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Today begun badly but turned out fine :3

Last night I had a dream where I went geocaching near my parents’ home. I want to try geocaching again, but I have pretty much lost my interest in the aforementioned hobby because I have never succeeded in it. And besides, it’s pretty frustrating to keep on having dreams about it. And besides, winter is coming and most of the caches will be covered in snow; that is, if it actually snows anymore.

I also had a dream where me and Kurt “Nightcrawler” Wagner from X- Men rollerbladed through the town where my maternal grandparents used to live and made love in the forest next to my grade school courtyard. Once back at the Xavier Academy, the Beast castigated us severely for leaving the academy in broad daylight, and me and Nightcrawler were both like “Never mind, at least we had a fun time!”

I also had the usual summer cottage dream.

I woke up with a headache. I didn’t bother with looking at my smartphone clock, because I had pretty much lost my interest in the passing of time.

When I finally got up, I logged in to my bank app and noticed that I had received money, woo and yay. It motivated me to get up.
I have also noticed that the money usually arrives to my account at 11:15 in the morning every Friday morning.

I got up and took my morning medicine and biotin supplement and threw up as soon as I had swallowed my pills.

I did the skincare routine and got dressed. Today I wore a fuchsia dress with a pattern of powder blue and yellow flowers over a pair of black leggings and a black long- sleeved shirt.
I didn’t bother with brushing my teeth or putting lotion on my skin. I have decided to brush my teeth and put lotion on my skin at least once a day.
I didn’t bother much because there was some shopping to do.

I went to an ATM machine; it could only produce 20- euro bills, and I needed to withdraw 70 euros. I went to the next one, it worked the same as well. Third time’s the charm, I withdrew money at a cryptic ATM machine, and went shopping.

(I prefer paying with cash because of my limited budget, then I will able to see how much money I have left.)

I went to the pharmacy and bought some eye cream that is meant for soothing inflamed eyelids. Here’s to hoping it will make me look like I wasn’t born stoned. I got a small amount of discount because I am a regular customer.
Then I went to an organic shop and bought a perfume- free roll- on deodorant and six packages of paper tissues. I have been thinking of buying pieces of cloth to blow my nose on, so I would save money and produce less garbage.
I also went to a beautician and bought a small tube of face mask.

The last place to visit was the supermarket; I bought four cartons of oat milk, a big package of toilet paper, and seven Christmas cards.

I went back home in a terribly bad mood. I don’t understand, my period is over, and I am still terribly angry.

I put the milk into the fridge, the hygiene products into my bathroom cabinet, and worked on the Christmas cards. Now I need to buy 43 cards more and then I will have enough; I counted that if I buy 15 cards every week, I will have enough cards by Christmas. And that’s probably when the postal strike is over.

After I was done, I took a train to downtown and went to the parish. I drank coffee, paid compliments, went to the bathroom to tighten my brassiere strap, put on more deodorant, and change my pantyliner. Later in the evening I left.

I took a longer train route back home, and then I went to a post box to mail two birthday cards.

I picked up some garbage on my way to the shopping mall, and I decided that from tomorrow on I will take up the habit of carrying a plastic bag and picking up all the garbage I can and put it into the recycling bins in my home yard.

I went back home. I was in such a terribly bad mood that I had to take a tranquilizer, and soon I felt better. I should take tranquilizers more often.
I put three different lotions on my face; eye cream, basic lotion, and cortisone lotion.
About a little before eight o’clock in the evening, I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils, shaved my chin and armpits, and then I put basic lotion on my skin and put on a fresh nightie. I still couldn’t be bothered to brush my teeth.

I played Free Rice and clicked all the free donation buttons on Greater Good website, both on my smartphone and on my laptop.
I have decided to play Free Rice every day and donate at least 10,000 grains.
I have pretty much fallen behind on my good person routine.

Along with that, every day when I go to the Greater Good website, I will also donate to the clause where you can watch a video, answer a question based on it, and that way it donates to the clause.
And what’s more, I will go to the library to do the same thing.

I watched The Good Place season two on Netflix, and then I listened to Carrie: The Musical soundtrack on Spotify. Which reminds me, I need to pay for my Spotify subscription.

