23rd March 2015


I have taken up the habit of taking chrome as a nutrition supplement, it is supposed to balance your blood sugar and reduce your sweet cravings. I don't know if it's true, but it's worth a try because my cravings are driving me mad; sometimes I may even feel anxious if I don't get to eat a Bounty bar or drink a cup of sweet, milky coffee each day.
I know I should maintain a healthy diet to keep up my blood sugar, but as I have mentioned before, I cannot always afford all the healthy food I need and besides, my appetite is really poor, I cannot just force myself to eat if I don't feel like eating.
I'm not sure if I have diabetes or hypoglycemia, but there's something definitely wrong with my blood sugar.

I have also taken up the habit of doing some simple stretches every morning and evening. So far I have gotten my inner thigh muscles stiff and sore, they're always the first place that gets achy. Tomorrow I am going to the gym and then to the swimming pool.

I wish I wouldn't always be so afraid of moving outside; being a female, I am constantly worrying if my outfit is too provocative (despite the fact that I haven't worn a sexy outfit for years) or if I should take a bus or train, where and when to walk; I know it's only a natural survival instinct, and as long as the society teaches females "don't get sexually assaulted" (meaning both harassment and rape) instead of teaching males "don't assault anyone", I cannot be safe.
  • Current Mood: annoyed annoyed
  • Current Music: Taken By Trees - Sweet Child O' Mine

Along with the usual morning routines, this morning I did some simple stretches. I have been told that if you do something regularly for three weeks, it becomes a habit. I hope it applies for brushing my teeth and going to the gym.

I have a feeling that my period is due, I have been terribly moody and grumpy and also guzzling lots of water. It feels as if my last period was just a week before. I should take up the habit of keeping track of my menstrual cycle, like marking each day in my wall calendar.

I went out for some errands; I took out the garbage, returned bottles and made 60 cents, visited the psychiatric clinic to get my Solian prescription form, and then went to the social office to drop off a couple of bills that arrived today.

I decided to go to Girls' House, this time I went for an urbane adventure; I took the bus 55 to Tikkurila, then the K train to Helsinki and then the subway to Hakaniemi. Now that I think about how unhappy I felt during the journey, I have decided that from now on I will go straight to Helsinki on a bus or train.

Once in Girls' House, the sweet cravings bothered me again. I drank some water, but it brought a bad taste into my mouth.

I decided to go see my parents after leaving, I took the bus 453 to Raappavuori. I met my brother in the corridor, and both of my parents were home.

I drank some coffee and ate a few Karelian pies, and watched TV with my mother.

Later the day I left because it was getting late, I took the bus 53 to Myyrmäki and visited Myyrmanni shopping mall for some discreet late- night shopping; my mother had given me some grocery money because I had asked her.

I bought bread and milk and fruits, hung around the mall for a while and then went home.

I took my evening medicine at eight o'clock, and I don't feel sleepy yet. I had supper, changed into pajamas, had a wash and did some stretches.
  • Current Mood: calm calm
  • Current Music: Paola - Fine without you