his/her right mind will ever be interested in such an ugly- as- puke feminazi like me) but I desperately want to have my tubes tied.

It's just that I don't want to be a mother. Not every person who is born with an uterus is meant to be a mother. I have nothing against women who want to be mothers, it's just that I wouldn't join their club.
I also have nothing against pro- lifers, I just hate it when they're trying to turn their views into our laws! I mean, I hate a lot of things too such as alcohol and smoking cigarettes, but I wouldn't outlaw it just because I am against it.
And after all, if you are against abortion, don't have one.
And I don't really see why adoption is so glorified; after all, at least in Finland adoption is such a complicated process, and adoptive parents may not always be the best kind of parents.

I hope Finland will never become a Christian nation.
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