December 8th, 2016


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Last night I had one of my most reoccurring dreams, the one where I have been skipping school and feel guilty about it. But the good thing about bad dreams is that you always wake up from them.

Right after I had gotten up from my bed, what do you know, my good old friend PMS came for a visit.

I took my morning medicine, had a wash (right after I started using facial wash and beautifying face cream, I have become motivated towards having proper washed every morning and evening), tried on three different outfits before wearing a pair of black trousers and a red Nanso blouse with a white heart pattern, and soon it was time to go out.

I took my laptop along. I caught a train to Helsinki and walked all the way to Lappish Spring.

I was terribly angry and moody, but fortunately I felt better once I made it to the psychiatric center. Kata and Mella greeted me, and my mother was also there, she gave me 20 euros I had asked for yesterday.

I drank coffee and mulled wine, and ate sandwiches and chocolate chip cookies and a few nougat chocolate confections.

I updated my blog, and surfed on the Internet.

About at four o’clock in the afternoon, I decided to leave. I walked to the subway station, it was so crowded that I decided to take the next subway.

I got off at Kamppi, and went to Flying Tiger to buy four rolls of wrapping paper.

I took a train home, once there I put everything to their rightful places, and then I was off again.

I went to a restaurant close to my home, there was some sort of a Christmas carol sing- along. I didn’t stay long because I was still moody, and I was also terribly hungry even if I had eaten a lot during day- time.
It’s weird, I didn’t feel like I had an empty stomach, I just felt this instinct to have some nosh now that I was feeling moody.
I decided to go see my mother, because I needed to have someone close and besides, she would have coffee.

I was already on the bus when I called her and asked her if I can come over, she said it’s alright.

Once at my parents’ home, I made coffee, ate some salmiakki- flavoured chocolate waffle bites, and chitchatted with my mother. We agreed that she would give me the monthly allowance tomorrow.

At eight o’clock in the evening I took my evening medicine. I have taken up the habit of taking my evening medicine at eight o’clock every evening, so I will become sleepy sooner and that way I won’t stay awake all the way to midnight.

Later the evening it was time to leave. I caught a bus home, and went to the department store to look at Christmas stuff.

I didn’t go to the gym today, I was too moody and besides it was already getting late. Too bad I was feeling a bit bloated, it would have done me good to work out. Maybe next week.

Tomorrow morning the first thing to do is to replace my towels, take the bed sheets off my bed and wash them, and leave my blanket, pillow, and mattress to the balcony for the day.
My H&O worker will visit me at one o’clock in the afternoon. While she is visiting me, I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
In the afternoon I will meet my mother at the shopping center, she will give me the monthly 90 euros.