May 10th, 2021


(no subject)

I always feel horrid when I wake up in the morning.

I took my morning meds and changed from nightie into a bathrobe, and made coffee.

I got dressed and called my mother to ask her if I can come over, she said yes.

I took a bus to my parents' home, mom let me in and dad was home as well.

Later that day, my mom and I took a bus to a shopping mall and after quarreling, mom bought me a pair of shoes.

We went back to my parents' home, I walked to the bus station.

I caught a bus home, later I left again and took a train downtown.

I went to the parish and talked with a priest. I told her that I believe all the problems in my life happened because God wanted to punish me for disobeying Him.

I took a train home. I took a shower and put hair oil into my hair and washed it, and then I put conditioner into it.
I also washed my armpits and put deodorant into them.

I applied basic lotion on my skin, and put on a fresh nightie.

I started to feel so furious and angry that I had to take two tranquilizers.

Tomorrow I will go to Twinkle cafe.
I will go to the gym and ask the receptionist to send the membership bill to my financial worker.
In the evening, I will fetch the laundry from the drying room.

On Wednesday, my care worker will come for the weekly appointment. I will wash the dishes, fold the laundry, change the pillowcase and towels, and scrub the toilet bowl.
I will go visit my parents.

On Thursday, I will go visit my parents.
I will take a shower, put conditioner into my hair, wash it and put on a hair mask.

On Friday, I will have an appointment with my nurse.
I will receive money.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework; take out the recycling, change the towels and bed sheets, and tidy up the bathroom.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. They will give me the weekly allowance.