February 16th, 2020


Valentine's day party

Yesterday I went to the parish for some free coffee. For some reason or other, I was feeling a slight bout of self- hatred; I thought I might have forgotten to take my morning medicine.

Once back home, I felt even worse; I was on the verge of crying, which is usually a sign that something is wrong because I only cry when I am severely depressed. I also had worse delusions than usual.

I decided to head to the emergency room. Once there, I explained what had happened, and I got to talk with a psychiatric nurse. I told him what was wrong, and he told me that I should try some new medicine that helps me with the delusions.

I headed back home and went to sleep.

This morning I woke up and realized that Mirette had come home during the night, she had also taken a shower. Weird, I didn't hear her arrive, she must have been really silent.

I got up, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, and got dressed. I called my mother, she sounded surprised when she answered but said that I can come over.

I took a bus to my parents' home. I had wanted to ride my bicycle there, but it was raining.

Once there, my mother answered the door. My dad was home as well, later that day he went to the gym.
I drank coffee and orange juice and ate cinnamon rolls and cherry tomatoes.

My mother told me to wash my hair, so I took a shower. I put lotion on my skin, deodorant into my armpits, and my mother advised me how to style my hair.

I left and took a bus back home. My father had given me the weekly allowance, so I went to the supermarket and bought soy milk and some treats for the Valentine's day party today.

Once back home, I opened the window the let fresh air in and put everything to their rightful places.

The first visitor was Annie, then Suavecito. He brought plenty of goodies and presents.

One of my friends who is being treated in a psychiatric ward right now called me and told me that she is going to call me at 8:30 in the evening and I should tell her that Karelian people should have two husbands.
I called the psychiatric ward and told her own nurse about it, she told me that the friend is on a short vacation from the hospital, and she will call her and ask if everything is okay.

I was still a bit worried.
Later the day Annie left, I took some stuff like wrapping papers and a tabletop fan to the downstairs storage room.

I felt alright for the rest of the evening.

I had a terrible need to poop all the time, I probably had an acute bout of diarrhea. I also had to pee, and everytime I thought I had finished peeing, I peed some more.

Later that day, Suavecito left. We agreed to meet on Thursday and go shopping at our favorite vintage thrift shops, there is another discount sale.

I took my evening meds and brushed my teeth and sprayed Nasonex into both of my nostrils.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment at fifteen minutes past noon. If I am awake early enough, I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
I don't know what to do for the rest of the day, probably to a museum. 

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You know you're getting old when you get these weird bruises with no memory of receiving them xD

The cute bunny plushie from Suavecito as a Valentine's day gift :3

I feel pretty 👩🏼‍🎤

Valentine's day yumyums!


My plans for Monday, February 17th - Sunday, February 23rd

Monday, February 17th:
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at quarter past noon. If I am awake at that time, I will wash the dishes and iron the laundry.
I will wash a load of laundry and take out the trash. I will also visit an art museum.

Tuesday, February 18th:
I will go to Twinkle cafe, and then I will go visit my mother so that she can give me the weekly allowance.
I need to buy toothpaste for Mirette, and ingredients for making my own toothpaste; organic ground turmeric, coconut oil, and a proper jar for storing it.

Wednesday, February 19th:
I will go to the library downtown, there is a knitting and novel reading group.
Once back home, I have to fetch the laundry from downstairs drying room.

Thursday, February 20th:
I will go to the local library, there is a knitting and novel reading group.
After that, I will go visit my mother so that she can give me the monthly allowance.
I will meet my friends downtown, we will go to the thrift stores with vintage department. There is a special discount sale.

Friday, February 21st:
I will receive the weekly allowance. I will order omnibus tickets to my granny's hometown and back.
I will wash my hair, brush my teeth, pack my stuff, and iron the clothes I am taking to her home.
My omnibus leaves at twenty past six o'clock in the evening, I asked Mirette to keep me company while waiting for the bus to arrive.

Saturday, February 22nd:
I will go for a long walk, and then to the local art museum.
In the afternoon, me and granny will go to the sauna.

Sunday, February 23rd:
I will travel back home. I will go visit my parents so that my father will give me the weekly allowance.