Tomorrow morning, as soon as I get up, I will change the towels, take out the recycling, tidy up the bathroom, and wash a load of laundry. I have decided to use the 30 minute / 30 degrees setting in my washing machine to save time and energy.
After that, I will go to the library in my hometown to make the daily donations on as many mediums as I can.
When I go see Eleclya, I will visit the library in her hometown to use the computers to make donations there as well.
In the afternoon me and my friends will go to an animal shelter, there is a happening where you can pet all the animals. I will pet dogs, but I won’t pet cats because I am allergic to them.
After that, I will go to Berry’s pre- Christmas party.

On Sunday I will go to as many libraries as I can to make the daily donations.
I will go to a Christmas holiday opening party at downtown. After that, I will go visit my parents; my father will give me the weekly allowance and call my granny.
As for the money, I will buy ecological laundry detergent, and as for the rest of the money, I will buy Christmas cards.
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Karelian pies

Last night I had a dream where I played Pokémon: RED. In another dream, I was in a room filled with toys from the 1960’s and listening to The Ramones.

I woke up every once in a while to look at my smartphone clock. I got up at quarter to noon and went to the bathroom to pee for the longest time in my life. I emptied my keeper, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, dabbed lotion on my face, and got dressed.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over, she said I can. I took a bus to my parents’ home, and my mom answered the door.

I ate buttered Karelian pies, cherry tomatoes, and dark grapes. I drank orange juice and coffee.

Mom gave me a hundred euros, I reminded her that she had agreed to give me eighty euros now that she’s on pension, but she said it’s okay.

She also told me that I should go to a hairdresser to cut my hair into a neat bob and dye it, but I want to grow my hair long and not dye it anymore. I wish she would stop pestering me about it.

I left and took a bus to downtown, got off and took a tram, and made it to the culture center where the mental health fair was supposed to be. Mirette was waiting for me inside.

Fortunately, there was free entrance. I got plenty of free candy and didn’t see anyone I knew.

After the fair, I caught a bus to downtown and then took a tram to the parish. I drank coffee and talked with the others.

I went to the stationery shop to buy postage stamps and ink pen refills, and then went back to the parish to work on the greeting cards.

The postal workers are on strike here in my home country, and next Monday the bus drivers will be on strike as well. Everything is going to hell in a hand basket.

I took a train back home and went to the pharmacy to purchase the prescribed pain killers and anti- anxiety pills. Then I went to the supermarket and bought the cheapest lip balm.

I went back home and put the pill boxes to their rightful places. I took a shower, washed my hair, put lotion on my skin, and did the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment. I also ran out of the squeeze-out-of-tube face mask, I must buy more on Friday. I also need to buy eye cream from the pharmacy because my eyelids make me look like I was born stoned.

Later that evening I went out again; I recycled empty bottles and cans, mailed two postcards, and picked up some trash.

Once back home, I was decidedly miserable. I had nothing special to do, except wallow in my misery.

Tomorrow I will go to the Fountain House and ask them about jobs, just to appease my mother. In the evening, I will go to the youth group at the church.

On Friday, I will receive the weekly allowance. I will go see a Finnish movie and buy some cosmetic products like eye cream and face mask.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework; scrub the toilet bowl, change the towels, and take out the recycling.

On Sunday, I will go to a holiday season opening party downtown. After that, I will go visit my parents; my father will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny.
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I got my period today!

Last night I had a dream where I studied as a dressmaker. The school building itself looked like a huge shopping mall with stands that sold make- up and jewelry.
In the dream, I chose a tester for foundation and used it to reduce the dark rings around my eyes; it turned out it was eyeliner, and it made the rings even darker!

I woke up and realized that I had got my period. I went to the bathroom, put in my keeper, and put on a pair of panties with a pantyliner.

I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, changed from my nightie into a bathrobe and made coffee.

I did the skincare routine, put lotion on my skin, and got dressed.

I was in a terribly bad mood and the delusions bothered me worse than usual. I had to take a tranquilizer to help myself calm down.

At half past one o’clock in the afternoon my care worker came over; I managed to wash the dirty dishes and have a nice talk with her about religion, politics, and how they affect my life.

After the appointment we agreed to have the next one on next week’s Wednesday at half past noon.

We left at the same time and took the same train downtown. We even went to the same shopping mall, where we departed.

I went to the parish to drink coffee and talk with the others until the coffee serving stopped at four o’clock in the afternoon.

I was thinking of buying a small bar of chocolate from a special chocolate shop but they only accepted card payment, I only had cash. I didn’t mind, and instead went to a grocery shop to buy a cream bun.

