8th April 2016


I have wanted to update almost every single day this week, but I feel like I am not able to divide my attention equally between my real- life paper diary, my English blog and Finnish blog. I want to give those three things equal attention, but it doesn’t always work.

I hope my period starts soon, it was supposed to start this week. At least I haven’t had swollen, tender breasts, moodiness, or cramps yet.

I have had a slight flu this week; my throat is sore, I feel hot and sweaty, and my head hurts. At least I don’t have a fever, and I also don’t have the general spaced out feeling I have when I have the flu, so I have been able to do housework and go out for errands and such.

I had dreams about many different cities in Finland, in most of the dreams I had gotten stuck in a city far from home and desperately tried to find a way back to my hometown. They were really unhappy dreams.

I got up at quarter to one o’clock in the afternoon, put on a panda bear- patterned pyjama pants and a stripy shirt. Mo

I went to see my psychologist today, we had an appointment at half past one o’clock this afternoon. She performed some personality tests on me, and they made me feel a bit downcast; I feel as if I am some sort of a laboratory animal, or a savage that they’re trying to civilize.

After the appointment, we agreed to have the next appointment on next week’s Wednesday at three o’clock in the afternoon.

I made it to the bus 574 and travelled to Martinlaakso, I visited the local parish and asked them politely for a food coupon. Me and the parish worker talked for a moment, and then I was given a voucher for 25 euros. It’s not much, but it’s something.

I went to the S- Market in the new shopping center and bought a big block of cheese, a bag of oranges, a bag of tomatoes, a box of butter, a big carton of milk, two bags of rye bread, and a cucumber.

I hauled my shopping bag to the bus station and took the bus 572 to Myyrmäki. I don’t think I have ever taken that bus.

Laajavuori elementary school, the same that my brother used to attend, is being demolished. I don’t know what they’re going to build there.

Once in Myyrmäki, I went home and put the groceries to their rightful places.

My friends Suavecita and Elisa came to visit me later the day, they knew that I would be wearing pyjama pants when I answered the door.

We had fun, drinking coffee and orange juice and eating brownies that they had bought, taking friendship selfies, chatting and laughing. I managed to iron my brown Dirndl dress and a pillowcase and five small towels.

Later the day we left at the same time, Suavecita drove back to her own home and Elisa came with me to the post office where I mailed Luisita’s package.

I decided to go see my parents, so I took the bus 571 to Raappavuori. Once in my parents’ home, I noticed that they had a new ornament on their front door, a straw wreath with white plastic flowers.

My dad was home watching Django Unchained, and my mother had gone for a walk.

Later the evening I went home.
I didn’t bother with brushing my teeth because I didn’t want to leave my flu bugs into my toothbrush.
  • Current Mood: sick sick
  • Current Music: Queen - Killer Queen

I slept quite well for most of the night, except that I woke up about at three o’clock in the afternoon to a tremendous coughing fit, and didn’t get any sleep after that.
I took my morning medicine and went back to bed, because I knew that if I went back to bed right after taking my morning medicine, I would sleep sweetly for many hours.
I slept to eleven o’clock in the morning, and had a dream about my friend Veera whom I haven’t met for a long time.
I got up and put on clothes, a t- shirt and the tartan skirt that I refer to as a kilt, except it’s not a genuine kilt, but an old lady skirt with a tartan pattern. I drank some orange juice to soothe my sore throat, and took a short nap.

As it was Friday, I replaced the towels and took out the trash.
Then I decided to go see my mother, I called her and told her I am coming over. She said it’s alright.

I took the bus 571 to Raappavuori. Mom was home, she was waiting for the repairer to come fix their shower, there was something wrong with it.

I made some coffee and looked at my baby photos. When I went to the bathroom, I noticed that I was peeing blood, which was a sign that my period had started. I didn’t have my mooncup at hand, so I used a sanitary pad.

After the visit, I took the bus 565 to Myyrmäki and visited Citymarket in Myyrmanni shopping center to buy a pound of Finnish tomatoes (I was running out of them), a jar of garlic cloves in chili sauce (I had heard that eating garlic may help your flu symptoms, along with spicy food), a small tube of Maybelline Dr Rescue cuticle salve (my cuticles are very dry), and a children’s bracelet, with purple, pink and white heart- shaped plastic jewels.
I also went to the pharmacy to purchase a new batch of Ketipinor. Right now I have enough prescription medicine for a while.

Once back home, I put the purchases to their rightful places and had some afternoon snack.
I rolled up the carpet and put it to the balcony, that’s all the housework I did today.

Later the afternoon I went to see my parents again, I called my mom and told her I am coming over, she said it’s okay.

First I took two books to the library, and then some half- full lotion bottles to the pharmacy for recycling.

I hung in the Myyrmanni shopping center for a while, feeling like everything was alright.

I took the bus 574 to Raappavuori, both of my parents were home. I had coffee and some snack, then I left again.
I walked to the Martinlaakso train station and took the I train to Helsinki.
I walked all the way to the Hietaniemi cemetery, I wanted to see the memorial site of the Romani people who served in the war. Today is National Romani day, except I didn’t hear about it in the media.

It was quiet and eerie in the cemetery, I didn’t really feel like anything except cold because a chilly wind blew from the sea. It was getting late but it was still bright outside.

I took two photos of the memorial site; there was a Christian cross and a wheel made of stone, and absolutely no flowers or candles.
I traced my footsteps back to the city center.
The shops weren’t closed yet, so I visited Tiger in Kamppi shopping center and planned what to buy to my Mayday indoors picnic.

I was afraid that I would be harassed or assaulted, considering that I was a lonely female out in downtown on a Friday night, but the only kind of comment I received was from an old man with a walker, he said “You’re wearing a beautiful dress!”, I said “Thank you” and put my thumbs up. Bless him.

I took a subway to the city center, then the bus 411 to Myyrmäki.
Once back home, I watched Doctor Who on Netflix, all the way to the episode Closing Time.