January 21st, 2020


What a nice day!

Last night I had a dream where I studied in high school because I wanted to convince my parents that I had something important to do during day- time. In the same dream, I studied in the first high school I ever attended (I have been in and out of three high schools), and all the other students were my ex- bullies. I wonder what they are up to right now, I haven't been to the class reunions because I was in the mental hospital at that time.

I have been thinking of going back to night school, so I can raise my grades, have something to do, and also keep my brain busy. I want to learn maths, English, Finnish, and philosophy.

In another dream, I was in a British library, borrowing books written by Hyacinth Bucket from Keeping up Appearances. In the dream, I was also dating Vyvyan Basterd from The Young Ones.

In yet another dream I was in a nice communal household in a town right next to my hometown. It was a nice dream, and I finally learned that the town was Mine Town and not Ore City as I had thought.

I woke up early, but didn't bother getting up because I had no reason to get up. I got up at two o'clock in the afternoon, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, got dressed, and left immediately.

I traveled downtown and this time I walked to Twinkle cafe instead of taking a bus or tram. Once there, Mella and Raija and Jusa and an elderly couple I didn't recognize from earlier were there. I ate some treats to the point where I got diarrhea, did some stretches, got four second- hand shirts, and then I left.

I walked back to the station, and once aboard the train, I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said yes. I offered my seat to an elderly lady, but she said she is fine.
I traveled to my parents' hometown and walked to my parents' home.

Once there, mom answered the door. She gave me the weekly allowance, I drank coffee and orange juice and ate cherry tomatoes.
Later that evening my dad came home, he was wearing a black beret. He hugged me and called me daddy's darling.

I walked back to my hometown and saw two bunnies and five dogs. I went to the shopping mall and bought six cartons of oat milk.

I went back home and put the oat milk into the fridge, took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils. I drank cocoa and put lotion on my face and shaved my chin hairs off.

I have decided that I will no longer take full body showers, instead I will wash my hair and armpits in the bathroom basin; I want to conserve water and my atopic skin.

Tomorrow Mirette will move into her own apartment; Perry will help her, and I will help her as well as I can. After that, I will wash my hair and do the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment. In the evening, I will go to a writing group.

On Thursday, I will go to Fountain House, and then to the swimming pool in my parents' hometown. In the evening, I will go to the youth group at the church and stay long enough to take part in the evening prayers.

On Friday, I will receive the weekly allowance. I will recharge my travel card, buy twelve Valentine's day cards, and buy at least four duvet covers from a thrand then I will go downtown with Mirette to celebrate the Chinese New Year. In the evening I will go to the Red Cross youth group.

On Saturday, I will go to movies to see the musical Cats. Along with that, I will do the usual housework; change the towels, tidy up the bathroom, wash laundry, take out the recycling.

On Sunday, I will go see the friend who is currently being treated in a hospital. After that, I will go visit my parents. If the weather is fine, I will walk back home.