I caught a bus to Mill Brook, and then a subway to downtown. I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come over, she said I can’t because she’s going to a pub with a couple of her friends. I said it’s alright, we will meet tomorrow when we will go to movies.

I went to a grocery shop to buy cocoa powder, and then I went to a library downtown and used five computers to click all the donation buttons on the Greater Good website.

I caught a train back to my hometown. I wanted to go to the local library, but it was already closed.
Instead, I went to the shopping mall and visited a few shops to look for Christmas stuff.
I mailed a greeting card, and then I went back home.

I made some cocoa, and then I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nose.

I tried to fart, but almost ended up pooping my pants. I decided to completely stop farting, whether I am at home or somewhere else.

I hope the health center renews my prescriptions soon; I need two kinds of painkillers, cortisone liquid for my scalp, and my anti- anxiety pills.

One of my dreams came true tonight; when I was a young girl, I used to go to the library in my hometown to play point- and- click games. There was one that was very quirky and hard to beat, and today I got to watch a Let’s Play video based on the game on YouTube. Yay!

Tomorrow I will go visit the library, and then my mother so that she can give me the weekly allowance. As it is Eleclya’s name- day, I will give her a card and we will go to movies to see Maleficent 2: Mistress of Evil. I will pay both our tickets as a gift for her.

On Wednesday, I will go see my mother again so that she can give me the monthly allowance. I will recharge my travel card, visit the library, and then I will go to the Mental Health fair with Mirette.
After that, I will do some discreet shopping; I will buy all the postage stamps I need for the rest of the year, six for outside Finland and then for Finnish mail. If I have enough money after that, I will buy a suit coat and a scarf.

On Thursday, I will go visit Fountain House, then the library, and then I will go to the youth group at the local church.

On Friday, I will receive the weekly allowance. I will order a gift for a friend from Etsy.com, and perhaps go to movies to see either of two Finnish movies. Or I might go see two on the same day? I will also go to the library.

On Saturday, I will do the usual housework; replace the towels, take out the recycling, and tidy up the bathroom. Me and a couple of friends will go to a happening in an animal shelter downtown.

On Sunday, I will go to a holiday season opening party downtown, and then I will go visit my parents. My father will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny.
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My plans for Monday, November 18th - Sunday, November 24th

Monday, November 18th:
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at half past one o'clock in the afternoon. I will wash the dishes during the visit.
After the appointment, I will go buy a stamp so I can mail a greeting card to a friend.
Then I will go to the parish.

Tuesday, November 19th:
I will go see my mother so she can give me the weekly allowance.
As it is Eleclya's name- day, we will go to movies to see Maleficent 2: Mistress of Evil.

Wednesday, November 20th:
I will go see my mother so she can give me the monthly allowance. The first thing to do is to recharge my travel card.
I will go to the Mental Health fair, after that I will do some discreet shopping.

Thursday, November 21st:
I will go to Fountain House, and then to the youth group at the church.

Friday, November 22nd:
I will receive the weekly allowance, the first thing to do is to order a gift from Etsy.
I will also mail a couple of birthday cards.

Saturday, November 23rd:
I will go to the local shopping mall, there is a holiday season opening party.
After that me and and a couple of friends will go to a happening in an animal shelter where you can pet dogs.
After that, I will go to another mall to another party.
I will also do the usual housework; take out the recycling, clean the bathroom, and change the towels.

Sunday, November 24th:
I will go to the holiday season opening party downtown, and then I will go see my parents. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny. 
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Bummed out...

I didn’t update yesterday because I was so bummed out that I felt like crying.
I got up in the morning, took my morning medicine and biotin supplements, did the skincare routine, got dressed, and went to the parish.
I was even more bummed out when I noticed that they didn’t have any coffee, there was just mulled wine. I decided to go see my parents so I could have some coffee.
I went to see Eleclya as well, Suavecito and Cherry and Eddie the bunny were there as well. Cherry showed me some of her old photos, I ate some crisps and drank cocoa.
Once back home, I took a depression shower and washed my hair.
I wonder why I feel the need to take so many depression showers. I guess it’s because my ancestors were probably mermaids and my instinct tells me to return home.

Last night I had a dream about the summer cottage once again, those dreams have returned. I also had a dream about the first Silent Hill videogame, and about studying sewing in high school.

