24th October 2011

greyrainbow

Yesterday evening when I went to bed, I couldn't help thinking what I should do on Monday.

I'm not sure what to think of my life now that I don't have anything to do during daytime, work or studies and such. Sometimes I wish I could have something important to do, have a sensible daily rhythm and not just laze my ass off every day, but then I'm happy that I don't have any kind of responsibilities and such, that I can spend my days how I please.

This morning I slept blissfully late, the time was one o'clock in the afternoon when I got up.
I had had dreams of being interrogated by the Soldier from Team Fortress 2, then I had a dream of running away from my destiny in a sunny forest.

After getting up, I decided not to turn on my laptop first. I took a shower, dressed up and after I was done, I read some TF2 fanfiction on Yaoi Gallery. In the midst of the orgasmic bliss I started to feel sleepy, so I took a nap and managed to sleep all the way to evening when it was dark.

I had no food in my apartment, at least not any kind of snack food to take my slight hunger away, so I decided to use my last change to buy something unhealthy.

I went to Citymarket and bought a bag of cheesy poofs and a chocolate bar, once home I continued reading the fics. I think Scout/Sniper is one of my favorite pairings along with Heavy/Medic.

I think I am a bit disappointed when I review today; it's always the same, when I am not being productive I feel as if I am wasting my time.
  • Current Mood: crushed crushed
  • Current Music: Roxette - Fading like a flower
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I hate this feeling, when I am anguished one moment, I feel like it's going to last for a lifetime. I know that tomorrow I probably won't remember how I felt this evening, but I just feel so bad right now for absolutely no reason at all.

Well, maybe I feel about about always being tight on money, and worried about getting to the vocational school.

I hate it how back then when I was a kid I used to cry all the time, nowadays I can't cry even if I want to.