October 8th, 2017


The Good Place

I watched the entire first season of an amazing TV show named The Good Place on my Netflix app. It’s amazing how you can enjoy watching it on such a small screen.
I enjoy reading books and watching movies and TV shows about life after death without any kind of religious aspects, such as Kneller’s Happy Campers (and the movie based on it, Wrist- cutters: a Love Story) and the book & movie The Lovely Bones.

I stayed awake all the way to three o’clock on Friday morning, and slept for a couple of hours. Then I got up and started doing the weekly housework.
I went to see my mother, she gave me 40 euros. I bought a red tricot blouse, a tongue cleaner, and a Spotify gift card.

On Saturday I went to an animal shelter with Suavecita and Eleclya, there was this open day where you could look at the cats in their cages and pet the dogs. Then we went to Eleclya’s home for coffees.

Last night I had such nice dreams that I felt a bit sad after I woke up.
I got up, took my morning medicine, had a proper wash, dressed up, ate a decent breakfast, and did the face and neck exercises. I wanted to do the hand and foot exercises as well, but didn’t feel like up to it.
I had bought a new brand of oatmeal porridge flakes, and learned that it was supposed to be instant porridge. It tasted horrible and felt unpleasant in my mouth, I will buy the old ones next week.

I took a few short power naps, and then my friend Suavecita came to visit me.
She brought a bag of salt and vinegar crisps that I ate in a moment, green grapes, and other goodies. We had coffee and then we went to visit our friend Riga. We had a good time, she made us coffee and we ate the chocolate pralines Suavecita had brought, and petted Riga’s dog.

I went to see my parents, like every Sunday. I took a bus that accidentally drove on the wrong route, but I made it to my parents’ home.

Once at my parents’ home, mom fried some potatoes and tofu for me. I also ate cashew nuts, green grapes, goat cheese, and a cinnamon roll.
I had brought along my laptop, so I could use my parents’ internet connection to renew my Microsoft Word subscription.

Later the day, at eight o’clock in the evening, I took a bus back home. I was in a bad mood because the delusions were bothering me, once back in the safety of my own apartment I started arguing with the delusions. I felt very frustrated and bitter.

I took my evening medicine, and went to bed without having a wash. I’m not sure if it was because I didn’t have enough spoons for having a proper wash, or if it was simply because I was too busy indulging myself in my Etsy app.

I started feeling anxious to the point of being hysterical, and my nose started itching both from the inside and outside. The palm of my left hand hurt like it had been sprained.
I really don’t understand the reason behind these unexpected anxiety attacks. I have been thinking that if I ate more healthily, and exercised more often, I would feel better.