I woke up very early, it was about half past five o’clock in the morning. My internal clock was about two or three in the morning.

I tried to find a comfortable position to sleep in, because my lower back was aching again.

I got up about at eleven o’clock in the morning, took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, brushed my teeth, did the skincare routine, put lotion on my skin, and got dressed.

I always keep circulating the same outfits, it’s either the Dirndl dresses or two of my favorite flowery dresses.

I called my mother and asked her if I can come over. As soon as she answered, she said I can come over.

I was in a terribly bad mood.
Once at the bus stop, I remembered the promise I had made to myself; not to quarrel with the delusions anymore. I always forget it and don’t remember it until later that day.

I took a bus to my parents’ home; once there, mom answered the door. My brother was home as well, and my father came home later.

I ate mashed potatoes, slices of bun loaf, and cherry tomatoes. I drank coffee and orange juice.

I was given the weekly allowance. I will save most of it until Tuesday when I go see a movie with Eleclya, so I can pay my ticket.

Later that day I took a bus back home.
I made the weekly phone call to my granny and we talked for a while.
I washed three loads of laundry, re- arranged some stuff, tidied up my bathroom, and when I left, I took out the household waste and biological waste.

I went to the shopping mall to hang around and look for new Christmas stuff, and then I went to the supermarket to buy oat milk so I can drink coffee.

Once back home, I scrubbed the toilet bowl and wiped the worst stains off the bathroom floor. At some point, I took out the rest of the recyclable waste; plastic, glass, metal, paper, and carton. Then I took the laundry downstairs to the drying room.
There was some other resident’s laundry, so I hung all the clothes I could fit there, and then I took the rest of the laundry upstairs to my apartment and hung it on the drying rack. It fit perfectly.

I chatted with another resident on my way upstairs.
I washed the plastic canvas bags, the ones where I keep the recyclable waste.

In the evening, I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils. Then I brushed my teeth.

Tomorrow my care worker will come for the weekly appointment at 1:30 pm, I will wash the dishes.

I have noticed that I have been feeling lethargic and grumpy these days, I guess it’s the dark season. But the thing is, I don’t remember this happening the past years when it has been equally dark and cold. I guess my vitamin reservations are running low, and I don’t exercise all that much. I guess I should start exercising more and taking vitamin supplements.
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What a funny dream!

​Last night I had such a funny dream that I woke up chortling to myself. I didn’t get much sleep after that, so I got up, took my morning medicine and biotin supplements, brushed my teeth, put lotion on my skin, did the skincare routine and got dressed. By then it was about half past four in the morning.

I grew impatient while waiting for the weekly and monthly allowance to arrive to my account. I watched Keeping up Appearances, updated my Facebook, and did a little bit of this and that.

Later that day, about at half past eleven o’clock in the morning, I went out for errands; I returned a pile of books and DVDs to the library; visited the bank to ask what was wrong with my bank app on my smartphone (it just needed updating), and purchased two boxes of my anti- psychotic medicine from the pharmacy.

I went to the library to read books until the money arrived at my bank account. It arrived about at 11:50 am, I guess it’s the usual time when it arrives. Then I borrowed a laptop and ordered a stack of return address stickers, then I ordered Christmas gifts from Wish.com.

I went to the shopping mall and withdrew the rest of the cash. I went to the supermarket and bought a toilet brush and holder for it (I was supposed to buy a biodegradable wooden toilet brush and holder from the eco- shop downtown, but it was too expensive), two boxes of panty liners (after the holidays, I am going to start investing for cloth pantyliners. After the holidays because that’s when I don’t have to buy cards, treats, decorations, and gifts), a bottle of face toner (it took me a while to pick because they had such a large selection), a container of bicarbonate of soda, and two bottles of apple cider vinegar, and lots and lots of greeting cards, about twenty of them! I also bought two Finnish postage stamps.
I also had to buy face scrub, but noticed it was ordinary wash gel with some particles in it before I paid for it. I bought proper face scrub instead.

I went back home, worked on the greeting cards, put the medicine and beauty products and the toilet brush to their rightful places in the bathroom and cleaned my toilet bowl; I powdered it with the bicarbonate of soda and poured some apple cider vinegar into it. It made such a satisfying fizz and the toilet bowl was sparkling clean but smelled even more rancid than any of my farts.

I decided to leave and go to the parish. I took a train to downtown and went there.

