Monday, June 8th: Happy birthday, quadruplify! My ASPA worker will visit me at eleven o'clock in the morning (11:00 am). I will have an appointment with my therapist at three o'clock in the afternoon (3:00 pm). After that, I am going to visit Heluna Shop in Sörnäinen and ask them if they have biker boots in my size.
Tuesday, June 9th: If I awake early, I will go to the parish at the local church and ask them to give me a coupon I can use to renew my fitness center membership. If so, I will go to the gym and work out as usual.
Wednesday, June 10th: I will receive money. The first thing to do is to go to the bank as soon as it's open, withdraw the money and buy the necessary food and hygiene products. If I didn't renew my fitness center membership on Tuesday, I will renew it today with my own money. If I can afford it. I will go to the Urbanears design shop in Iso- Roba and buy a new pair of ankle socks. If I have enough time and money left, I will go to the movies to see Mad Max: Fury Road.
Thursday, June 11th: Nothing special.
Friday, June 12th: If I have renewed my fitness center membership, I will go to the gym.
Saturday, June 13th: I will do the usual housework.
🐞 I really have to consider my relationship with food; I am very rarely hungry or even a bit peckish, and I have a really poor appetite. I have been thinking of "force- feeding" myself; that is, I eat a breakfast every morning and then eat a few healthy snacks during daytime, like fresh fruits and vegetables, sandwiches, glasses of milk and lots of water.
🍩 My mother will be 65 years old on June 15th, and she is still tickin'! She manages to work and keep the house clean and the fridge stocked, and my dad is seven years younger and just lies in bed filling sudokus.
🍒 I'm ashamed that I have such an amazing bicycle, and I rarely use it. I guess it's because I eat so little that I don't have much energy to go for bike rides; it's the same, like if you don't fuel your car, the car won't work. I am already working on that problem.
🍍 Tomorrow when I go to Helsinki for the therapy appointment, I have to visit Matkahuolto service point and ask them why does their website say that there aren't any buses traveling to Kangasala this month. I guess it's because there are so little customers during summer, so they might have canceled it. If that is the reason, I will travel to Tampere on a bus and then to Kangasala in a local bus, it doesn't cost that much.
🐌 My grandmother, the one who lives in Kangasala, has fallen ill and has had to visit a hospital for a week. I'm very worried about her, I hope she will be okay, at least when I go visit her around Midsummer.
🐢 Another thing I need to do in Helsinki, is to go to Torkkelinmäki and visit Heluna Shop, and ask them if they still have "Engineer Airseal boots", or as I like to call them, "vegan biker bitch boots", in European size 40/British size 7. If they do, I am going to buy a pair this month, or if I won't be able to afford them, I will buy them next month when I receive more money.
🐥 Next week there's going to be a renovation in this house, the common rooms like drying room and bicycle stall are going to be repainted. I can keep my bicycle in my balcony, but I guess I need to take my laundry to my parents' house to have it dried, there's no other place where I can put it.
🌁 I have decided not to visit my parents all too often; this week I have visited them almost every day, even if my mother has said it's okay for her and dad, I am still worried. Which reminds me, mom said today that I am independent and she is happy for that, but I am still worried. I have decided that from now on I will only visit them on Sundays, and also when I go asking for money.
🍬 To be honest, the only reason why I visit them is, not only the money, but because they have coffee. I used to hate coffee for most of my life, but when I became addicted to Frezza Mocca, a Finnish brand of iced espresso that is sold in refundable plastic bottles in most grocery shops, I learned that I can make my own coffee; half a cup of coffee, half a cup of milk, and lots of sugar. I was hooked instantly, and now I kind of regret it but I also think that because I were able to overcome my chocolate addiction, I am also able to overcome my coffee addiction. I could also buy coffee grounds for my own home, but then I drink it too much and the caffeine messes with my medication.
🌼 I have decided to do a complete makeover on my life habits, one of them is that every time I sit by my working desk, I won't sit in the same position where I am sitting on my left leg bent under my butt. I have also decided not to poke the wall with my toes because the wall is getting dirty, it has these black toe prints all over it.
I stayed awake till midnight, watching Doctor Who on Netflix. I watched the episodes The Impossible Planet and The Satan Pit. At this moment, I am in the episode Fear Her.
In the morning I had such weird ass dreams that I was forced to get up, even if it was still early and didn’t exactly feel like getting up. I took my morning medicine, brushed my teeth, took a shower and washed my hair, dressed up and didn't feel like having a breakfast.
I was thinking of going to see my parents, I called my mom and asked them if it's okay that I come a bit earlier, they said it was okay. I decided to travel to Raappavuori on a bus because I knew better that if I rode my bicycle, I would burn off all my energy, my blood sugar would go low, and I didn't "refuel" that morning when I didn't have a breakfast.
I took the bus 55 to Raappavuori, while waiting for the bus on the stop I watched when clouds drifted past the sun and the shadows appeared and disappeared, it was enthralling.
Mom and dad were both home. Later the day my brother Sami came to visit us, mom was happy that the whole family is united again. I didn't know why Sami visited us because they visit very little, later I learned it was because they needed to wash laundry.
I helped my mom cook lunch, we ate lunch together and had coffee and home- baked buns for dessert. I spent many hours inside my parents’ apartment, and wondered why every time I am at my own home, I feel like going out or I’ll go crazy with cabin fever, but when I go see my parents, I can stay inside for many hours and feel all cozy.
Later the day, about at three o’clock in the afternoon (3:00 pm) I started feeling the cabin fever so I walked to the Martinlaakso bus station and took the bus 45 to Myyrmäki. An English- speaking Christian preacher tried to talk to me, and I said that I wasn’t interested, and they backed off and said it was okay. I was amazed, it’s the first time I have ever seen a preacher back off.
Once home, I hoovered and mopped the floor, even from under the furniture. I washed a load of laundry and went downstairs to hang it into the drying room (a drying room is just a room with clotheslines where the tenants of an apartment house hang their laundry, and then a machine with turbines is turned on and the turbines create warm airwaves that dry the laundry), except for my underwear and other small laundry, which I hang on the radiator. I also washed the dishes, scrubbed the working desk and kitchen counter, ironed clothes, and kept my kitchen window and balcony door open while cleaning.
I was thinking of going for a bike ride, but then I noticed that it’s getting quite late. I went anyway, and I noticed that it was windy, I was almost blown off my track. I merely circled around the neighborhood and admired the street art, and then went back home. I guess I’ll try again tomorrow.