23rd June 2015

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I didn't have any trouble getting up from the bed early in the morning. I took my morning medicine, brushed my teeth, took a shower, stretched and exercised, dressed up and had a breakfast.

I thought about my finances for a while. Right now I have 80 euros and tomorrow I will receive the same amount, so I can afford groceries. But I have to use the money to buy a new pair of sturdy, heavy- duty vegan biker boots; they don't come in cheap, but then again, high quality goods are pricey.

I called the parish and asked if I can get a coupon for groceries. They told me to come over, as it was Tuesday and the parish is open on Tuesdays and Fridays at 9 - 11 am.

I went to an ATM machine in Myyrmanni shopping center and printed my account statement. Then I walked to the church in Louhela, and went to the parish. The parish worker who serves me, I call him JP, is a very kind and bohemian person. I told hir about my situation, and actually showed hir my current boots that were falling apart. Zie had written me a coupon for 25 euros to S- Market in Iso- Myyri shopping center.

I walked to the aforementioned shopping center and went to S- Market. I took out my calculator and every time I grabbed another product, I subtracted the price from 25 euros. Soon I had all the food products I needed, so I threw in some hygiene products. In the end I had a pound of tomatoes, pound of satsumas, bunch of bananas, can of milk, a cucumber, and lettuce in a pot. I also bought a brush for washing dishes, a canister of laundry detergent and a canister of floor soap. All together it made 23 euros and 11 cents.

At the checkout, everything went smoothly. I felt almost cheerful when I returned home.

I put the groceries into their rightful places, and had a little snack.

Later the day I felt bored, so I ironed laundry, folded it and put it to the cupboard.
I still felt bored, so I wiped the coffee stains from my working desk and kitchen counter.
I didn't feel any less bored, so I rummaged through my cupboard and rearranged my stuff.

Later the day Juulia, the substitute to my ASPA worker came for a visit, like we had agreed. By then I felt ill; my head felt like splitting, my mouth was dry and tongue felt stiff, my vision was blurry, and I felt like throwing up.

We talked about stuff and then Juulia suggested that we go for a walk around the neighborhood so I could feel better, zie told me I might feel ill because I haven't got enough fresh air.

We walked through the nearby forest. I felt unhappy, so I mostly just complained to Juulia about stuff.

We went to Myyrmanni pharmacy because there's a water fountain, I drank a glassful because the summer heat, sick feeling and talking a lot made my mouth dry. Juulia waited for me, then we walked through the shopping center just to show hir the places, and I went to the restroom to take a pee, Juulia had to go too.

I walked hir to the bus station and said I am going to go see my parents, and apologized to hir for complaining a lot. Zie said it was okay.

I called my mother and told hir I am coming over. Hir first question was if I was going to beg for money, I said no.

The buses 55 and 530 had already gone, so I took the bus 52 to Martinlaakso and walked to Raappavuori.

Both mom and dad were home. I drank coffee, ate the rest of the blueberry pie from yesterday.

I felt bored because I had forgotten to take my diary along.

Later the day I hugged my mom goodbye and promised to come for another visit on Sunday.
I took the bus 55 to Myyrmäki and went to the same ATM machine to withdraw 80 euros; tomorrow I am going to withdraw another 80 euros, and I will go to Heluna Shop as soon as it is opened to buy the boots.

I felt like I needed a bit sustenance to cheer me up, so I went to Citymarket to buy a couple of treats. It took only 3 euros, I can still afford the boots.

Once back home, I ate some treats, took my evening medicine, and right now I am updating in my underwear.

As for tomorrow, I really don't have to visit Heluna as soon as it is opened, but I'm just being an antsy- pants.
I have planned to walk from Sörnäinen to downtown Helsinki in my new boots, and go for a walk in the trail in Viinikkala, in order to "soften" my new boots.
I should also go to the fitness center and visit the gym. I have no appointments or meetings or such for tomorrow.
  • Current Mood: okay okay
  • Current Music: Björk - Crying
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Food intake:
I had a bowl of oatmeal porridge, a banana, and a glass of milk for breakfast.
For midday snack I had buttered rye bread with cheese and cucumber slices, and a glass of milk.
When visiting my parents I ate three slices of a blueberry pie, three cups of coffee with milk and sugar, and a tomato. I also drank a glass of orange juice.
During the day I ate two bananas, tomatoes, and satsumas.

Exercise:
I stretched and exercised in the morning and evening.
I walked to Louhela, and back.

Feelings:
I have mostly felt bitter and moody as I usually do, because the delusions are wearing me down, but I also felt happy when visiting my parents; I took a short nap and felt comfortable, calm, and drowsy in a pleasant way. I felt a bit manic during daytime, and now in the evening I feel mostly alright.

I took my medicine both in the morning and evening, took my vitamin supplements during breakfast, and in the early afternoon I had to take two tranquilizers to calm down.
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☮ I have started a Finnish blog at miiushka.blogspot.fi, mainly it's just my real life entries in Finnish.

☮ I don't know if I have lost weight, but I don't look as chubby as I used to be. I have impressive biceps and my stomach is flatter, so I guess that exercising works.

☮ I don't know why I felt so ill today, I hadn't eaten anything spoiled. I have also sneezed many times for the past week which led me to think that I might be getting the flu. It's just that I usually analyze my bodily feelings a lot, simply out of boredom.

☮ I have pimples on my neck, shoulders, upper arms and shoulder blades. I would like to pop them, but I cannot reach them.