I talked with the others, paid plenty of compliments, read books, and worked on the greeting cards. I ordered a cute picture to hang on my wall, two pairs of earrings (one that looks like medicine capsules, and one that looks like realistic strawberries) and a Scottish thistle brooch from Wish.com.

In the evening I thought it would be eight o’clock, but it was only half past five. I decided to leave and go back home before it got too late.

I visited a grocery shop to buy proper toilet cleaner, and then I took a train back home. Once there, I mailed two name- day cards and went back home.

I put everything to their rightful places, plugged my smartphone to the charger, updated my Microsoft Word subscription.
I was overjoyed to notice that Mirette had taken out the recycling that was brimming over, thank you!

Tomorrow I will wash laundry, replace the towels, and take out the rest of the recycling.
I will go to a museum, and perhaps to the parish as well.

On Sunday I will go see my parents. I will take a bus there and back.
My father will give me the weekly allowance and I will call my granny.
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In a sour mood

Last night I had plenty of dreams, but the dreams were so weird that I don't know how to write about them.

Anyway, I was already awake and in a sour mood before my alarm clock rang. I turned off the alarm before it rang, and then I got up.

I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, had coffee, and took a shower. I washed my hair, armpits, and face, put deodorant into my armpits, applied face tonic, face serum, face cream on my face and put castor oil on my eyelashes. I might stop doing the eyelash routine, because it makes my eyelids swell.
I put lotion on my skin, and put on a pretty frock.

I went to the library, and made it there in time. I volunteered as a reader in the knitting group.
Irina welcomed me to the group, and there was also a dirty old man who kept on talking about himself, but he left before the group began.

In the middle of my reading, an old drunkie started talking loudly to his phone. Irina went to him and told him off, and he called her a cow and a whore.

I managed to read the novels I had chosen, but I felt anxious because of the men who had harassed us. After I had read the novels, I read a couple of poems too.

After the group, I went home. I was supposed to brush my teeth and do some stretches, but I forgot.
I called my mama and asked her if I can come over, she said I can. I took a bus to my parents' home, mom answered the door.

I drank coffee and orange juice, and ate cherry tomatoes and buttered oat bread.

I went to my old room, lied on the bed, and farted a couple of times. It was noisy and smelly, but fortunately my mother didn't notice.

I stayed over until it was time to go to the youth group at the church. I took a bus to my hometown and went to the church.

I had a good time at the group.

Later that day I left and went to the shopping mall. I visited a few shops, and then I went back home.

I had many bouts of diarrhea today.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils. I made a few sandwiches and then I watched The Good Place on Netflix.

I feel strangely happy and content.

Tomorrow I will receive my weekly and monthly allowance from my guardian of interest. I will order Christmas gifts from Wish.com.
As for the rest of the money, I will go shopping at the local mall. I need to buy this month's and next month's greeting cards and proper postage stamps for them; a small glass jar for storing homemade toothpaste; a toilet brush; toilet paper and household paper; face tonic and face scrub; a bottle of apple cider vinegar, bicarbonate of soda, raw organic coconut oil, and turmeric. I will use the apple cider and bicarbonate of soda to clean my toilet bowl, and the coconut oil, turmeric, and bicarbonate of soda to make toothpaste.

On Saturday, I will do the weekly housework; replace the towels, and scrub the toilet bowl.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. I will receive the weekly allowance from my father, and I will call my granny. 
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Why am I unhappy, if I have no reason to be unhappy?

Yesterday I had a dream where I was geocaching in my neighborhood, and finally found the cache I had been looking for. Then I woke up, you can imagine my disappointment when I realized it had been a dream.

I woke up feeling unhappy, but I still managed to take a shower, wash my hair, and do the twelve- step Korean skincare regiment.

My care worker came over when I was wearing a coffee- and- silk protein face mask. I talked to her about my problems, but I didn't have enough spoons to wash the dishes.
Then I went to the bathroom to rinse my mask off, and put lotion on my skin, put on nice clothes, and some jewelry.

We made a new appointment on next Monday at 1:30 pm. When we both left, Mirette came over.

I traveled downtown and went to the parish. I drank coffee, talked with the priest, and paid assorted kindnesses to other people. It made me feel happier.

I also went to a few shops, and then I traveled back home. Mirette was there, making new reflectors.

