June 12th, 2021


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I woke up early to a weird psychosomatic anxiety. I went to the bathroom and took a depression shower, and almost fell asleep on the bathroom floor. I went back to bed, dripping with water, and slept some more.

I got up in the morning, took my meds, brushed my teeth, did the morning skincare routine, and applied lotion on my skin.

I took the sheets off my bed and changed the towels, bagged the trash, washed two loads of laundry, and scrubbed the toilet bowl.

I went to see my friends Eleclya and Jazz. I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come over, they had been planning on having a little party today.

After getting the permission, I walked to their home. They live two train stops away from me, it was easy peasy lemon squeezy.

Once at their home, Jazz let me in. Anton showed up later, he brought a pillow shaped like a cat's head that he had bought from a thrift store. Simba took one look at it, and he immediately bristled and hissed at it, his tail going all puffy. We had to hide it. Miuku was being her usual lovely self.

Other people, such as Emppu and Odessa and Teemu and Ville showed up. We listened to music, watched The Simpsons, cracked jokes and had a good time together.

I left in the evening, I walked back home and picked up trash.

Once back home, I took my evening meds. I started having such bad anxiety that my heart lurched.

Tomorrow I will go visit my parents, they will give me the weekly allowance. I will call my granny.