August 24th, 2015


Kewpie dolls and blueberry pies :>

Today I had another session of electro- convulsive therapy.
My alarm clock woke me up early, I put on my clothes and went back to bed, when my cellphone alarm rang it was time to make it to the bus.

I was taken to a small room where I lied on a hospital bed. A nurse slid a needle into my arm and inserted the anaesthetic. I woke up in a small room where I was given a cup of coffee, a glass of juice, and an oatmeal cookie, and I had to comb the electrocute gunk off my hair.
My mother picked me up, she brought me a Karelian pie and a can of iced latte.

I told mom that I have dropped out of the business school, she took it surprisingly well because she is usually very temperamental about my studies. I have been thinking about attending night school or some sort of special school for mentally challenged people, but not yet; I still have the electrotherapy, and besides, I don’t know what I should study. I still want to become a librarian, but they’re a dying breed.

We travelled to western Vantaa on a train, mom got off at Martinlaakso and I got off at Myyrmäki.

Once home, I took my morning medicine and my vitamin supplements, hoovered the floor and wiped some weird stains off it.

I received a notification about a package in the mail, it said that I can pick it up today after four o’clock in the afternoon. I knew it was from Carol Anne, zie had told me that zie sent me a package.

I travelled to Helsinki on a train and visited Amos Anderson art museum, once back in Myyrmäki I retrieved the package. It contained a dark- skinned Kewpie doll in a light yellow knit dress and a matching knit blanket, it was so adorable! It’s a perfect add to my trinket collection. THANK YOU, CAROL ANNE!

I called my mom and asked her if I can visit her and if she can give me some grocery money. I took a bus to Raappavuori, once in my parents’ home my mom gave me 14 euros. I made myself a cup of coffee and then I took another bus back to Myyrmäki, and went to Citymarket in Myyrmanni to buy a can of milk, a tube of sandwich spread, six kiwifruits, two small blueberry pies, and something else I probably forgot.

Tomorrow I need to wash my hair. I will have an appointment at the psychiatric clinic at two o’clock in the afternoon, and I will go to Helsinki Business School to fill out some forms and then I will officially be a drop- out. In the evening I will take part in the hobby group in Myöhätuuli.