March 7th, 2017


Go make a difference!

I woke up about at one o’clock in the afternoon to a horrid headache, and I already felt bitter. I practically felt like I was lying in a pool of acrid, yellow bile.
I would have stayed in bed all day, but I had to go see my mother.

I got up, took my morning medicine, put deodorant into my armpits, and dressed up.
I had received a package in the mail; it was the book I had ordered from, Go M.A.D (make a difference)!. I read that book during my freshman year in high school.

I called my mother and told her I am coming over, she said it’s alright.
I took a bus to my parents’ home, and I was in a terribly angry mood because the delusions were bothering me. I knew it was because of my PMS, my period should start in about a week.

There was a bitingly cold wind, and it felt like it rained sharp ice- cold needles.

Once at my parents’ home, mom gave me twenty euros. I drank coffee, ate squeaky cheese (I love that name!), cashew nuts, cherry tomatoes, salt crackers, and a slice of a bun loaf.
I watched television with my mother and chitchatted with her.

Later the day I walked to the bus station and caught a bus back home. I have decided that from now on, after visiting my parents, I will walk to the nearest bus station in order to get exercise, and because there are more buses and a train that go to my home town.

I went to the local shopping mall, and bought a box of pantyliners, a big canister of fabric softener, a single tomato, and a box of blackberries.
Later the day I went back to the mall, and visited the stationery shop to buy an Easter card for my friend sweetcarolanne.

Once back home, the delusions just got worse. I took six tranquillizers and my evening medicine, and still didn’t feel any better. Actually, about an hour and half later my body started feeling drowsy, and my mind felt like TV static.
That’s the thing with tranquillizers; they calm your body, but not your mind.

And with a cherry on top, I recalled a bad memory when one of my friends had blamed me for doing something bad that I never did to them, and I couldn’t lose the thought.

Tomorrow will be a busy day! I will receive the weekly allowance, I will pay my artist friend 15 $ for a commission, and probably order a PDF book from, or a Tank Girl shirt. Then I will go to the nearest bank to withdraw the rest of the money, and buy a week’s worth of groceries.
I will go to movies with Suavecita and Mirette, we will go see Tom of Finland. After the movie, we will go to Girls’ House; there’s a celebration for the International Women’s Day.

On Thursday I will go to Lapland Spring, and then I will go to the gym.

On Friday, I will start doing the weekly housecleaning. My HoivaOnni worker will visit me in the afternoon.

On Saturday I will continue doing the housework, and go to the gym.

On Sunday I will go visit my parents.