Later that evening I took a depression shower, put on a nightie, and went to bed.
Mirette went to her own home.

Last night I had a dream where I was visiting a friend who lived in a gorgeous old- timey mansion.
In the dream we watched Pokémon cartoons where I learned that Pokémon were slaughtered for food, and it made me cry and I decided that I am going to become a vegan.
I asked my friend for some new clothes, and she gave me a 1980's terrycloth jumpsuit, purple with a pink baby seal pattern.
My friends Suavecito, Eleclya, and Mirette were there as well.

I got up about at noon, took my morning medicine and biotin supplements, and did the everyday skincare regiment; face wash gel, face toner, face serum, cold cream, eye cream, and castor oil on my eyelashes.

I made some vanilla- flavored instant coffee.

I went to the health center, I had an appointment today. I talked with the nurse about my assortment of pimples and rashes and scabs, and that I need an appointment for a mammography. At some point I should get a flu shot.

The only appointment for my doctor was available on January 27th at 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I decided to accept it.

After that, I traveled to Twinkle cafe. Mella and Raija were there as well.
I ate four pastries, six sandwiches, a handful of cherry tomatoes, and two cinnamon rolls. I also drank cocoa and a cup of coffee.
No wonder I had such a diarrhea.

Later that day, I took a tram and two buses to my parents' home. Mom wondered a bit why I was so late, but I couldn't answer because I had to dash to the bathroom.

Mom gave me the weekly allowance. I ate some buttered oat bread and drank orange juice.

Later that day, I took a bus back to my hometown, and deposited the allowance into my bank account so I could pay for my Netflix subscription.

Once back home, I watched Green eggs and Ham on Netflix, I liked it very much.

Tomorrow I will go to Fountain House, then I will go shopping for new winter shoes with my mother. We decided not to buy shoes from the supermarket anymore, they break easily.
In the evening, I will go to the pharmacy to order more of the anti- psychotic medicine and ask for some kind of calming lotion for my red and swollen eyelids.

On Thursday, as soon as I get up from my bed, I will wash my hair so I will look fresh when I volunteer as a reader at the local knitting & novel reading. In the evening, I will go to the social group at the local library.

On Friday, I will receive both the weekly and the monthly allowance from my guardian of interest. I will go see a Finnish movie, order Christmas gifts from Wish.com, and buy greeting cards for the rest of the month and December, along with proper postage stamps. I will also buy a suit coat, and a proper scarf to wear during spring and autumn.

On Saturday, I will go see another Finnish movie, and I will also do housework; take out the recycling and change the towels.

On Sunday, I will go see my parents. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will also call my granny. 
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We don't need no education... Yes you do, you used a double negative!

Last night I had a dream where I watched a production of the musical or the movie Carrie where the titular character Carrie White was Jewish.

I also had a dream where I studied in junior high with all my former classmates, despite being in my 30s, for some bureaucratical reason. In the dream, summer break began and I walked home, singing softly “We don’t need no education” and “School’s out for summer”.

In another dream, I rode my bicycle through a forest to my first high school, and the forest turned out to be really creepy and scary. In the dream, I was invited to an “anarchy festival” and my friends Suavecito, Eleclya, and Mirette came there as well. I grabbed a “guinea pig care package” which included treats for guinea pigs and an information booklet. In the dream, my parents had adopted a new guinea pig right after the last one died.

In another dream, I was in a shopping mall looking for a new backpack.

In yet another dream, I was in some sort of a festival, babysitting a friend’s kids. We both fell in love with a special treat, crispbread with mint chocolate candies.

In another dream, I was in a thrift store looking for new clothes, and I bought a miniskirt made from some sort of shiny fuschia fake leather.

I woke up early, in the small hours, and noticed that I had slept for about two hours and already felt like getting up. I continued sleeping and got up about at noon.

I took my morning medicine and biotin supplement, brushed my teeth, did the skincare routine, put lotion on my skin, got dressed, and put on jewelry.

I called my mother and told her I am coming over, she said it’s alright.

I was thinking of walking but decided to take a bus instead.

Once at my parents’ home, mom answered the door and dad was also home. I was given the weekly allowance.

I drank coffee and cocoa and orange juice, ate some buttered slices of oat bread and cherry tomatoes and cinnamon buns.

I was thinking of walking back home, but it was raining hard. I took a bus back home, and went to the shopping mall to buy a biodegradable toothbrush, ecological hand wash liquid, a big bar of chocolate, and an eyelash brush.

