February 11th, 2020


I keep having nightmares

Last night I had nightmares.
Me and my brother were teenagers, and we had a fist fight while we both cried our eyes off. I beat my brother with a dumbbell and killed him, and it didn't make me any happier.
In another dream, I was in my childhood hometown. My bicycle got stolen, and I found some rude notes tucked into my backpack by my grade school bullies.
I had a dream that was nice; it looked like a snowy winter evening, but it was actually morning. I was walking along the main road to downtown, holding my teddy bear, and I was in an actually good mood.
I woke up early between my nightmares, and fell back asleep again.
In the morning I got up, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, did the skincare routine, put on deodorant and basic lotion, got dressed, and put on a necklace.
When Mirette was awake as well, I helped her carry her belongings to her new home. We both took two bags, took a bus to another town, and had to use Google Maps to find our way there.
Her new apartment at the halfway house looks amazing, I hope she will get better there. I introduced myself to the workers, and then then we took a train downtown and went to Twinkle cafe.
I felt like it was already spring, because it was sunny and there wasn't a single flake of snow, nowhere at all. Even if I don't like global warming, I hope Finland will have snowless winters
because then you can walk and bike freely, and you don't have to wear tons of clothes, and you don't have to slip on ice or trudge through snowdrifts.
I ate four bread rolls, a handful of cherry tomatoes and a Jaffa cookie, and drank cocoa and coffee. I should lay off the lactose products, they only make me puke and fart.
We had a good time together. Mirette had to leave because she was going to Girls' House, it's her favorite place and that's also where we met each other!
There was Mella, Raija, two Annies, Mervi, and an eldery couple. There was also a cute cocker spaniel who belonged to the other Annie.
Later that day when it was time to leave I thought it would be nice to go to the nearby shopping center, but I knew Eleclya and Jazz would come for a visit.
I took a train back home, once there I washed my hands properly, then I had to go pee and wash my hands again.
Eleclya and Jazz couldn't come over, so I spent the evening doing housework. I didn't feel as anxious as I thought I would.
I watched Transformers: Prime on Netflix, listened to Fleetwood Max on Spotify, and watched clips of the musical Carrie on YouTube.
Tomorrow I will go to the health center and find out why my throat feels like there is some sort of fungus growing there.
After that, I will help Mirette carry some of her belongings to her new home.
In the evening, I will go to a library downtown, there will be a knitting group.
Once back home, I will fetch the laundry from the laundry drying room downstairs.
On Thursday, the first thing to do is to wash laundry and take them downstairs to the drying room where the residents dry their laundry.
I will go to the nearest stationery shop and ask the shop assistant to set aside some Valentine's day cards so I can buy them tomorrow.
In the evening, I will go to movies to see Kinky Boots.
On Friday, I will receive the weekly allowance and the monthly allowance. I will withdraw every single penny and go shopping; first I need to recharge my travel card, and then I will
buy the rest of the Valentine's day cards. I will also stamp and mail them, and go to a few places; the library to give the nice librarian lady her card, and then to the psychiatric center
to give my own nurse the card, and then to the dressmaker to give them a card as well, and maybe to Harashoo to give Perkele a card as well.
I will go to a library downtown, there is a Valentine's day themed happening; Mirette will be there as well.
On Saturday, if there still are Mirette's belongings around, they will be taken to the storage room downstairs. I will hoover and mop the floor, wash the dishes
I will go to the supermarket to buy Valentine's day treats; cocoa powder, strawberry juice, dark grapes, strawberries, raspberries, chocolate, cotton candy, and cupcakes.
On Sunday, I will host a Valentine's day party at my home.
After the guests have left, I will go visit my parents; my father will give me the weekly allowance and I will call my granny.