May 21st, 2015


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As I mentioned, on Tuesday evening I felt terribly angry for no reason at all, and last night when I went to bed I felt terribly sad for no reason at all.

I stayed awake till small hours, watching American Horror Story: Murder House.

I remember that in the morning I waved my hand and accidentally pushed my diary off my nightstand, it fell on the floor with a clattering noise. I grimaced, said "Goddamn", snorted and fell back asleep.

I got up about at half past ten o'clock in the morning. The first thing to realize was that I had no chocolate.

I forgot to take my morning medicine, and I didn't bother with brushing my teeth or having a wash, I just anointed my skin with basic lotion and dressed in the first outfit I found from the closet.
I read yaoi fanfiction and then went to bed to sleep until it was two o'clock in the afternoon when Eija picks me up; in case I haven't already mentioned it, Eija is an elderly, gentle woman who works as a mentor for young people. Zie takes me out to museums, cafes, restaurants and such, and once zie gave me a ride to a school when I had an entrance exam, and once to a meditation class. This was our last meeting.

I had nice dreams; in one of them I was at an old abandoned building, playing basketball with a dark- skinned young man who was like the humanized version of Jazz from Transformers: Animated. Then the dream got warped and I started having erotic nightmares, and that's when my alarm went off.
I was really annoyed and thought of calling Eija and lying to hir that I was sick, so I could sleep more. But then again, this would be our last meeting and not to mention I would get free food, so I went out to the parking lot to wait for hir.

Zie picked me up on hir car, we drove to Helsinki. We went to Kiasma, the modern art museum, and had a good time even if we didn't stay too long; after that Eija drove us to Myyrmanni and we went to RAX, a restaurant with an all- you- can- eat buffet. I ate only one plate of food so I wouldn't feel sick, and drank a cup of cocoa.

Eija bought me a box of chocolates, then we departed. I went back home, and found a particularly interesting Finnish Tumblr blog to check out.

Later the day I went to the fitness center to visit the gym. I walked on the treadmill on Rolling Hills setting for half an hour and then used the exercise machines, but I didn't feel like putting my heart into it. I also decided not to go swimming, so I just went back home.

For the rest of the evening, I felt a bit sad again, but otherwise I was alright.
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