March 21st, 2017



As usual on Mondays, I spent the entire day sleeping. I got up in the morning, took my morning medicine and put on clothes, and drank my morning coffee. Then I went back to sleep, intending to take a nap, but ending up sleeping all day.
I was a bit worried because I have felt very sleepy for the past week, especially Mondays. I guess it’s just “spring fatigue”, as we call it in Finland. I’m worried that I am going back to the ways I had when I moved out of my parents’ home to the youth hostel; I could sleep for about 18 hours a day.

Today I felt a bit perkier; I got up about at midday, took my morning medicine, had a wash and dressed up.
I drank my morning coffee, and then I went to see my mother. I called her and told her I am coming over, she said it’s alright.

I took a bus to my parents’ home. My mom was there, she gave me the weekly allowance and also the rest of last week’s monthly allowance.
I drank coffee and ate cinnamon rolls, green grapes, and cherry tomatoes. I watched old videotapes and looked at baby photos, the stuff I always do when visiting my parents.

Later the day I walked to the next bus stop, even if it was hailing straight into my face but it just made me laugh.

I took a bus to Mole Hill, and went to Hennes & Mauritz to buy a new shirt; pink with darker pink edges, and the text “Feminist” on the front with darker pink text, with long- stemmed roses replacing the I letters.
I also bought three gifts for sweetcarolanne, and two rolls of Easter bunny and chick- themed canvas tape. I also bought a lip balm, two pump- action bottles of hand soap, and two pairs of rubber gloves, one for washing the dishes and one for general tidying up.

Once back home, I noticed that I was feeling anxious, out of focus and moody, so I popped some tranquillizers.
I went to the supermarket to buy lunch, and I was feeling absolutely furious. One wouldn’t guess what kind of feelings low blood sugar causes.

I had lunch, and wondered what to do for the rest of the day. Soon the effect of the pills settled in, and I started to feel like my mind was a television that showed nothing but static.
I was thinking of going to the gym, but there was no way I could exercise when I was so moody and out of focus.
I decided to go for an urbane adventure, even if it was getting late. I took a bus to Eastern Helsinki, then a subway to the city center, then a train back home.
I have noticed that most of the time when I am in Helsinki during late evenings, I don’t feel unsafe. It feels enthralling to be outside when there’s darkness.

Once back home, I made some supper and then it was time to take my evening medicine.
I took a shower and brushed my teeth.

Tomorrow I will receive both the monthly allowance and the weekly allowance, which is about 215 euros. I will order two pairs of socks from, pay for my Spotify Premium and Netflix subscriptions, and withdraw the rest of the money.
I will go to my favourite thrift stores to buy new clothes, and then I will go to Horror Shop and ask Perkele to put a new piercing ring into my right ear.
After that, I will go to the supermarket to buy a week’s worth of food.