I went back home.
I bagged the trash, folded the laundry, and put some castor oil on my eyelashes.

Later that day I called Eleclya and asked her if I can come over, she said I can.

Once at her home, Cherry and Eddie were there as well. I had bought milk so I could make cocoa.

We told jokes to each other and talked about scouts, Eleclya had been a girl scout for a while when she was a kid. She even got an honor badge from making knots.

Later that day, I traveled back home and mailed a birthday card to a friend. I hope it will be delivered in time, the postal workers here in Finland are on strike.

Once back home, I took my evening medicine and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils.

I called my granny, we talked for a while. I felt happier after talking to her.

For the past few evenings, I have felt so angry that I feel like there’s a fire burning myself from the inside. I guess it’s my PMS.

Tomorrow I will take a shower and wash my hair and do the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
My care worker will come for the weekly appointment at half past one o’clock in the afternoon, I will wash the dishes during the visit. After that I will go to the library, and then to a museum.
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Game over, I am afraid

Last night I had a dream where I was in some sort of a special school for children who used sign language. It resembled one of those 1990’s game arcades; most of the games were a bit scary, and one of them had this animatronic swan head and neck, and it nibbled you when it was “Game over”.
In the dream, I noticed I was in a part of the downtown, but it had turned into a farmland. I was desperately trying to find my way back home.

In another dream, I played one of those kids’ PC games I used to play in the library of my hometown when I was a kid, but it annoyed me how I never advanced in that game. It was almost impossible to beat.

I woke up early, about at ten o’clock in the morning, and felt already finished with this day. I shooed the banana flies away and continued sleeping.

I got up at half past one o’clock in the afternoon, took my morning medicine and biotin supplements. I got dressed and dabbed lotion on my face and put on a necklace.

I had received two things in the mail; a package which was an order from Etsy, and a greeting card from a friend.

I was grumpy because I didn’t have any milk so I couldn’t have coffee, but then I realized that I could have gone to a café now that I had money.

I went to an ATM machine and deposited 10 cents into my bank account, so I could withdraw a proper amount of money. When I turned away and left, an elderly lady said “Hi!” to me. I greeted her back and asked her if she knows me from somewhere, and she rudely snapped “Well duh, I am the one who is next in line to use the ATM! Are you blind or something?!”
It made me feel a bit sad, I didn’t understand why she had stalled me if she was in such a hurry to use the ATM?

Nevertheless, I went to another ATM and withdrew the cash. I went to my favorite coffee shop and ordered an iced coffee and a stuffed bagel. It cheered me up a bit.

I traveled downtown, when I was walking along a street there were some church members offering free coffee. I got some and talked with them.

I went to the hairdresser, fortunately I made it there in time. I had my hair shampooed twice, and then I got an argan oil mask and scalp massage.
After my hair was dried, I had my hair cut evenly in layers and the dry split ends cut off. I also had my fringe shortened.

After that, I just hung around downtown and then I went to an organic shop and bought castor oil to put on my eyelashes.

I went to the Red Cross youth group. The others played Trivial Pursuit, I didn’t take part in it but I knew answers to most of the questions.

After the group, I traveled back to my hometown and went to a supermarket to buy a birthday card and a proper postage stamp for it.

I went back home, took my evening medicine and painkillers and sprayed Nasonex into my nostrils. I put all the trash into recycling, and all the stuff I had bought into their rightful places. I worked on the greeting card.

In the evening, I started feeling anxious once again. I also felt terribly angry, like there was a fire burning my body from inside. Then I started feeling sad and depressed.
Soon I also started feeling cold, so I put on my new bathrobe. Then I started feeling sleepy. but I boldly decided not to go to sleep before I have finished my evening routines. Besides, I need to fetch a fresh nightie from the drying room before going to bed.

I guess it’s the dark and cold season making me fatigued all the time. Somehow I feel like I am not trying hard enough.

I went downstairs to the drying room; I went down the stairs instead of using the elevator in order to prove to myself that I am not as lazy and unmotivated as I might think I am.

Tomorrow I need to do housework; I need to replace the towels, take out the recycling, and wipe the weird stains off the kitchen and bathroom floor.
I might also go visit a museum or two.

On Sunday, I will go visit my parents. My dad will give me the weekly allowance, and I will call my granny.